Roll Call 34

Materly - I've seen too much to know its not an illness.

I would be more willing to take medication if they would change it, but that doesn't seem to be happening. If they did then I could prove what I'm saying is true because nothing would be changing.

People seem to act scared when I ask them about stalking me, I think it's scripted. For you though, since you weren't that sucks.

Right on newtus that you went. Your moving in the right direction.

Yeah it's hard not to get attached to a therapist. I understand that. But what I've learned is its best to just know it's a temporary relationship. Like for me I'm hopefully gonna be working on some serious trauma issues. But it's gonna take time for me to trust. But my goal is to get better, so I'm gonna focus on that. But realize the relationship is temporary.

Well I slept 6 and a half hours. So it's getting better. But I over ate yesterday. My sister thinks I become obsessed about it and focus on it and bc that's all I'm focussing on is why I over eat on risperdal. I suppose there's truth to that. Idk, I need it for right now.

I'm gonna see about swapping my mood stabilizer from lamictal to topamax. I was on Topamax before and it makes food taste horrible so maybe it will balance the appetite, bc on risperdal food tastes gourmet, even top ramen, lol.

She's not going to give.It to you because she thinks.you're happy with it, or stop giving it because you're unhappy with it. Best.I think you can Hope for is for her.to put you on the abilify injections. I would ask why they haven't switched you, and find out what it will take for you to get the abilify

I'm glad you're going. It might end up making you feel better.. you won't be alone

That last bit about top ramen cracked me up because it's so true....I think anything with fat salt and sugar ends up tasting more gourmet than actual gourmet....

Lol..................

Kureha..

I don't think it's your belief that you're being stalked that has them requiring meds. I think it's the feeling you have about needing to protect yourself.. And carrying deadly weapons with you and threatening to hurt people.

The akathesia should be almost over.. What hell this is

Um ya don't take too much abilify either...

some days ago i had a dream i traveled to great britain with my sister. last night i had a dream i traveled to khazakistan and japan with my dad and then we were gonna travel to jerusalem later. its so weird all these traveling dreams.

Hey u guys. What are some cool male cat names? I'm getting another boy cat. I just like boy cats. I like simba a lot. But I'm thinking a grey kitty. So Smokey I like. I'm gonna go looking here soon, yay! My sister said we can go today.

I want to get a Burmese at some point when I'm completely independent & call it Pippin. Reckon that could be either male or female.

Oh akathisia is so horrible. Hope it goes away soon. Are u taking the prescribed dose?

so bored today again. this sucks

I like Sammy, Sampson, Gabrielle, Gavin, and Ash or Ashford for grey male kitty names. I also like when people call their kitties "Mr." Such as, Mr. Sampson. I think it's cute.

I am happy for you that you get a new kitty to love.

Thank you Gretta. I like those names.

Well it looks like most of the places are closed...

ive been spying on my therapist through facebook

aww, stupid holiday! sorry you may have to wait for another day. can you go shopping for any of the fun stuff you will need like bowls or toys? or make some toys or a bed in preparation?
a friend of mine had a good idea for a covered litter box - she just cut a whole in the side of a lidded plastic tub and used that. maybe just have fun getting all ready for the kitty even if you can't go get him today.

Crescent - well I was looking at the report my doctor did for the tribunal and it says she is going to change it.
Just because of the way abilify can work at first, I think that is why she hasn't changed it yet.

Since we have been talking about cats... Here is my (parents) kitty, Oscar...

I'm glad it's helping



They don't care Kureha. Sorry to say that, but it's true. The only thing you can do is get the injection and keep asking each time for the aripiprazole

Whether they're happy about a re-referral or not is tough. IMO they shouldn't have discharged you after only 3 months, but times are tough and budgets are tight so corners get cut. I really hope they don't dismiss you as a hypochondriac but it wouldn't surprise me with NHS MH services being what they are.

Can you go to a coffee shop or something to be a bit more social? Two weeks isn't that long a wait for the NHS or a psych, but waiting is hard

I'm glad you went even though you didn't want to. I never want to do my voluntary work either, but I go anyway because people are counting on me and I made a commitment. Poor kitties, probably feeling all lonely without the others.

Hi Gr3tta! Nice to see you

I had my voluntary work today. They are nagging me to help out more, but I can barely manage the little I do now...god, I'm pathetic! When I told them a few weeks ago I wasn't returning back to Uni this year, they were so happy! It never even occurred to them that it might be because I wasn't doing so well. Sometimes I feel like I'd have to set myself on fire for anyone to notice that something was up And then I get angry with myself for not 'making it' after all the faking I do. T actually told me that earlier; to 'fake it til I make it'! I've been faking being ok for most of my life and have yet to actually make it!! How many times do I have to tell myself that the sky is purple (and other things that I know to be untrue) before I actually start to believe it???

*Willow*

I have been doing pretty much noting today. Would've done more if I could actually get out of bed.

I had a few Duvet Days myself last week. Sometimes it's needed to get you through the day. Hope tomorrow is better

*Willow*

That's great news! How does abilify work at first that makes her want to wait? My daughter took abilify very briefly and had a terrible physical reaction to it. They then put her on Geodon and it was wonderful for almost 3 years. Now she's on Saphris.

i saw some pics of my therapist on facebook. pics of her family. old pics