Roll Call 45

i feel physically sick

Watching and reporting the news, even saying their name just feeds their agenda and makes them stronger.

But right now I'll stay away from being manipulated by their tactic by even saying their name.

its hard for me to not watch the news.

I guess for me, when I did watch the news, It never affected me. If I watch the news without my meds then oh hell yes It would :/

its hard for me to watch the news off meds but i watch it anyway. i get panic attacks.

idk what to do today. its like i want to be alone but i want my dad to be here but he has to work

Good morning everyone!

I'm doing fabulously well today! I see my psychiatrist next week so hopefully I can get my meds sorted out. Thankfully she is a competent doctor who always has the mindset of, "lowest possible effective dose". She doesn't want me to be a zombie. I've been seeing her for almost two years now, that is a record for me. I'm so thankful that I've finally found a psychiatrist I can really trust.

I finally got some good rest last night, I went to bed a bit late but I slept until 10:00 this morning and I feel totally refreshed!

I want to taper off the Klonopin when I've been stable for awhile. I haven't needed the Klonopin in years, but I'm unfortunately physically dependent on it now. How bothersome. I just want to make sure my life is relatively low stress before I start the horrible process of coming off this stuff. Ugh, not looking forward to it but it'll be worth it. I hate the way Klonopin makes me feel, it dulls my thinking and I simply cannot have that! I want to go to college and become a psychiatrist or a lawyer, not sure which one yet!

I was thinking of being a doctor like a psychiatrist as well but I'm so much in the zone right now just at the point where I'm like screw it hand me a joint and I'll go to school in a year or so..

Finished all my philosophy homework. My online profs haven't been posting grades up which makes me antsy because I like seeing how I'm doing.

ok im very angry and i have really bad symptoms :'(

y do people have 2 be so mean????

* hugs * Aka bean * hugs*

people stress ne out very much and i cant deal today i didnt get to take my haldol and that made me hyper and jittery and now i feel like im gonna crash

Good luck with your appointment Atypical

Can you call someone like your dr or someone who can help you aka bean ?

Thanks Blue Bird! I'm sure it'll go just fine, my psychiatrist and I have a good relationship. She's always willing to meet me exactly where I'm at and find solutions that work best for my situation at the time.

i talked to my mom and she kept pushing me and pushing me about something. i kinda wanted to come over to her house today but she treated me as if i needed to make an appt to do that. my mom did that...

idk if i can ride 5 hours with her all the way on this trip. i just dont know if i can do it. i dont want to be with someone who is so rude and mean and conniving

Bean I'm sorry you're struggling so much. I remember being your age, it was really hard to be mentally ill and be a teenager all at the same time. I can tell you though, it gets better as you get older. Just hang on, it won't be this bad forever.

I'm sorry your mother acts like this. It's wrong how she treats you.

Idk if this is a placebo but the risperidone is making me so hungry lol

That's a well-known side effect of Risperdal. Increased appetite.

i cried and cried in gym today my gym teacher is the best but still

sorry your struggling bean

thank you for the hug. :sad:

1 word... Headphones....