Roll Call 14

One thing that I always keep in mind with the internet is to not say anything that you have issues with the whole world knowing about, because once it's out there, it's out there. Tough, but true. I just don't have any expectation of privacy at all, maybe it's because everyone's reading my thoughts anyway... I don't know. Pardon my rambling.

No one knows me in real life by Cracking Slowly. I've never used that name but on PC. But I have given details about my life here. I guess I don't have anything to worry about really but for some reason knowing that I can be googled really bothers me. I just deleted my profile information.

Yeah I understand, stuff like that can really trip me up too.

You are exactly right! I haven't said anything here on PC that I feel I need to worry about. But the google exposure really bothers me for some reason. Idk.

Now I feel paranoid and am going to google my user name again and look at it in more detail.

It takes me right to Roll Call 14 and displays what I've written on page 9 along with the other posts! It does require someone to enter their PC information in order to view more. But geez! Oh well! That's the internet for ya! I'm going to just tell myself who cares! I'm not going to stop being Cracking Slowly! Screw google!

It took me a while to feel comfortable enough to really start posting some and reading threads and replying to others. I need PC. It's the only place I can really be real!

Hahaha! Apparently I did well picking a less unique name! Although I would hate for anyone here to think I am the pole dancing Gr3tta - that is NOT me, okay!

....I'm laughing at the results of my search, not at you guys. I can understand it making you uneasy. I hope it won't keep anyone from posting. I love hearing from all of you.

Sorry it's distressing for you.

I'm glad people can find PC with a google search. I think a lot of people drop in, read, get help, and never even sign up for an account.

My username is the Dr from the anime one piece, nothing is private online. Nothing in my mind is private from the stalkers though.

I can't sleep, my head is full of stuff.

I'm glad that PC is searchable and if someone is searching "Cracking Slowly" and it leads them to get help then that's cool! But my user name is so weird I doubt anyone will search it. I'm not going to stop posting just because of google. I need my Roll Call family!!!!

Kureha: I'm sorry you're having trouble sleeping. I've been going through that too. My sleeping pattern is all messed up right now. I've been watching back to back Netflix documentaries to keep my mind distracted.

You can google anything and find anything using the internet. I keep all my information disclosed because it's so easy to track people and damage people's lives. People are too trusting on the internet, not just on this site, but in general.

Even though no one has told me this, I realize I may be stressing my friends and more importantly my boyfriend out. I decided to drop the pet subject and keep it to myself by doing research along with saving money for everything needed in the future. I'm contemplating having more therapy so I can vent to someone that won't be affected by what I say negatively and can help me with my symptoms. My boyfriend does act as a caregiver for me, but I don't want him to feel too obligated about my symptoms. I need to help myself and not burden him too much.

I totally agree! I wouldn't want "certain people" to know my PC posts. Here I feel like I can be "real" with what I say and feel but I still have to keep my identity a secret.

I always wonder if just maybe there's someone on here, like maybe a co-worker, that knows who I really am. If I think about that too much it makes me extremely paranoid. So I try to put it out of my mind the best that I can.

I think about that too which is why I keep myself disclosed as much as possible. I try my best to not be so paranoid, but I can't help it as I am constantly paranoid about certain stuff liked being spied on. I know the government isn't spying on me since I'm not important enough, but someone is and it causes me a lot of distress.

I'm sorry. It sounds like you might be feeling a bit overwhelmed. Just remember we are here for you! Hang in there! Take it one day at a time. That's all you can do!

I just searched The_little_didgee. Four results came up. Three from PC and another from sweetsearch.com. Anxiety, Asperger's and schizophrenia are associated with my username, which doesn't surprise me.

Nobody knows I am a member on this site. Two people know I have used wrongplanet.net in the past but that is it.

I wasn't able to find my profile on a Google search. I did discover there is a company called Didgee Vacations. Interesting.

Didgee is based on my nickname. It isn't it exactly but it is close. One has to know my real name to find me. I don't use social networking sites and I have an unlisted phone number so I am very hard to find. I searched myself and did not find anything except for one page on my university's website.

I am scared someone will identify me. Sometimes I wonder if my psychiatrist visits this website.

I'm a bit overwhelmed with a few things and thank you very much

I am going to be up all night again. Yay! More documentaries.

I am not sure what to do about school. This is consuming my thoughts. I feel like I need to take the semester off but I cannot make up my mind. My dreams feel like they are going nowhere.

Apparently I have "self-abandoned", because I am depressed and have given up on my medication.

I'm sick of being told me being a TI isn't true.
Kept thinking about that last night as well, I need really good proof.

Just waiting for the nurse to call and see if the Dr is coming today or tomorrow

omg i would die if my T came to this website and found me. but he would never do that

I asked about this once in another forum and the consensus is that they don't unless it's for their own support in their own psych issues, I mean who gets off work to entertain themselves with more of the same work?

I told the psychologist I used to see that I used this site, didn't tell her my username though and we looked at the site, but I doubt she ever went back on, because like someone else said its more of the same.

Apparently there are no microwave weapons - it's all in my head, the nurse that said that she is ok, but my god she won't believe a word I say.

I'm think the sleeper cells were messing with me since I'm still alive, I just can't tell.