Home Menu

Menu


Closed Thread
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #201  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:04 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
im scared honestly that im going to fail idk
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k, StarStrike

advertisement
  #202  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:09 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
idk i just i feel like theres a hidden rule somwhere. it makes me paranoid all this.
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k, StarStrike, ZehR
  #203  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:15 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
i feel like theres hidden messages in those rules
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k, StarStrike
  #204  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:21 PM
punkybrewster6k's Avatar
punkybrewster6k punkybrewster6k is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: USA
Posts: 1,670
No hidden message. Many T's have these same rules for every patient. They just dont go over them with us. Have you decided to try her for a couple more sessions before you make up your mind? maybe talk to her about how you feel about them.
  #205  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:27 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
i wouldnt know what to ask or say. im still kinda stressed out and worried about this
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
punkybrewster6k, StarStrike
  #206  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:46 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
idk i just i feel like theres a hidden rule somwhere. it makes me paranoid all this.
There are no hidden rules per se but what is implied is they do not want to have further interaction with you if you "choose" to remain psychotic rather than taking the recommended dose of meds which is likely to increase until that abates regardless of what side effects you have as anything short of a seizure seems to have been considered tolerable to them. I have no idea if your new pdoc will continue to increase your meds but if I recall she already increased the haldol to 10 mg or something so unless you are taking that and not 2-4mg then you are likely already in violation of the contract. Your T has seen what you are like on the injection so she already knows what your functional level should be and will be able to tell if you don't take your meds as directed. They can also do a blood draw to determine actual levels. Your new pdoc may recommend injections after talking to the T and by this contract you have to do pretty much whatever she says. As such you are signing over your decisions if you wish to remain in treatment with the therapist. So long as you are intent on continuing your relationship with this T it is essentially as if you have a court order determining your treatment. The question is what they consider good enough recovery/function---I'm suspecting they will not stop until they hit the maximum dose of haldol available unless you show full loss of psychosis at some earlier dosage.

Me I'm not a big fan of conditional love so I would go somewhere else before I got further ensnared in this mess...
__________________
Hugs!
Thanks for this!
costello, punkybrewster6k
  #207  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:54 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
do you guys think i messed up by signing this contract
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

  #208  
Old May 15, 2014, 03:58 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
do you guys think i messed up by signing this contract
No----the only thing they can do is tell you they don't want to see you again...the alternative is they don't want to see you starting now but if you want for this to work you have to be comfortable putting all your care decisions in the hands of your treatment team...It's not what I would do but it might be the best option for you....
__________________
Hugs!
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
  #209  
Old May 15, 2014, 04:11 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
ive been taking 7mg of haldol everyday. 5 at night. 2 in the morning. i dont see much difference
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

  #210  
Old May 15, 2014, 04:17 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
ive been taking 7mg of haldol everyday. 5 at night. 2 in the morning. i dont see much difference
What are you supposed to be on? I thought it was 10mg---maybe it will help if you go up...also you know you don't want to be in violation of the contract day 1 right?
__________________
Hugs!
  #211  
Old May 15, 2014, 04:21 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
they wouldnt know right? but i guess i will
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

  #212  
Old May 15, 2014, 04:22 PM
FireBird's Avatar
FireBird FireBird is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Feb 2007
Location: in a time machine, to the future and beyond!
Posts: 712
Very very scared out of my mind. Complete hopelessness taking over. Tiredness my body feels much heavier than normal. Many bad things happening. Mom broke her back, in incredible pain. More repairs. Struggles of extreme pain and suffering increasing. My brother remains out of touch with reality, he always claims everything is fine and nothing is going wrong. God, he is grandiose.

Sorry Newtus that you don't like the agreement.
Hugs from:
Atypical_Disaster, costello, junkDNA, medicalfox, punkybrewster6k, Sometimes psychotic
Thanks for this!
newtus
  #213  
Old May 15, 2014, 04:38 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
they wouldnt know right? but i guess i will
The can measure blood levels if they think you're not getting enough...the first time it comes up too low they are going to increase the dose they are giving you just in case its some metabolic thing.... but at some point you won't be able to compensate...especially if they opt for injections instead...

I think if you're planning on lying to them instead of following the spirit of the agreement its not a matter of if it will fail but when...
__________________
Hugs!
Thanks for this!
costello, punkybrewster6k
  #214  
Old May 15, 2014, 04:45 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
i will follow then. i kinda want to get better. thing is some of those voices were my friends
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
junkDNA, Sometimes psychotic
  #215  
Old May 15, 2014, 05:51 PM
justmeandmyhead's Avatar
justmeandmyhead justmeandmyhead is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 2,663
I want to know what happens in healthy people who take antipsychotics. Just because I worry that I've been misdiagnosed and the drugs will harm me. My cpn said it would knock me out if my body wasn't using it and the fact I'm not means it needs it. But what if they're wrong and I don't have sz or something similar.
  #216  
Old May 15, 2014, 05:56 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead View Post
I want to know what happens in healthy people who take antipsychotics. Just because I worry that I've been misdiagnosed and the drugs will harm me. My cpn said it would knock me out if my body wasn't using it and the fact I'm not means it needs it. But what if they're wrong and I don't have sz or something similar.
nomal person take Geodon or Risperidal then what is effect??? | Student Doctor Network

