Roll Call 45

I've been having real bad anxiety and I'm afraid it's going to develop into something worse. I see my pdoc tomorrow for an emergency appointment. I'm going to ask for lorazepam or something to take prn. How do I ask about that without sounding like I'm just med seeking and looking for benzo's?

Just be honest. Tell your pdoc in detail about how bad your anxiety is getting. And considering you just want to take it PRN, he/she shouldn't have a problem with it. I'm sorry you're struggling.

i took my my meds and im so tired meds and im SO tired. i went back to bed for a bit. thinking about drinking some coffee since i took my Xanax.

Ya risperidone is drowsy as hell. Like haldol I think. Even .5mg when I'm not used to it but the sedation goes away eventually so no wonder I could handle 12mg. I might start it again to increase appetite idk

12mg is a lot. I was on 4mg and was pretty drowsy for a while, think I went down to 2mg if I remember correctly. Didn't do anything for me so I went off it.

What meds and dosages are you actually prescribed?

Once I got to 2mg it stopped the voices forever basically which is the best part about it. I still he voices if I stay up too long though. I was a chronic insomniac while uh manic if that's what it was

I feel like it could have been intense frustration due to OCD

What meds and dosages are you actually prescribed?

started lithium and lamictal on top of Geodon. Can't function. Had to call off work. Can't work like this. too tired. This can't happen. I need to work. My doc will call tomorrow. I can't take this stuff if this is g0ing to be the norm... I'm strong but this fatigue, this drowsiness, all these changes are too much. I should be in the hospital with all of these changes going on. I shoulcnt even ben able to dribe live this. Too much doping. Can't function

I always said it before too, but then I felt this powerful maternal feeling when I'd see her and I've been referring to the moon as feminine ever since. She doesn't mind though cos she said it was ok. She was angry with me before Xmas and it was horrible because she wouldn't talk to me or protect me, but now it feels like she has something to tell me but I can't understand what it is. Maybe it's the noise interfering??


If you google 'moon halo' you can see photos of what I'm talking about. I'd link but it's too complicated for my head as iPad is glitchy today.


Glad you're back and the move went well. Missed you while you were gone



I hope the meds help Is the depot the same one you were on last time? Did they say they'd section you if you didn't take the meds, or is that what you're worried about?

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*trigger warning*
Today is a screwdriver day. Most days I cope with the noise and the thought problems and the headaches, and all of the other stuff. Other days it takes all of my willpower not to ram a screwdriver into my ear canals. Today is one of those days. The noise has been really loud 24/7 since I was sectioned and, as a result, my headaches have been worse; almost constant. Today it is too much. If I thought the screwdriver would stop the noise, then I would, but I don't think it would probably work. I'd quite like to be dead right now tbh...I hope tomorrow is easier.

*Willow*

i took my my meds and im so tired meds and im SO tired. i went back to bed for a bit. thinking about drinking some coffee since i took my Xanax.

Thanks Atypical, I'll do that. I'm not doing too bad, these are just the increasingly difficult warning signs I usually go through before I get a lot worse, I reckon something prn will help.

If you take the haldol properly for a couple of weeks to a month or so the drowsiness should wear off. Considering you're not finding college very challenging and you're ahead it might not be a bad time to start taking them. It'd be different if you where working and you can't afford to be drowsy. It's worth a try. I can think of worse states to be in. The chlorpromazine I'm on doesn't make me drowsy anymore and I've heard it's the same with other AP's.