Roll Call 25

work was ok cept i got *****ed out by some lady that didnt believe me when i told her she couldnt buy hot deli food with an EBT card (food stamps). she was cussing and mad as hell i was like i'll get my manager and let her deal with it. the lady scared me i didn tknow what to say or how to handle it so i just told my manager. she ended up giving her the chicken anyway.

then my coworker came up to me and asked me what happened and i told her and she said this : "maybe she should get off of government funding and payfor her own damn groceries".

well that really offended me because 1 im on disability and 2 i have food stamps. now i know i can never use my associate discount there becuase i would be paying with my EBT card and i dont wanna get judged by my coworkers.

sux

does anyone still go on 23andme since they always update it?

No I keep getting relative notices but I just wanted my code and stuff...

I tend not to be scared by people like that. Anyone throwing a hissy fit over deli chicken has a very low tolerance for frustration and very minimal emotion regulation skills. As uncomfortable as you were, I'll beat she was even more uncomfortable.

I think that's why I don't get scared. Instead of provoking an emotional response in me, it makes me go all cerebral - wondering why, oh why, are they acting that way. I can either go to my reasoning mind or my emotional mind, but not both at the same time. And people like that just make me really curious. I feel sorry for them. But I don't think their negative behavior should be rewarded.

Hmph! That's why people act that way. It works. They get what they want which rewards the behavior and encourages more of it in the future.

Don't give up your benefits because of some dumb coworker. You earned your associate discount. It's part of your compensation. And, trust me, you're not the only one there on disability and/or food stamps. And not all your fellow employees will judge you.

Not recently.

thanks costello. for the response.

i like to torture myself. maybe its sabotage. but i read the psychotherapy forum and the romantic feelings for T forum and get so angry. and i shouldnt be because i was there before. i had sexual feelings for my former T. but then the feelings and fantasies became a reality and turned into a nightmare. in my head i call these ppl sick for thinking this way about a T but its really just me calling myself sick i guess. i want to tell these ppl that boundaries are there to protect YOU the client. but i also understand not wanting to hear that in that situation. i told maybe 3 ppl (online) about what was going on with me and former T and all of them told me it was bad. yet i still wanted to do it. i didnt listen. now i want so bad to reach ppl with my story, to tell them its not what they fantasize about it being, that it really hurts u to ur core, and makes it almost impossible to trust anyone again. but ppl must learn on their own and im glad that the majority of Ts out there stick to their boundaries. i dont know. it just triggers me so much. why do i keep looking at it? its like some sick habit i have. T once told me after i told him the kinds of movies and books i like, he said that it may be me trying to reexperience the trauma to make more sense of it. idk. i think ill talk to T about this tomorrow. he doesnt know im on this forum at all. but i realize there are still things that need to be processed.

My appointment went well,Things are looking up My psychiatrist talked with me about my break I had and we talked through about how I am doing now that I am out of the hospital,no changes to my meds. Feeling pretty good. I had a long day afterwards had to go to a bday party for a family member. I am feeling pretty sleepy... How's everyone doing?

I'm doing pretty good @ uh.. I'll call you weed (; It's great that you're doing well now because your previous posts just pointed out the hell that you were in. Maybe a change in meds will help but you're doing well so a break from psychiatry will do you better than changing meds right away maybe.

Does anyone know if Schizotypal Personality Disorder is a personality disorder anymore? I think I've heard that somewhere. Not that I really care.

these meds make me feel detached from my body like I am just floating following behind my body and watching it do things.

That sounds like dissociation to me. Your med make you do that?

yes it could just be the haldol and the prozac working together I am not sure how they are supposed to react with each other.but I have to take 2 haldol a day and one prozac a day.

they also make me feel more drowsy and I really feel more depressed than usual lately but I have heard that can happen when you first start out with a anti depressant.the haldol by its self just makes my mind feel like its being shifted and makes me feel super sleepy.

I might get brutalized for this but newtus do you ever think about anything but yourself? Like ever...? I think of poor pit bulls being tortured to death. Their faces begging, bloody, thinking please stop this!!! I'm involved in pit bull outreach programs. This poor pup was chained to the ground bloody, sick , starving begging for help. Luckily he did get rescued. Or the poor cats and kittens abused. Or our youth that have been abused at home then sent to some treatment center and abused again. Did u ever get raped? That's something I know personally about, I was a virgin and brutally raped. Geez, maybe if u think about something other than yourself you'll get better. I know now everyone hates me bc I'm not enabling her. She is perfectly well to think outside herself, don't sell her short. Btw, I have 2 close sz friends.

I know I'll be hated here...

Not sure. But we will wait for sometimes psychotic to read this. She is our roll call genious with a lot of information.!

punky

I'm reading the centre cannot hold: by elyn saks. It's a good book. I'm so glad I can read again it's only just coming back. I can't believe that America still uses mechanical restraints. In England they never do that. Sometimes people get restrained by staff but never the brutality you hear of in some American hospitals. I think it's appalling it must be so scary

Schizotypal Personality Disorder

Yes its still a personality disorder but as of DSM 5 it is also part of the schizophrenia spectrum....

Mornimg everyone.
Anxiety has been debilitating the last couple of weeks. Im talking frozen and shut down. Any advice on what to take as far as vitamins/herbs? I really need help here...

punky

I did a quick google punky and apparently the B vitamin 'inositol' is good for anxiety

I've been mechanically restrained before. It was a horrible experience every time and I was traumatized by it.

I'm really sorry it's happened to you atypical I can't imagine how traumatising it must be. It seems like treating people like mad animals to me. I bet it gives people more problems than it solves it should be illegal like it is here

(((hug)))

punky

Thanks guys, yeah I think it should be illegal here too. It's definitely just given me more crap to work through which isn't okay. I already have a trauma background and adding that? Totally ****ing unnecessary.

ive been mechanically restrained before. no fun.

Some probiotics have been shown to help with anxiety due to vagal nerve stimulus however the specific strain that was tested is not commercially available yet---still a little kefir or yogurt could not hurt...

Its bad.
Shaking, cant breathe, fetal position bad.
Wish there was a way to stop it. Just snap out of it.

punky