Roll Call 41

In Dublin we have a tram service called the Luas. There's only two lines and it doesn't cover all of Dublin but it is a great service, always bang on time and never have to wait more than 10 minutes. The rest of the country isn't great, you kind of need your own transport.

Okay, I woke up at 5am though & didn't manage to sleep properly after that. Made my voices a bit more intrusive this morning & I was chain smoking too.

Things are better now though after a good day picking up the Christmas tree.

And how are things are with you?

We have the "L" and it's pretty great where it is I think 7 minute train times but I guess in Mexico there is a fantastic bus network and it just goes anywhere. So this girl just picked where she wanted to live rather than figure out the walking distance to transit stops....now she has to take two buses in addition to a lot of waking to go maybe four miles.

Wow, not to diss Mexico but I would have assumed somewhere like Chicago would have a better public transport network. Commuting is a b_tch, life gets so much easier when your travel to work is handy!

Hi Loial! Sorry to hear you didn't sleep to good!

I seem to not be having symptoms at all which is great....went to the planetarium and also saw mocking jay yesterday.....went to a new Mexican place should not have ordered the fish tacos becuase I too was up at five am but with food poisoning....but those tacos were sooooo good I might have to give them a second chance they've only been open like two weeks.

Yeah I should go out and put some lights on my tree while it's warmer...I got a living one for the balcony and I want to put birdseed ornaments on it for x mas....I found these cute candy canes.....

Yeah you really have to live in the city itself and even then only in certain areas....I live just to the west an I walk a mile to the bus stop so I can do a single bus for three miles. But the buses are thirty minutes apart so taking two is bad if you miss one so I prefer to walk farther and time it out....

Hi guys. Im here too! and just to help with your informal poll sometimes, psychosis=not working=not driving. Even if i had the money im not sure id enjoy driving all that much these days.

What was Mockingjay like Sometimesp? I'm going to go see it maybe this week. Sorry to hear about your food poisoning, nothing worse.

Hi Neil, how are you?

It's intense really different than the other two....glad I had read the books before hand so I knew/know what's coming I don't think I could wait a year between.

I haven't read the books, after seeing the first two I was really wanting to get into the books but never did for some reason. Glad it's getting good reviews anyway, I loved the first two!

I'm looking forward to seeing it, Catching Fire was really good. I heard it was somewhat of a filler in the franchise but shall have to wait & see.

I don't really see it as filler so much as transitional....you need to become more informed as to the politics of panem to get ready for number 3.

E-cigarettes contain up to 10 times carcinogens: Japan research

Did you guys see where e-cigs may actually be a lot worse for you than regular? I found it pretty shocking since health is a primary selling point....

Still, vaping is probably safer than cigarettes for diseases like copd. I'm not sure though. I wish they'd standardize these and make them safer.

Maybe I don't know.....they make it seem like water vapor but it's really a mix of chemicals....

I'm crying and covering it up in case anyone knows im crying and makes fun of me for crying from daring to talk to my friends that im no longer friends with about my mental health

That sucks....hopefully you find people who are more open to differences in the future...

After a conversation with my pdoc ( a month or so ago) I was told he wasn't convinced that I've ever been psychotic, because I don't have a schizophreniform disorder. That's fine and all, but I just don't know what to describe these experiences when I start to lose control and my thought processes divulge and go somewhere else. The voices ease on the medication. Why are they even giving me medication antipsychotics when they don't believe I'm psychotic. I'm on two bloody ap's, what are they for? They clopixol helps the voices a little bit while the chlorpromazine helps with the anxiety and the voices. It's like I can distract myself easier from ideas I have when I'm on those meds.

I'd be surprised if many of you (people without a diagnosis of scz) asked about your so called psychotic experiences to your doctors that you'd probably get the same answer I got. They told me and held me in hospital because I was psychotic, that's why they could detain me. I even have the patient notification form with 'psychosis and further clinical assessment' but yet they tell me I'm not psychotic and have never been psychotic.

I think there is something 'funny' going on I really do I don't own my own thoughts, my brain has been fried from a non invasive lobotomy of some sorts. I'm incapable of independent thought
This leaves me restless and anxious and when those two combine, get together we're going to have wars, deadly ****ing wars about all types of things that could happen souly in the mind of a terrorist ME!! I am a terrorist to myself to my brain they make it that way, they make it comfortable for their inhabitance.

I would be surprised, I would, if all your diagnosis where wrong. Who goes through doctors getting the same diagnosis and then finds one who gives the diagnosis the patient wants and where do they go then, they're happy. All the others were wrong. Why does this exist in the right context. I was told I took it out of context.
I was doing ok there for a while but I can feel it all coming down again.

i had a lazy day. i even took a nap earlier. ive been so stressed out. today was relaxing.

I took a nap too, I'm just wiped out from anxiety.

I dont understand your doctors at all...I know I for sure was told I had psychosis they just don't know which dx I have yet if any. The only other thing with voices is DID do they think you have that? You do seem to lose time/memory...

they're not the greatest it seems. I'll look into DID and maybe talk to them about it. I do disassociate in crowds of people and when I used to work it was a big problem. Have been known to suffer from depersonalization too. May look into it.

Oh only a few months ago I was told that I was psychotic by one of the doctors when I stressed and angry as to what was wrong with me, they told me I was going through an acute psychotic episode. Only up until the last month when I had a long convo about it all with him.

Maybe they mean they aren't sure if you'd have psychotic episodes if you weren't using hallucinogens. Did you tell them all your symptoms?

uggg i hear ya been tired all day

went to my aunts funeral today. it was somber...
my dad got drunk tonight and peed on himself and passed out :/ :/ :/
we leave back for texas tomorrow morning before sunrise