Roll Call 19

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 10:38 AM

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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

I've gained a lot of weight in the past few months from medications, it sucks. I still haven't been able to lose it and keep it off. It's so frustrating!

i gained from meds. but ever since ive lowered my dose i still cant get the weight off. i need to go on a diet. ive lost 80 pounds before and its hard. but now i need to lose like 15-20 pounds. its gonna be tough.

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 12, 2014, 10:40 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i gained from meds. but ever since ive lowered my dose i still cant get the weight off. i need to go on a diet. ive lost 80 pounds before and its hard. but now i need to lose like 15-20 pounds. its gonna be tough.

The 80 pounds was from the seroquel right? That medication made me gain a lot of weight too.

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 10:46 AM

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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

The 80 pounds was from the seroquel right? That medication made me gain a lot of weight too.

yep it was. i went up to 181 i think at my highest. and then lost the weight back to 105. thank god! but for some reason i think this haldol has me back up to 130. now i gotta lose that back to 105 again (my goal weight). it can be done i know because i did it before but its gonna be SO hard.

punkybrewster6k · Mar 12, 2014, 10:57 AM

Are you getting your period soon?
That could make you gain 5lbs and then lose it again after your period is gone.

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Erti · Mar 12, 2014, 10:57 AM

I'm trying to eat healthier foods such as fruits and veggies but it doesn't fill me up so I end up eating something more hardy. Lol... I thought I was fat when I weight 150-160 pounds back in high school... I never thought I'd end up over 200 pounds let alone 240 (at my highest weight). Right now I'm at 221 (last time I weighed myself).

I like to thank the freshmen 15 while I was in college and I would like to thank the anti-psychotics I've been on through the years.

faerie_moon_x · Mar 12, 2014, 10:59 AM

I wish I could lose weight.

I've gained 45 ponds since last year at this time. I'm definitely struggling with issues mentally because of it

Erti · Mar 12, 2014, 10:59 AM

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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k

Are you getting your period soon?
That could make you gain 5lbs and then lose it again after your period is gone.

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I'm actually getting off my period... I'm probably safe to take off my pads now.

Erti · Mar 12, 2014, 11:04 AM

I hate them damn tornado sirens. I have to keep reminding myself that they're not going off because war is headed for us.

punkybrewster6k · Mar 12, 2014, 11:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

I'm trying to eat healthier foods such as fruits and veggies but it doesn't fill me up so I end up eating something more hardy. Lol... I thought I was fat when I weight 150-160 pounds back in high school... I never thought I'd end up over 200 pounds let alone 240 (at my highest weight). Right now I'm at 221 (last time I weighed myself).

I like to thank the freshmen 15 while I was in college and I would like to thank the anti-psychotics I've been on through the years.

Ha. Freshman 15 is very real.
And the AP of course.
I have the opposite problem. Im high strung and stress makes me not eat for days then I get weak amd woozy and funny in the head.

Went to the store yesterday to get some thimgs and got so dizzy i grabbed a big candy bar, tore it open and shoved it in my mouth while leaning against the
Rack. Embarassing....

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Erti · Mar 12, 2014, 11:09 AM

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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k

Ha. Freshman 15 is very real.
And the AP of course.
I have the opposite problem. Im high strung and stress makes me not eat for days then I get weak amd woozy and funny in the head.

Went to the store yesterday to get some thimgs and got so dizzy i grabbed a big candy bar, tore it open and shoved it in my mouth while leaning against the
Rack. Embarassing....

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Funny how stress effects a person in opposite ways. I think my grandmother was like that. She would of been happy if she weighed more than 100 pounds. There would of been times she wouldn't eat much at all. Not sure if that was stress or something else.

punkybrewster6k · Mar 12, 2014, 11:10 AM

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Originally Posted by sunshine1995

I'm struggling. Crying...Just memories. I feel so freaking damaged sometimes. I'll be back when I'm feeling better.

Hope your feeling better sunshine. (((hugs)))

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punkybrewster6k · Mar 12, 2014, 11:11 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

So I bought a book managing anger with cbt for dummies...the dummies books are always so funny. So I'm reading along you know like 2-3 pages in in just the general background section and for some reason it clicked in my brain that I am really angry at having been sick and that I never really got to express it. I mean sure I thought it was unfair but I was so drugged up on APs that all my actual I think legitimate anger was never expressed. I think that is why the forum has been a little triggering lately...I mean I'm just getting my emotions back to their normal strength and that was the first one that cropped up...and honestly I think I'm angry that all of you are sick and dealing with this ***** too. Because it's not even remotely fair that this should happen to any of us....it's like I thought I could just fix everything somehow but really that's not always going to be the case it's possible that things can't be fixed using the tools we have have now and that's incredibly frustrating for me both as a person and as a scientist. I need to find a new balance with this so I may be in and out for a while.

