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I can certainly relate to these feelings. I get very paranoid with conversations often. Especially on Roll Call. I always feel like I talk too much.

Hopefully you'll have a great rehearsal tomorrow

For reassurance, you can pin him down at your next apt and ask if any of your meds could be responsible. Otherwise, I would just assume that you simply have more exciteable electrical activity in your muscles than most others.

im kinda like that. i talk a lot on here about myself because ive grown to be somewhat comfortable here but i dontt talk about myself in real life. especially about my problems. someone even called my dad and asked if i was ok and he said "i guess i dont know". i just dont talk much. always been that way but this website i have found some solace in. comfort.

Someone I don't know very well but want to know better liked one of my posts on facebook. That makes me happy. Funny how stuff like this can matter so much.

Same thing for me newtus. I don't have real life friends that I can trust. So I feel more comfortable here on Roll Call. I do get paranoid about how much I say here. Many times I feel like people are sick of hearing my drama. But this is my only place I can talk.

I won several scholarships and I got all As in my classes. A lot of my friends are going to med school and asked if I'm going to med school also. I feel kind of sad that I have too many illnesses and can't to get a doctorates in medicine. At least I can get a masters though so there always a bright side.

I don't do Facebook very often. Every few months I reactivate my account so that I can look at the 4 friends I have on there. They all live in other cities and I like to check on them from time to time. I never post though because they are linked with my ex husband and I certainly never want to speak to him again. After I'm done reading their Facebook pages I deactivate my account again.

That's awesome news on the A's and the scholarships! Be proud of yourself! Those are great accomplishments

i know what you mean.
im sure everyone here may be sick of my complaining. but its my only place to talk too. i dont have friends either. ive been out of high school since 2008 and its a lot harder to make friends than i thought. its not as simple as getting a job or going to college etc. but things have to build time. relationships. and even then people may not like you after getting to know you. i mean i have therapy to talk but its not enough. plus i dont see the therapist that often. shes been cutting my appts for some reason. its not stable enough. oh well. at least i have a therapist to goto. ya know?

Hellooo everyone How's your weekend been going? Mine has been ok I have been taking care of this cute baby kitten. I am trying to think of a fitting name for her, I will take pictures when I can. Also I had a faulty wiring problem in my home today...the wiring to the wall lamp shorted out, So I have to get someone to come and find out what the problem is. How are you all doing?

I feel more comfortable in this thread than in any other forum here. I've pretty much stopped posting in other forums because things bug me too much. I relate better to you guys.

I've always had a lot of trouble fitting in and making friends. Every since I was a small child I've had low self esteem. When I was younger I had some really crooked teeth and kids would make fun of me. My own family did too. Of course now that I'm an adult I don't have that problem anymore. But that taught me at a young age that there was something wrong with me. Plus all the abuse I was going through at the hands of my family only lead me to believe that I was not accepted. Throughout my life I've experienced things that have always made me feel not accepted. Plus all the crap that goes on inside my head doesn't help either. I don't belong any where I go and I never feel comfortable or like I fit in. So I stay to myself as much as possible and do what I have to do in order to work to support my kids. I often wonder what my life could be if I were "normal".

And for the record, I'm not tired of hearing you newtus I always appreciate your posts and I can relate to a lot of things you say.

I always feel comfortable talking on here too! I feel that everyone understands me because they have been through and are going through the same stuff. I can talk about just about anything here.

I'm very glad you are here with us I didn't feel comfortable in other threads either and I had a bad experience in chat once. I was talked to very rude so I never went back. It made me feel like I was back in high school with the bullies. I feel at home on Roll Call.

I don't think anyone here is sick of you or cracking...and if they are they can just skim past it....so no worries...

you guys are so welcoming. There's not many places I could fit into so quickly and seamlessly.

I can't wait to hear what you decide to name your kitten. I'd love to see pics too!

Be careful with that wiring. It can be dangerous.

I have had issues with people in other chat groups and threads. I was on this one site once and people were talking about themselves so I mentioned my schizophrenia and everyone started making fun of me and making schizo jokes. They were so rude! I deleted my account on that site.

That's terrible! I'm sorry they treated you that way.
I've never been on any other sites. Only Psych Central.

Yes it was rude some people are just mean! Yeah I love this cute kitten she loves her kitten formula she drinks it down so fast! She's a little piggy.It's a cute orange and white tabby fluff ball of cuteness...I think I may name it mango,Or pumpkin...not sure yet.

Can you tell if it's a boy or a girl? Or is it still too early?

I think it's a girl, buuuut I could be wrong...that's why I am going to name it something that can go either way.

That's smart

I made a mistake once...I had a kitten that I thought was a girl,but It developed much later than most cats...and finally two little fur-balls popped out...And I was like UHOH my baby girl is a baby boy so I had to change it's name to something similar but more masculine lol.

i didnt know if i should say this but i havent eaten in two days... to lose weighht...