Roll Call 37

we used to press pretty leaves in the phone book and then tape them on the window once dry---I don't know how much color you guys get out there but here it's beautiful this time of year. Also a fan of mini-pumpkins and gourds because the are inexpensive and last a long time....

Yeah here we have a couple respite plcs. They are horrible. They even only clean the table once a day, before visitors. It's a lot of overworked underpaid staff. I had a nurse slam my finger in the door and she was like and I'd do it again.

Lots of really rough ppl too.

In the other true hospital it's a little better but it's slowly going down hill. They really cut mental health services in Washington state. Lots more homeless etc. I feel bad for them, they have nowhere to go even though they have mental illness.

That's a good idea. We've had a late summer, but soon it will be beautiful here. I have a couple cinnamon spice candles, so I have that covered. But I'm thinking of some o the decorations, idk though.

You guys I'm watching qvc and hsn, lol. They got me through the not sleeping and now I can't bring myself to change the channel. I've NEVER seen anybody get so excited about a comforter. Now their calling themselves heros.

tomorrow its back to being home alone again for another week. i hate it but maybe i can focus more on my weight loss still.

Well I'm home alone a lot too. It sucks. Once I get driving I hope it's less.

How's volunteering goin?

I just watched your new video. You're looking good.

its alright. i wanna quit.

me? i havent made a new video in like a month or two.

The second nurse did have a fever before she flew. She called the CDC and they told her it was OK to fly. No, I'm not making this up. It's in the news.

Yeah you. I didn't know you'd made a new video. I've been dealing with my own problems...

ive been talking to people on facebook about my losing weight and they arent too happy with me wanting to get back to old weight of 105 pounds. i dont understand. i never had a weight problem until i got on meds. seroquel made me gain and so did haldol. i was 105 pounds last fall. all of a sudden that im losing weight people are saying that im wanting to get too skinny. i really dont understand. i was that skinny before?

Maybe you already look thin to them and they're afraid you have an eating disorder?

They keep changing it evey time I read it.....I'm not sure what the story is anymore only that it's a major screw up....

It definitely is. I'm wondering if somehow it's deliberate.

I think it's how you're losing it not that you're losing it.....are you talking about your calorie restriction and possibly not taking meds?

i havent mentioned a word about how im losing it on facebook. nor do i talk about my medications on facebook. all i said was that i wanted to get back to my original weight of 105 and people said that was too low. its actually (if im correct) still in the healthy range for my bmi for my height. im still overweight right now. i still have a long way to go right now. the only people that know about my calorie restriction is my mom and sister really and my mom has been pretty much on board with it because shes been pushing me to lose weight for a year now.

im actually still overweight right now. even tho i lost 15 pounds im still overweight.

my mom was the one who said i was eating too much anyway

Oh if it's Facebook, do they even know you IRL?

someone commented that i should be 135 pounds. which is 1 pound away from being overweight. which i think is ridiculous in my opinion FOR ME. im sick of people putting their weight opinions on me. what they think i should do. 135 is too heavy for me. i have a petite build. i need to be WAY smaller and not on the high end of my bmi. my body is just not built for that. i have aches and pains when im in the 130s in my joints and my back because of the weight. plus im short! geez. so it looks bad on me. idk it just ticks me off what was said on facebook. i put 1 post and people go nuts on me.

actually they dont. im in a weight loss/fitness group but its mostly overweight people trying to lose weight. like severely obese people or overweight people. but they know a lot about weight loss. but they are the kind of people that think people shouldnt be too thin. they got issues of their own i think.

i guess ill admit it on here. im eating around 500 calories a day.

If you're 5 foot 2 then 105 is still ok via BMI ...the other possibility is they are taller than you and see those numbers and think of themselves....like at 105 I would be really sick....they may not be thinking of you per se weight numbers can be weird for people like that. Or are they overweight..that's another possibility....

Yeah if I were at 105 I wouldn't be typing this, I would be dead.

see i was under around 100 when i was in high school. before i got on seroquel. when i lost the seroquel weight i got back down to 105 and was still healthy.