Roll Call 25

I'm gonna make a blog like Newtus has but for myself because my memory is terrible.

What happened that makes you feel this way??

hes just really old. not laid back. says he doesnt work with serious mental illness. but said he can help me with my depression.

apparently no one works with serious mental illness.

im just very depressed right now.

im going back to my old therapist to see what her agreement plans are. somehow i just know ill be on injections with a doctor there again but maybe thats whats best for me

Thats what im finding...

punky

I took the haldol/zyprexa combination for awhile, it worked really well for me. I only switched due to gaining too much weight.

Didn't go to class today. Isolating is a bad idea. I just couldn't force myself to do it.

Ugh, so much for freedom...I have to see the new pdoc again in 6 months...I told her how I was using the light for SAD or whatever this winter and she started talking about the risks of doing that with possible bipolar----so apparently now I'm possibly bipolar---nice....and I really don't like the way she says I'm not going to put you on meds or anything right now etc....she uses the word I like it is strictly her choice or something. Old pdoc was so much cooler---he's supposed to start over here but hasn't yet...I would so like to transfer...ugh....what crap...

What the ****? That's pretty spectacular and not in a good way.

Thanks---I mean I should really know better..but I got so used to my old pdoc being cool that I was just telling her whatever.

what do you guys think i should do? sign an agreement plan? i have to sign one or im discharged from that therapy

Depends on what they want you to do and if you want to do it. Honestly I think if they want you to go back on injection that might be good for you but I know last time they did all this in the absence of asking you your opinion about it and just kept increasing the dose...I don't think that essentially forcing treatment is good unless you want that to happen because you don't trust your own opinion when you are sick...ie sort of a self binding thing. It may have nothing to do with treatment it may be a sort of pledge not to hurt yourself or others or some such...that I think would be beneficial...

im seeing if my dad can go with me into the room to talk about the agreement

Hmm I never had a therapist that told me they don't deal with serious mental illness. I did have one before being diagnosed with schizophrenia/psychosis ask me if I ever heard of schizophrenia and started looking through a book and asked me questions.

Doing ok at the moment. Im working in software development and have just got local government funding to develop my product further. So im motivated and interested for now. Lets hop it will continue. Wont be on for the next few months. Good luck

That's great!

Good luck with your product, I hope it works out for you

I've been pretty busy. I can't keep up with the roll call. My mind is scattered all over. But I hope everyone's doing okay and to anyone who isn't.

I swear my moms chihuahua isn't very smart.

im extremely worried about this agreement plan. they havent told me these "rules" but stated if i break them im discharged from seeing her. or if i disagree with any of them im disharged immediately.

i wonder what they are.

When do you see her?

this thursday at 11am. i purposely missed the last appt. i shouldnt have.

this is gonna be a very long two days

im gonna see if i can make myself sleep for two days straight. i have sooo much anxiety and depression over this its not funny anymore