You feel trapped in a box....
__________________
Hugs!
Thanks for this!
justmeandmyhead
  #217  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:13 PM
justmeandmyhead's Avatar
justmeandmyhead justmeandmyhead is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 2,663
What does that mean 'trapped in a box'? Like you feel suffocated or distant?
  #218  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:15 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
why do i feel like everyone is against me here
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

  #219  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:21 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead View Post
What does that mean 'trapped in a box'? Like you feel suffocated or distant?

Don't know but if you don't know you probably aren't feeling it...the pdoc on that site said 5 patients put on the APs in error said that...I imagine it's kind of claustrophobic and panicky like if you were buried alive or something...
__________________
Hugs!
  #220  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:25 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
why do i feel like everyone is against me here
We're not....I don't think anyone here is against you. We might not be telling you things will turn out like you want but that's just reality. If you wanted I could tell you that your T will shred the agreement if anything ever happens because she doesn't want to lose you or that they won't know if you take your meds or whatever but it's not what I actually think will happen...
__________________
Hugs!
  #221  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:30 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
sorry im just very paranoid right now. im sorry. im having a rough time
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
FireBird, Sometimes psychotic, TheatreKid
  #222  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:35 PM
Sometimes psychotic's Avatar
Sometimes psychotic Sometimes psychotic is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
Posts: 26,427
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
sorry im just very paranoid right now. im sorry. im having a rough time
You've had a lot of stress last couple of days...hopefully you can sleep tonight...
__________________
Hugs!
  #223  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:41 PM
Atypical_Disaster's Avatar
Atypical_Disaster Atypical_Disaster is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Mar 2011
Location: Nowhere noteworthy.
Posts: 7,145
Quote:
Originally Posted by newtus View Post
sorry im just very paranoid right now. im sorry. im having a rough time
No need to apologize. Rough times happen around here, totally okay.
Thanks for this!
newtus
  #224  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:42 PM
newtus's Avatar
newtus newtus is offline
The Dopamine Flux
 
Member Since: Jun 2010
Location: Ardenweald
Posts: 43,644
Quote:
Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic View Post
You've had a lot of stress last couple of days...hopefully you can sleep tonight...

i took a nap when i got home but it doesnt seem like enough
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com


Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Hugs from:
Sometimes psychotic
  #225  
Old May 15, 2014, 06:42 PM
Anonymous59893
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Quote:
Originally Posted by FireBird View Post
Very very scared out of my mind. Complete hopelessness taking over. Tiredness my body feels much heavier than normal. Many bad things happening. Mom broke her back, in incredible pain. More repairs. Struggles of extreme pain and suffering increasing. My brother remains out of touch with reality, he always claims everything is fine and nothing is going wrong. God, he is grandiose.


Quote:
Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead View Post
I want to know what happens in healthy people who take antipsychotics. Just because I worry that I've been misdiagnosed and the drugs will harm me. My cpn said it would knock me out if my body wasn't using it and the fact I'm not means it needs it. But what if they're wrong and I don't have sz or something similar.
I'm sorry that you're worrying about that You would get similar side effects, like sedation/akathisia, weight gain etc. They test drugs on healthy volunteers first to find out if they're safe for humans and what the side effect profile is, then they test it on those with the condition to see if it's actually effective in humans against a placebo. I don't think it has anything to do with the brain "using the AP" because the patient "needs" it. Many APs cause sedation in those who have been prescribed them for psychosis, and also in non-psychosis e.g. seroquel/quetiapine causes sedation as a side effect as an AP, but also causes it in those with BP using it as a mood stabiliser, and in those who take it as a sleep aid.

Quote:
Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead View Post
What does that mean 'trapped in a box'? Like you feel suffocated or distant?
I don't know if this would happen for everyone who took an AP they didn't need. But I have felt 'trapped in a box' at times before (though I don't know what meds I was or wasn't on at each point) - personally I always thought it was dissociative due to anxiety. I felt like I was in a glass box where I could see out, but things weren't as clear as 'real life', and sounds were more muffled, and experiences didn't cause the emotions expected (I mostly felt numb) as everything around me that I was observing through my 'glass box' didn't feel real. I always referred to it as derealisation, but idk if that is what these other people mean when they say 'trapped in a box'. Other than that I've had the usual AP side effects - sedation, akathisia, increased appetite & weight gain, blurred vision (starting abilify/aripiprazole) & tinnitus (abruptly stopping aripirazole), and that's all I can think of for now.

*Willow*
Thanks for this!
punkybrewster6k
Closed Thread
Views: 45763

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 10:31 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.