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my life has been out of whack 2 i have really really scary voices that tells me real bad stuff and im just really scared

I was out walking the dog when a stranger started talking to me. My dog started barking so I know I couldn't trust him. Maybe he's one of them people who's stalking me. Either way I ran away from him. Luckily, I made it home safely.

OMG that Velveeta shells and cheese really hit the spot but the mild voices r back

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Listening to a ted talk on the cloud appreciation society....just fun and inspiring...

thats unique...

Makes me want to join just to have it be a fun little quirk.....

ugggggg im sooooooooo tired but cant take a nap cause i will not be able 2 sleep tonight

i LOV Christian music!!!!!!! break every chain <3333333333333333

I'm not supposed to drink alcohol with the medication I'm on. But I couldn't care less. I want a drink. So I'm having a drink.

so how is everybody today?

just be careful ok?

I don't know how I am, lol. I've been so out of it for the past couple of weeks. My pdoc adjusted my meds though so I'm doing a bit better.

I'm always careful.

good im glad ur feeling a little better

good im glad

OMG i feel like my self again but mama said thats cause im relaxing

sorry i couldnt talk anymore bean i had to go somewhere

so i went to the post office to send a poster of gerard way to KUREHA and i get there and the lady at the post office goes "oh great international mail...fill out a customs form..." and walks away. then i wasnt "hurrying" enough and shes like "here! dont bother filling out the address just put whats in the package under details". i didnt say anything. she spend a good 7 or so minutes having trouble putting into the computer and was like typing with one finger on each hand like she didnt know how to use the computer. then i was getting nervous and trying to hurry because she was hurrying me and messed up my pin # typing it in. so i had to press cancel and shes made this big sigh and said "here give me the card" and did some authorization thing bypass. i just left. freakin BTCH.

yum some REAL hot chocolate!!!! its swis miss real chocolate with this drink lol

i saw T,im tired. we talked abt the guy filming me. we talked abt how it is different from like say when i thought the store iwork for was poisoning customers. so maybe it is not paranoia.anyway im real tired i just wanna go to bed right now lol

You think being depressed yourself you know what to say to someone who is dealing with depression. I'm clueless to what to say to my ex boyfriend.

someone on my facebook friends list died. i met her online. i think she had schizophrenia too. she said she did but she also said she thought she didnt. hm

I'm sorry newtus. How well did you know her?

well i met her online 2-3 months or maybe 4 months ago. but i actually texted her and talked on the phone to her. she lived in the next state over. in oklahoma. i live near the border of oklahoma. well about an hour away from it. and yea...her family posted she died on thursday. they said she died suddenly...
she talked a few times about suicide. idk.

at first i thought it was a joke but i think she may have died.

The bipolar forum is doing a "100 reasons to live" challenge. I just wrote out 50 reasons. I was having a really hard time, feeling hopeless and hunted by the death force, but now I feel like things might turn around yet!