Roll Call 36

What's everyone up to tonight....? I think I might try reading a bit... haven't for a week or more now.

Brilliant haha

im trying so hard to lose weight and im just staying the same. im so discouraged...x

idk if im ever gonna get skinny again from this medication. seroquel made me gain 80 pounds a few years ago i lost ALL that. idk how. now haldol made me gain 50 pounds. i lost 10 of that. now no more. idk what to do.

Thanks Erti! I was, mostly, but it was hard to say it all out loud.

Thanks Lawscot! My GP is nice and he lets me talk without rushing me. He even asked me to repeat bits so he could understand.

I'm sorry the appt was so unhelpful and that you have to wait another month I don't know how helpful they were last time, but ime going to MH services is a waste of time. My GP tried to talk me into going back to the CMHT, but I refused. He offered to speak to ex-pdoc and explain that I'm not faking and what is going on, but I told him they are totally corrupt and that he will never change her mind. They completely dismissed my Uni pdoc who is a professor & just chaired some new NICE guidelines so is clearly well respected, so a GP has no chance!

Happy birthday!

ACT stands for Acceptance & Commitment Therapy FYI. I'm doing a course at the local Uni about it and my homework this week is to identify my values...it's hard :/

I'm glad you're having fun with the new kitten though. Have you got a name yet? And we'd love to see a photo when you're able

I know that you felt awful, but your T is right, you should be proud of the fact that you went back and finished your shift and didn't run away. Can you ask to be transferred to the stock room rather than leave & find something new? I'm just thinking that a new job will have the anxiety of meeting all new people,while you already know some people there already.

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I've been started on trazodone for sleep, so I'm hoping that helps. He didn't put it on repeat prescription though because he said that he wanted to ensure I actually come back in a month to see him again, because normally I don't because I don't want to bother him. He also said that I was too nice to be a heart sink patient, which was kind of him. He wants to talk some more about stuff and discuss a CMHT referral again, but he's never going to change my mind about them.

In other news, my Mum (who isn't supposed to fly and is uninsurable because of her ill health) is so fed up of the drama with my adopted siblings lately, that she's booked for her & my Dad to go abroad for a few days to Spain in about 3 weeks time. So guess who has to look after my siblings & my grandfather & all the animals while they're away!? She didn't even ask if it was ok!! (It's not, but she's going to do it anyway, so what's the point in saying anything??) *sigh*

*Willow*

my sister and i were taking a walk outside yesterday and i said i could hear people walking to their front doors and looking at us and she questioned me about taking my meds.

i was also thinking about amanda bynes and how she thinks she has a microchip in her. i think i have one in me too. put in by the gangstalkers

How does a microchip broadcast without a power source? I've never had microchip delusions so I had to ask.

Small micro battery and wireless charging.

What kind of battery is it?

Not sure, I don't make them or know how to. I just know the technology is available to create grain sized chips that are sustainable for long periods of time.

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I got mine out, or at least I think I did. I don't feel like it's there any more. Even though I still hear voices and noises. I don't remember but I cut my head where the chip was pretty bad, needed multiple sutures. My Dad said I came in and was saying how I got it out. But again, I don't remember much from that night. I trust my Dad wouldn't lie to me though.

Didgee its very possible. theres a well known news source about a man who put a microchip in his arm/wrist for the sake of science. i would never do that. they put micro chips in pets now to find them if they get lost. they use them in the medical feild now too also.

as far as being used for gangstalking - well thats not well known as the others.

I've heard of implants for medical records (No thanks) and animal identification. As far as I know none of these devices are capable of transmitting information on their own. They have to be read by a special device that is placed close to the chip. I'll look up the grain sized chips.

Who implanted your microchip?

Yeah, everything seems much easier typing it down. I find it hard to talk to doctors myself.

The psychiatrists I seen as a teen. When I was about 17 I woke up in my bed on the psych ward with two black eyes and a sore head (evidence of a head injury), they said I hit my head off the wall but I couldn't remember any of it. They put it in at that point I believe.

I have read about some chip-like implants in Discover magazine but they were for vision and paralysis. Most of these devices were implanted in the brain or eye.

No one is ever going to implant a microchip in me that contains my medical records or monitors my body functions ever.

I've never heard of gangstalking until I joined PC.

Me neither, I just explained my experiences and people mentioned gangstalking and TI (targeted individual). To be honest I haven't been thinking very much about the chip or being monitored lately.

When I was really sick I believed the world was going to be taken over by communists. Since I possessed this knowledge I believed American secret agents were after me even though I am (very) Canadian. Right before I started taking medication I was in a mall where I saw a man in a tuxedo who I thought was part of the unknown people. These individuals somehow always knew my whereabouts. I got the hell out of there ASAP. Is this an example of gangstalking?

I was getting all this communist information from the television. It was creepy.

You don't really believe that do you?

i really do. in 2011 i asked my medical doctor for a head scan/brain scan to scan for microchips in my head and he did it!

I would imagine it would be, yeah. I know my current psychiatrists had bugged my old house, that's how they know I've moved without me mentioning it. They keep asking me questions about where I'm living. I only moved down the road but I'm not telling them that. They had hacked into my laptops as well, but I'm sure I'm careful enough now to have that happen again. I kept getting weird pop ups/errors.

They don't really do it to find microchips to keep you happy, they do it to see if there's some organic reason you're hallucinating. They did it for me and told me it was to scan for a microchip but in my notes they just said they did it to see if I had a tumor or something.

Did he find a microchip?

well i know that. im not stupid. but i was completelt honest as to why i wanted it. as first i was going to lie as say tumor but i was compltely honest about why i wanted it. because i didnt want him to turn me down. but i really wanted it at the same time too. idk what my notes said tho.

he said my head was clear but i still dont believe that AND if thats true then the microchip is somewhere else in my body but i still think its in my head.