Roll Call 27

yes but he gets very pissed if i wake him up cuz he has to work tomorow

Oh ok. I'm sorry you are alone feeling this way.
What about making a video? Would that help?

Well "MH team" phones up later on yesterday afternoon. It looks like I'll be confronting them when my "psychiatrist" and my "care coordinater" come visit me on the 16th. I'm not falling for any of their lies. I know they aren't who they say they are. What makes it worse is my boyfriend will be there on the day of confrontation. I know he'll believe them because they are posing as a MH team and it makes me look insane. But, I'm not crazy. I just want to scream. But I'll keep my composure and fill out my mission on the date specified above. I can't say what will happen but something is going to happen on that day.

wow omg i slept 12 hours........ i guess thats good tho.......the 300mg seroquel helped

well i gained 10 pounds this month. idk how this happened. im very upset

I'm so sorry!

I got permission to post a link to the ebook here and in my signature.

Pretty Good Year

"A year is cyclical. Seasons change. With bipolar disorder, so do moods. Pretty Good Year is a poetry anthology, but it is also an account of one man's year-long swing between mania and depression. Rex Emerson Jackson uses language and rhythm to give voice to the psychiatric condition that affects 5.7 million American adults and their loved ones."

Pretty Good Year - A Bipolar Poetry Anthology by Rex Emerson Jackson (eBook) - Lulu

Cool...you put it on amazon too right? I might wait for that since I have a kindle...can you let us know when that one gets approved?

Sure, thanks! They said it could take 4-6 weeks for places like that to approve the book, I'll let you know. It's also possible to convert and send an EPUB to kindle with a free program called Calibre. That's what I did.



It's so cool to see my own stuff on a kindle.

Ok I'll look into it...thanks.

I decided to pop in today. I honestly didnt read this whole thread but i read some. Thank you to people who noticed I've been gone. I am continuing to respond to pm's.

If there was an update on willow and her family i missed it. Willow ~i hope you are well.

Looks like sometimesp is continuing to be wise and wonderful!

Junk ~ i know you have many struggles, but you work so hard, and i think you cope remarkably well. *admires you*

Cracking, sunshine, EVERYone ~ i hope you will have happiness in the sun this weekend, and motivation to get things done! Including something fun!

gr3tta

I'm on episode 8 of oitnb. It is really good. Hello to everyone.

so my friend called me and said she wanted to hang out. so she said she was coming over. 30 min later she texts me and says she went home bc she is cranky, tired, and wants to be alone. i was waiting for her to come and was happy we were gonna chill. now my feelings are hurt and i keep thinking it has something to do with me personally. maybe that's just paranoia or maybe not. she kinda does this a lot. flakes out. i really dont like flakey people. im off of work today so ill just be sitting in my apartment all day. i told her that if she wnts to do something later to text me. but i doubt she will. i feel hurt and sad that im prob gonna be alone all day.

junkDNA

Thanks Gr3tta! It is always a pleasure to hear from you

I've been on my own today too junk, I hate being alone too much

I did make some nutella flapjacks though on a positive note

I participated in a study where I had to click on dots while looking at them on a 3D computer screen with 3D glasses. It was cool, and the guy said I was really fast. Must be because I live on the computer.

So those are kind of like soft granola bars right? Here a flapjack is a pancake...it's sounds like you're on a roll with the mediation, yoga and now super tasty Nutella based food...

Thanks...that totally made me smile...glad to see you again...willow I think is on vacation for I want to say the next ten days or so but I might be blurring the details a little.

It could be so many things...but nothing changed about you in that 30 minutes...thus it's totally her and not you....

ive been alone a lot lately but not that lonely until today. i also miss T cuz i didnt see him at all this week. we still text tho. i feel negative and sad. im having negative thoughts. im trying to be positive and think about good things that are going on in my life right now. also i was on facebook and went to type in the search bar a friends name that happens to have the same first name as former T. former Ts facebook was in the list of results. so i saw his stupid face. so that kind of triggered me. f_ck him.

Yeah it's oats and golden syrup, sugar, butter etc thanks yeah I'm feeling pretty positive atm. I'm managing to read as well which is great for my future English course at uni. I've got 3 months to prepare so I'm trying to get myself in shape mentally.

the voices are back. saying "shes smoking a cigarettes" and making fun of my weight. my mind is all consumed about my weight right now and how ugly and fat i look.