Roll Call 45

explain chicken, lol

Maybe this course isn't for you? Finish first year well as good as you can, use the credits you've earned to possibly go advanced entry into second year of a different course. That could work, I was going to change courses and just had to sign the form but I backed out. Wasn't for me. But for you? Yes this could work.

Sleeeeep

I was all jumping around 2-3 hours ago

But now I'm just in bed..

There's circles, well not fractal patters but circular things like in a pond. floating around behind the screen where your posts go.

im not seeing them babe, but they could be happening on your device. I thought you meant patterns to the way or when we post haha, but yours is ultimately more intriguing!

I guess I could do but I'm not sure what other course I would do. I don't have any passions in life my motivation is pretty **** so I've never developed anything I'm interested in. I only picked this course because I thought I would be okay at it but I underestimated how hard it would be. Stupid of me really. Thanks for the advice chicken

Don't think it's the machine, my fiancee can't see them either. So that just leaves me here.

I think I know what you mean chicken. I get that when I stay up for too long if that's what it is

My only thing about that is; the course is going to get very difficult as it goes on. Getting first year done, you'll be able to walk into any college or Uni and apply advanced entry (as long as the courses where similar), means not having to repeat a year and pay all that. Something to think about.

Yeah just on the yellowy part on the boards where peoples posts cover. All these movements, like a pond.

Anyone lost and trying to get some motivation...watch this video.

thanks yeah i am glad he didnt charge for the oil change.

I'm only 3 minutes in but I like the part about enabling the dreams of others...

I'm on vacation with my parents and some friends of theirs. Everyone I've told expects me to be really happy and excited about it, and my parents do too, so I play along and pretend to be loving it... But this vacation is really putting a huge strain on me and pretending otherwise is getting lonely. I mean I do enjoy seeing new things and I'm not complaining about the weather, but there's just way too much going on here. Way too many people... suspicious food that I have to eat because I don't even want to start on that subject... way out of my comfort zone in so many ways. Got some emotional help from my ex via text messages but now he doesn't seem so interested in answering my texts anymore... I really just feel like crying but don't see how that's going to help either. And I'm trying really hard not to lose more than the 5kg I already lost due to the stress (underweight). Seven days left. Have to keep going... I feel so lost here, I just want to go home.

We got shown that video in first year C programming class. I then bought his book ''the last lecture'' - randy pausch. Phenomenal ways of thinking and very sad as he's at the end of his life.

Thanks for that chicken was brilliant

First head fake I knew but I was always wondering how he could act that way and he said "it's for my kids" and I thought aaah ok

i fell asleep and was going in and out of sleep. and was talking to this ghetto girl who said she was my friend. she said i only needed to listen to her and no one else. she said i dont need to listen to my family or anybody. just her. she talked to me in my sleep and shes still talking me while im awake...

Thanks man, he's an inspiration and I've watched that video so many times, it always helps me drag myself back up!

That's the motivational speech I downloaded on my phone a year or so ago.

But your one is better it explains fundamentals of life in just kinda social and moral logic. I'm gonna save that one as well.

If I was really bad symptomatic, I wouldn't chance it.

i blew up in school today

what are you talking about?

Idk I can't explain without writing a super long explanation of logical connections that explain eachother I keep coming to conclusions that need more answers ... Damn it I'm doing it right now.. I need to stop. *stops*

Sorry this is really frustrating for I wish you could understand

I really want to erase this and write again like I just did 6 times before but hopefully this will be and explanation in itself

I just wrote an explanation of why I can't explain because I can't explain and my phone crashed ..

It's so complicated that there's hundreds of things I need to say but I'm afraid I'll erase it like this one..

I wrote 7-8 explanations and erased them I'm screwed up now soz

People are still following me. They're outside the flat wandering around, waiting for my next move. I'm afraid of them. What if they're going to hurt me? I'm a sitting duck.