Roll Call 24

Anyone hear from cannablisfully today?

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Newtus-of course u can answer. I remember when u were on meds and still having symptoms. On meds though is it less?

I wish all of this was easier for all of us.

Sorry never mind

on meds its less but still there and when i get stressed out on meds its worse. almost like i wasnt even on meds.

I'm sorry, I didn't know that. I wonder why some people with sz, the meds work really well.

I have a friend with sz that's on a low dose of abilify. She does pretty well. She still thinks her ex who has passed communicates with her and she can be pretty meek sometimes, but she does pretty good. I think maybe it's just different personalities?

I just spent the last 3 hours reading through diaries that I kept from 2007 until the present. I've finally gone through each of them page by page and can now throw them away. It amazes me to read where I was then compared to where I am now. I've been through hell and back but am still standing. I've just got to continue to take things day by day and keep fighting no matter what comes my way.

I don't know how long it takes Haldol to 'work,' but maybe they need to try a different med regimen?

have they been making her take meds? if so, are they reducing her symptoms yet?

idk much more than what she tells me. maybe ill ask her tomorrow

this kind of inspired me. ive kept all my journals since 13 yrs old.

Oh wow! That's pretty cool. I'm not sure why I decided to read them today. I was having a really bad day earlier, very shaky and paranoid. I had to drive my daughter to work and go pick up some medicine at the pharmacy. I thought I was going to loose my **it when I was out. I came home thinking I would lay down and try to relax. I saw my stack of diaries on my shelf and just picked one up and started reading. It actually helped me feel better. There were things that were very hard to read and hurt to remember. But I kept reading and I was able to see the hell I lived through and it made me think wow, I've come a long way. I only went back as far as 2007. Anything before that I couldn't deal with today. So I've loaded all those diaries up in a big black trash bag and I'm fixing to take them out to the dumpster. I'm done with those now. It feels good to be done with them and to know that I will never see them again.

Newtus -

I checked on what to expect out of Haldol.

It takes from several days to several weeks to start reducing paranoia, anxiety and hallucinations. it takes from 4 to 6 weeks to reduce other symptoms like delusions, etc.

Smoking reduces the effectiveness. I don't know how alcohol affects Haldol, but it is not supposed to be combined with alcohol either.

I'm not sure what your history is with sticking to your regimen. But if you are frequently going off and on, and reducing your dose, then you may have never given Haldol a chance to work.

If you take the prescribed dose every day at the same time for six weeks and have no relief from your symptoms, then you can talk to your doctor about trying something else. You would also need to stay away from cigarettes and alcohol.

As for the feeling of sedation, as with most AP's I'm guessing that as your body adjusts to it (assuming you take it every day and don't go off it), that problem will go away. My daughter has taken various AP's for bipolar, and was on Geodon for several years. The first couple of weeks after starting it (and for 1 week each time her dose was raised), she slept most of the day for that period of time. Then she got back to her normal energy level.

I know all of that sounds really hard. But if doing all of that for 6 weeks turns out to give you enough relief from your symptoms that you are able to become more active in life and be better able to do what you want to do - and become less isolated - wouldn't it be worth it?

i suppose it would be

thank you
im just scared of side effects and weight gain
i dont need to made fun anymore by my mom and i want to feel good about myself too.

I threw mine out but regret it. I think it's a good thing to look back at how we used to be. Jmo.

I literally just tossed them into the dumpster. It felt good. I've decided why look back? I can't change anything that happened during that time period. I've learned a lot from it and vow to never make the same mistakes. All I can do is live for today and try to make the best of today. What gets me down is reliving things from my past. I don't know how I'll feel about this tomorrow but as far as for today I feel good about it.

Newt--how many mgs of haldol are u supposed to on? Lol, is it ok if I call u Newt?

If it makes u feel better then that's a good choice. For me it's complicated, I went through some really intense **** in my life and wish I would have kept my journals, that's just for me though. We're all different...

Side effects and weight gain are the reason I don't take meds today. I know I should but I don't. Maybe one day that will change. I don't know. But I think that there is a point in time where things get so bad that you have to take meds for relief and to be able to keep functioning in daily life. When your quality of life sucks then you've got to decide how to fix it.
No one should ever make fun of you Newtus. You don't deserve that. You'll have to set your boundary with your mom and refuse to put up with that.

I agree. Please Newt, don't put up with ur moms verbal abuse anymore. I think what crescent moon said is a good way of handling ur mom.

Yes that's very true. Notice I was only able to begin with 2007. The majorly intense **it all happened before that. I am not strong enough to go before 2007 yet. Honestly I'm not sure when or if I'll be strong enough to relive those years.

yea newt is fine

im on 2mg twice a day but currently only taking 2mg a day

And I understand what your saying. Here are the thoughts that run through my mind.

1. A little heavier than you are now... vs. totally miserable, paranoid, isolated, and in danger of committing homicide/suicide.

I think you'll feel better about yourself, regardless of your weight, when you are stable enough to be more involved in life, and not spending 100% of your time battling voices that say mean things to you and delusions and paranoias.

Tell your mom to jump in a lake.

thanks. i love my mom i just need to distance myself from her. shes a trigger forr me.

i always thought i wanted to be skinny and psychotic vs. fat and sane. but maybe this 2mg wont make me fat. im working on it i am.

Just keep in mind that 2mg probably won't be enough. Remember you were on more than that before. Maybe you should try taking the dose the pdoc prescribed you and just make sure you eat healthy and exercise daily. If you do that then hopefully you will be able to control your weight. It would be worth a try right?