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Hmm that's really interesting that the other bodies won't copy your hair...for me I looked the same but in the spirit world I would sort of have the capacity to evolve into something else and nobody knew what it was...most people come with indicators but they had no idea if I was supposed to be a water sprite a shaman or even Mother Nature it was undetermined...but it was supposed to be far from mundane.

I think the other bodies copy common actions because we're partially co-conscious. Dyeing your hair takes time, and it's not something I normally do. EDIT: But now that I think of it, the writing comes off so quickly that I usually don't have time to check if it's still there or to remember if it's had time to fade... But the bottom line is that writing isn't working out, so I need to do something that's more permanent and noticeable.

However I suspect that it would only work in the short term because the other bodies might follow my lead in the long term...

I wish my other worlds were magical like that. They're kind of like this world, but different locations and (sometimes) time periods (usually within my lifetime). Sometimes they're almost identical to this one, but whatever happens there doesn't happen here. And sometimes kind of ****ed up.

Yeah it was really cool I was working with a couple of shamans and a disabled wind goddess to cure her and then channel some of her energy to the earth to heal people. It was supposed to be a passive process once it was set up that people around me would just start healing and I wouldn't even have to do anything which is great because I work in a hospital and those people could use some positive goddess powered energy.

Damn. My worlds have gods too, but they're not really religious figures. They're just people who are interdimensionally inclined. Other than that, I don't think we get any interesting powers so to speak... We just have responsibilities... The demons aren't really demons, either, they just come from different worlds. Or different versions of this world. They're not really evil. They probably don't know what they're doing. But they need to be contained or they'll cause damage.

I'm thinking of dyeing my hair white. I have short bleached blonde hair at the moment.
It's kind of like Jennifer Lawrence's new hair (I had it first! Just saying):

But a little more anime character-ish and less mom-ish.
So in theory, it should look like this:
http://www.nsmbl.com/wp-content/uplo...er-haar-13.jpg
EDIT: WAIT THIS ONE ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE ME:


I know white hair takes a lot of work to maintain, but I don't mind.

Oh, also, I'm only 18, so it's okay if I look silly.

Thoughts?

I think thats pretty. Try it!

I always thought white hair would be cool. I dyed my hair blue when I was in high school

A job position that I'm interested in came up and I have ties with the facility. I really want the job, but change makes me nervous since I strive for consistency. My anxiety is kind of bad since I never worked this kind of job before. Everyone is telling me to go after it and it will be great. Positive thoughts and calmness is what I need the most. I think I'm going to go to bed early since my hallucinations are increasing my anxiety. I keep smelling water and feel like I'm underwater.

True. Here in NY, Bean is dx psychotc disorder NOS until she is 17. Then they are allowed to call it by name.

But that is on paper. All her docs and aides use the word schizophrenia.

It has a lot to do with billing, insurance, etc.

And then there are the subtypes...

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they did away with the subtypes in DSM 5 punky

Okay. Good to know.
Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

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i dont want to end up in state hospital and im so close to doing so. the last hospital 4 times back - threatened state hospital on me. i have a drop in intelligence and functionality with all my breaks i had. right now im still in a psychosis because i had so many breaks.

i think its both good and bad. it lumps everyone together as having schizophrenia but thats also the bad thing i think. some people are worse than others.

You are right. I see so many variables. So many levels and symptoms.
Thank you.

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They got rid of them because they were deemed non-helpful. Treatment was identical in every subtype....no research was done on any of the subtypes...the trend is the opposite now it's the schizophrenia spectrum like the autism spectrum if anything they put sz sza and szpm together in research studies because for the most part you get equivalent treatment. Some of the most recent studies even include bipolar but usually they treat that as a separate cluster...actually the NIMH which is in charge of research has stopped requiring dsm terms in its applications because they don't represent distinct biological disorders. It's like the common cold...there are 200 separate types of virus that cause the cold...if we were trying to find one thing that would cure the cold we couldn't do it except for symptoms which are in common. So things are moving to the genetic level where there are hundreds of different mutations that may have an impact.

This is the way I have been leaning toward.
There are so many changes with the 'rules' of an illness that I cant keep up with the literature.
Thank you for clarifying. Your description puts it in perspective.

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Wow those hair cuts look so beautiful... especially the white hair one. You should totally go for it!

Yea she should.
I love the look.

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i just took my first haldol tablet this morning and im already hatin it

Better than injections though, right?
((((hugs)))

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You know when I was a kid we would sometimes eat apples with regard to an apple a day keeps the doctor away---somehow we believed it to be true so despite not really liking apples all that much we did it to stay healthy and avoid the doctor---maybe you can view it that way?

My sister had white hair with turquoise tips when she was in high school and to this day I still think it was her best hair color----even though she's punk the scene still changes as you get older and now she has a more restrained pure black and lets her ink be the color. I say do it while you can it gets harder to take risks when you're older because of job concerns etc.

^ This

I've been wanting to dye my hair purple for the longest time but never did. It wasn't until after high school I wanted to dye it. I had a job at a retail store that doesn't allow hair to be dyed an unnatural color (like blue, pink, purple, ect). I'm on SSI now but I SHOULD be looking for a job so it wouldn't be a good idea to dye mine.

I'm sorry, Firebird, so much to take in. I'm very sorry you have so much stress going on.

My oldest step-brother and his wife had a still born baby girl, many years ago. (She would be in college now.) Her name would have been Jordan. Anyway, in the weeks before my step-mom's first husband passed away suddenly with no warning, he kept saying things like "Jordan was jumping rope in the hall last night, did you hear her laughing?" We all believe that, yes, he did go with Jordan and she came to comfort him before his passing. But, it also comforts everyone else, because it's a sign that our loved ones are with family after death and still love us.

When I was 18 - 23 I had a ton of colors of hair: aqua, purple, black w/white stripes, cherry red... lots. My best color, I think, is what I called "reversed orange cream-sicle." Because I tried to bleach out from red and my hair was an off-white but my roots were orange. It was impossible to keep, of course, one of those "happy accidents." But, I think white hair is beautiful and you should go for it!

I completely agree with Sometimes it's best to do it while you can because as you get older it's harder to pull it off. You start to look ridiculous, trying to hold on to something no longer there, rather than edgy or cool.