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Maybe they feel that because Bean requires a lot of attention? Sometimes people just don't understand mental illness/autism. Maybe as Bean gets older their relationship will change? I'm the oldest out of my siblings and there has been times where I was jealous because they're younger and got all the attention.

True. She has had to be watched since she was little.
But I was at every sporting event my kids played in all the way until they graduated and was involved in the school and supported everything they did.

I know it was hard on them but I was also there for them the whole time. I made sure of it knowing how things were, I went out of my way to be involved in on purpose. You know what I mean?

But in the end, I guess it really doesnt matter. I hope someday they will understand how much they are loved and that I did the best I could.

people suffering from schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder (which are essentially the same) require a lot of attention. i used to get a lot of attention because of my dx from my dad. until he went back to work a few months ago. i dont think im getting the attention i need.

Yeah, sometimes even in the best of situations jealousy can linger. My situation is a bit different. I've had abusive parents/stepmom.

Kurhea: I agree don't talk to him if the police will be called. Even if the police aren't as forceful as in the US, you've already had dealings with them being called before. You don't want to end up in jail for a misunderstanding. Just be careful.

Punky: being a parent is hard. Maybe they are not jealous exactly but maybe they don't understand what she is going through. I think it might be hard to say "I had the same mom and dad and I'm fine, so why is something wrong with her?" Plus, it's invisible. My oldest son's cousin has pretty sever autism, but he just looks like a noraml kid, you know? So, when he starts throwing a tantrum all people see is a 12 year old boy acting like a brat rather than a kid with autism becoming overwhelmed.

[sigh] i told my dad im having anxiety and paranoia and he didnt really listen. i feel so alone dealing with my schiz.

Makes me think of this image

It's official my ex and I are **** buddies until one of us find someone. Lol it hasn't stopped us before. God I want sex. Of course once my meds kick back in it may not be the case.

I suspected as much How do you feel about it?

I did the same a few months ago. Now I feel much better. Hope yours is temporary too.

FB is fake. Most people only put positives on there so it's not an accurate reflection of people's lives.

I've never been full manic, only hypomanic, but I've seen others have manic episodes that last longer than 3 days without meds.

So much going on for you all Punky I would think about the clozaril...if I needed it, I'd take it. The risk of the serious blood problem is teeny and they monitor it so it can be stopped before it gets out of hand. The other problem is weight gain, but that's the same with a lot of the APs. Maybe the clozaril will help avoid residential...

I don't think that would be wise if it would involve the police.

No the regular police don't carry guns (thank god! That would freak me the **** out! I already get anxious when I see the police; afraid I'm going to get arrested for something, dunno what though), but they have special gun divisions if needed.

I hated my brother who had ADHD and was abusive, because he acted like a total **** all the time and yet got all the attention. However now we get on well and I think he's a great dad. What I'm saying is that things could change as she gets older, but may involve talking to the others about what their problem is with Bean, see if you could facilitate a resolution

*Willow*

So the guidance counselor at the school called me today. She is very concerned about Bean saying that she's has a lot of delusions, visuals, auditory, and tactile hallucinations almost everyday and is having a lot of trouble functioning in the school environment right now.

It used to be that the guidance counselor could explain a situation and give her a reality check but now the reality checks are not working.

Her pdoc wants me to have her hospitalized so that they can take her off of the AP's that she is on, and put her on Clazril in a hospital setting where it will be safe to do.

The problem is this time I know that she is going to fight me about being hospitalized. She will not want to go.

So how do I handle this? Do I make her go? do I force her? How do I do this without her hating me and without her feeling as if she has no control over the situation?

Or do I not take her to the hospital and keep her at home? I need some advice please.

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Punky: Oh dear! Can you leave this decision to her treatment team? Let them be the bad guys? My Mum got me Sectioned in Nov because I was suicidal and intending to act on it. While rationally I know that she did the right thing making sure I was safe, emotionally I am still quite angry about it and now won't talk about how I'm feeling with my parents cos it's not safe. I know my Mum (and you now) was in a difficult position, so sending you & Bean lots of

*Willow*

That's what I'm afraid of willow.
I don't want her to ever feel that way. She is 14 years old not an adult. This is a very hard decision to make.

I don't know what to do.

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I guess it depends. Do you think beans a danger to herself and/or others? If so the hospital may be an option. If so than its best she goes. As for what she thinks of you afterwords doesn't matter. She's young and she'll get over it eventually. You'll have to protect her from herself if she is a danger.

I guess that if you think she needs to go, then she needs to go. As Erti said, she'll get over it. I know that I'll get over it too. Like I said, rationally I know my Mum did what she thought was best, and at the end of the day, that's all anybody can do

*Willow*

It is a hard decision. She is only 14.

From someone on the complete other side of things, there are points where I know I needed help and absolutely no one stood up or stepped up for me at all. Not even sort of. They just let me survive it. I can say I'm still really angry at my dad for just letting me suffer and telling me to just get over it. That I was just a kid and just deal with it. And my dad's not even here now. I mean, I struggle to ask for help at all, even here on the forum or even to people closest to me, because of it. I struggle to even work up the courage to make appointments and get help for myself.

I don't know. You already do a lot for your daughter and fight for her. So, it's not the same. But, in my perspective I look back and see me standing alone and I wish I could see people standing beside me instead.

i say only admit her if shes a danger to herself/others or cant care for herself

OK I don't understand why she needs to be in the hospital for this, admittedly a lot of pdocs cross-taper meds and do other weird stuff but when I switched from risperidone to abilify it was like night one take nothing night 2 take a half dose of abilify night 3 full dose of abilify---you don't really need to clear you system completely of the drug to start a new one since they are very similar. I see no reason this can't be done at home since the current med clearly isn't working great to begin with. Ask the pdoc why they can't do it outside of the hospital...

how are you feeling SometimesP?...

Better went out with my friend last night for tiki Chinese and calmed right down...still trying to limit my forum activity until I get my thoughts in better shape though...thanks for asking. Sorry to offend you the other day.

Get better soon! I'll miss your brain!

I'm so sorry. I would be really careful with the residential places. I've heard some bad stuff about them. If I were to do it I would research the facility a lot before I would go through with it. I'm really sorry ur going through so much.

That is so tough. What is she doing specifically that has the pdoc wanting to change her meds? Will giving her extra meds work at home? Why does the pdoc want her hospitalized exactly.

To everybody struggling

I can't do the cut and paste on here. I'm on a kindle.

Punky- I reread what u said and understand why the pdoc wants her to go in the hospital. But like sometimes said, I've changed meds at home many times. Even when I've been in a bad mixed so on the verge of psychosis. I did go to one of my sisters house so I wouldn't be alone and it took about a week for me to adjust to the new med. I don't understand why u can't just do it at home?

I'm really sorry, this must be really tough.

on clozaril you sort of have to be hospitalized because your blood levels have to watched. or at least take it home and go get the weekly bllood tests.

I had ran out of my lorazepam and got really paranoid and anxious without them. It's hard for me to get around so I finally took a cab to get them. I'm so mad at the psych nurse that put me on them. Now I don't know how I'm gonna get off of them

Sorry, to complain when others are going through much more than me. I'm just sick of this paranoia.