(((hug)))
I know.

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newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 11:23 AM

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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k

Are you getting your period soon?
That could make you gain 5lbs and then lose it again after your period is gone.

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no i just had it. plus i usually lose weight on my period. so this sucks.

faerie_moon_x · Mar 12, 2014, 12:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

So I bought a book managing anger with cbt for dummies...the dummies books are always so funny. So I'm reading along you know like 2-3 pages in in just the general background section and for some reason it clicked in my brain that I am really angry at having been sick and that I never really got to express it. I mean sure I thought it was unfair but I was so drugged up on APs that all my actual I think legitimate anger was never expressed. I think that is why the forum has been a little triggering lately...I mean I'm just getting my emotions back to their normal strength and that was the first one that cropped up...and honestly I think I'm angry that all of you are sick and dealing with this ***** too. Because it's not even remotely fair that this should happen to any of us....it's like I thought I could just fix everything somehow but really that's not always going to be the case it's possible that things can't be fixed using the tools we have have now and that's incredibly frustrating for me both as a person and as a scientist. I need to find a new balance with this so I may be in and out for a while.

Humans are such complicated things. I think that's why a lot of people without mental illness don't understand. "Just do what I do and you'll be fine." Well, those same things don't work for everyone.

It is frustrating and scary, too.

I Think it's really important that you are identifying what's making you angry. I'm really, really angry. I was never an angry person in my life. But when the bad time happened it like broke something inside of me. Now I am dealing with so much anger and it turns out I am the type that would just stuff down the things that really hurt me and bothered me, and now I have all this anger. Learning how to deal with it is really hard, but I think I'm figuring it out slowly.

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 01:04 PM

i too used to NOT be an angry person. i used to stuff things down too and suppress them. when i had my second psychotic episode my anger came out. a lot. i was hitting my dad and yelling at him. i choked my mom. i almost assaulted a girl in college. it came out violently and i regret it all (except that girl sorry she deserved it). im sorry for being mean to my family tho.

Mar 12, 2014, 01:27 PM

So I went to the ER with a panic attack. Terrifying. I don't have panic attacks often.

On the hospital bed for a while warm blanket shaking violently couldn't breath. Went home with benzo and slept. First time I felt normal in a year.

Too much cortisol in the body way too much.

When I relaxed they said wow your heart rate was 160 but still had to wait for it to go down.

There's no way that I would tell them that my heart rate sometimes goes to 240bpm..

Calm calm calm.. Please I don't want anxiety today I will sleep when I get home

faerie_moon_x · Mar 12, 2014, 02:05 PM

I hope you havea better day, Alone.

I'm glad you got some sleep. Hopefully that will help with the anxiety, too.

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 02:57 PM

how are you doing costello?

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 03:06 PM

so i goto starbucks and im like "whats the strongest coffee you have?" and they say "a shot of espresso with regular coffee" and im like "ok give me that". and im here hyped up and about to crash.

Erti · Mar 12, 2014, 03:17 PM

lol, I don't really like coffee but god I wouldn't mind a nice heavy set of caffeine right now.

RRex · Mar 12, 2014, 03:17 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

so i goto starbucks and im like "whats the strongest coffee you have?" and they say "a shot of espresso with regular coffee" and im like "ok give me that". and im here hyped up and about to crash.

If you want to order that again it's called an Americano.

I usually get a quad shot with cream.

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 03:21 PM

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Originally Posted by RRex

If you want to order that again it's called an Americano.

I usually get a quad shot with cream.

i love caffiene.

i actually have fridge magnets that say how to make all kinds of coffees so thanks for that! i thought americano was watered down coffee. but anyway all i really wanted was espressio by itself. next time i think ill have what they call a solo esperesso or a doppio espresso. idk what a doppio is tho. gonna have to google that.

RRex · Mar 12, 2014, 03:22 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

i love caffiene.

i actually have fridge magnets that say how to make all kinds of coffees so thanks for that! i thought americano was watered down coffee. but anyway all i really wanted was espressio by itself. next time i think ill have what they call a solo esperesso or a doppio espresso. idk what a doppio is tho. gonna have to google that.

I believe it's a double shot of espresso.

I'm going to backtrack on the Americano. Now you've got me thinking about it and I'm not sure. I already can't make decisions.

I was wrong. An Americano is watered down espresso.

Atypical_Disaster · Mar 12, 2014, 03:44 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

so i goto starbucks and im like "whats the strongest coffee you have?" and they say "a shot of espresso with regular coffee" and im like "ok give me that". and im here hyped up and about to crash.

Ah, I love coffee.

newtus · Mar 12, 2014, 03:56 PM

so i learned a doppio is a doubble shot of espresso in the same volume as one shot. totally getting that by itself next time.!

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