[newtus]

lets talk

[newtus]

ok here we are

[Erti]

Lol who would of thought a starting dose of Paxil makes a big difference for my depression. Otherwise I'm crying like a big ol' baby all the time. I thought the zyprexa helped with the depression as well but since I ran out of the Paxil I started crying and stuff again. No worries I have my medication at the pharmacy at the moment. It's a wonder they work at all with all this inconsistency of taking medication.

[newtus]

i cry when my depression gets really bad. i almost cried today but stopped myself. im embarassed to cry

Newtus, when I've been suicidal I cried and cried and wrote. Try that. Just try something, anything different than u have been doing. [B][/B

[newtus]

i just feel like curling up in a ball. i feel physically weak.

idk how im gonna make it thru today without selfharmin

[Erti]

Originally Posted by newtus

i cry when my depression gets really bad. i almost cried today but stopped myself. im embarassed to cry

One night I thought no one was home. I started to let out an ugly loud cry. Then my stepdad ended up coming to my bedroom and gave me a hug. It was embarrassing but the hug felt good.

[justmeandmyhead]

I cry a lot when I get depressed that's how I know I am

Newtus: Is it raining at your house? It's pouring huge buckets of rain here!

[junkDNA]

i cried in front of T today. he said i seem to be feeling fragile. i feel sad. i keep having intrusive memories of former T. idk why im thinking about him. it feels like it happened to a different person. not to me.

but i felt special cuz T called out of work today but still wanted to see me so he came in just to see me. im glad he likes to meet with me and im not just a job to him. i told him how much i appreciate his help and that it means a lot to me.

i have no energy and need a distrction. so i guess im gonna watch something

[newtus]

Originally Posted by Cracking Slowly

Newtus: Is it raining at your house? It's pouring huge buckets of rain here!

yep it is. its pouring rain

Cracking, how was ur mother's day?

[punkybrewster6k]

Hey everyone. Just checkin in. Oxox

punky

Originally Posted by Erti

Lol who would of thought a starting dose of Paxil makes a big difference for my depression. Otherwise I'm crying like a big ol' baby all the time. I thought the zyprexa helped with the depression as well but since I ran out of the Paxil I started crying and stuff again. No worries I have my medication at the pharmacy at the moment. It's a wonder they work at all with all this inconsistency of taking medication.

Originally Posted by Erti

One night I thought no one was home. I started to let out an ugly loud cry. Then my stepdad ended up coming to my bedroom and gave me a hug. It was embarrassing but the hug felt good.

I am the Queen of silent crying. Even when there's no one else in the house. Somehow Maxy always knows though and comes to give me a cuddle.

Originally Posted by newtus

i just feel like curling up in a ball. i feel physically weak.

idk how im gonna make it thru today without selfharmin

Originally Posted by junkDNA

i cried in front of T today. he said i seem to be feeling fragile. i feel sad. i keep having intrusive memories of former T. idk why im thinking about him. it feels like it happened to a different person. not to me.

but i felt special cuz T called out of work today but still wanted to see me so he came in just to see me. im glad he likes to meet with me and im not just a job to him. i told him how much i appreciate his help and that it means a lot to me.

i have no energy and need a distrction. so i guess im gonna watch something

You're lucky to have a T who cares about you so much.

I saw a new Cancer Research UK advert earlier; cancer survivors talking about how glad they were to be alive. It's sort of a kick in the gut though if you're feeling suicidal...

*Willow*

Originally Posted by newtus

yep it is. its pouring rain

We're under a flood watch here. Crazy weather!

Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k

Hey everyone. Just checkin in. Oxox

punky

How are you and Bean doing??

Originally Posted by sunshine1995

Cracking, how was ur mother's day?

It was great! I was taken to Red Lobster to eat! My favorite restaurant! How was yours??

[Erti]

Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

I am the Queen of silent crying. Even when there's no one else in the house. Somehow Maxy always knows though and comes to give me a cuddle.
*Willow*

Lol I'm the queen of loud crying. If the depression is really bad and I try to cry silently I have trouble breathing properly without making noises. So when I do cry I try to cover my mouth with a pillow or my hand.

Newtus: check this out! This is for you and I.

Heavy rains expected Monday afternoon, evening in North Texas
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[Erti]

Originally Posted by Cracking Slowly

It was great! I was taken to Red Lobster to eat! My favorite restaurant! How was yours??

Oh yum red lobster is awesome even though all I eat there is shrimp.

Originally Posted by Erti

Lol I'm the queen of loud crying. If the depression is really bad and I try to cry silently I have trouble breathing properly without making noises. So when I do cry I try to cover my mouth with a pillow or my hand.

I think it's great that you can let it out with a cry. I wish so much that I could do that but I think my "tears" are broken. When I was younger I was told that I best not cry. So I learned to stuff it all inside of me. Not good.

Originally Posted by Erti

Oh yum red lobster is awesome even though all I eat there is shrimp.

It was so yummy!!! I ate crab legs and lobster! My two favorites

I really like their Walt's Favorite Shrimp too!

Dime to quarter size hail possible! WTF?

Hail is what broke my sun roof glass out way back when. I hope that doesn't happen again! Ugh!

[Lillybird90]

Wow I fell asleep for a while those meds made me so sleepy.they also gave me a slight headache though.

[Erti]

Originally Posted by Cracking Slowly

I think it's great that you can let it out with a cry. I wish so much that I could do that but I think my "tears" are broken. When I was younger I was told that I best not cry. So I learned to stuff it all inside of me. Not good.

Not so much with my moms house but at my dads I was told to stop crying or I'll make myself sick. Hell I even got spanked because I was crying because I wanted to go home. However the spanking and yelling at me didn't stop me from crying. I continued crying.