Roll Call 49

I think 38 is the max----you can tell where the colors are supposed to be but some of mine were the same---they said it could be a computer issue though that not all are correctly displayed.

"These are principally anticholinergic:

Dry mouth*
Blurred vision*
Cognitive changes*
Constipation
Urinary retention
Tachycardia
Anorexia*
Psychosis (in overdose)"

Those are the side effects so o must be the cogentin making my vision blurry with lack of appetite.

My pdoc actually called me back. I can't believe it! Here's hoping the med change will help.

Exams went okay, only have one more class today, hopefully I'll get through it without melting from anxiety.

Voices havent been that bad today, had a bit of trouble organizing my thoughts as well but at least I can function.

Can't wait to get home and just relax.

im having a really bad day

My signature is like big middle finger to the government saying I (One of those people on ten different medications) that marijuana is more dangerous to my health

took a nap.
this week im not feeling physically weak like i was last week tho.
that was really bad.
still - i usually dont take naps tho.

this school semester is halfway over.
i think i might end up with a B in my classes.
thats just a guess. it could end up better or worse.
since im making pretty good grades tho i probably should be looking at the summer classes i want to take within the next few weeks. summer registration starts in April.

people and things are watching me spying on me
have to hide

There are some psychopaths in this World.

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I'm heading there in the next couple of months and I'll be avoiding dealers like the plague. Was thinking about getting some molly but f__k that! I'll just stick to my bud!

Really... they're probably not. I mean the likeliness of that is very low. Very very low. You don't have to hide.

Ah Tweaky, the colours, your constantly changing colorful Rx list makes my day, bring back the colours!

Anyone know the role of a social worker in a multi disciplinary team that includes psychologists, pdocs, community nurses, OT therapists.

Would they help with finding accommodation and that?

They do here, not sure about Ireland though. Thinking of moving chickenfoot?

I don't want to live here anymore. I ordered some clothes earlier but they took my email address down wrong and now I won't get the shipping info. Have to call back tomorrow. Plus no more ups, only FedEx so I probably will never even get it. I'm so aggravated and tired of everything.

I feel like killing myself

I'm really scared and paranoid

I think my psychiatrist is against me

I can't take anymore pills

That's cool, thanks. Yeah thinking of moving back up to the city. Well I need to anyway.

My psychiatrist considers schizotypal PD to be on the mild end of the 'schizophrenia spectrum'. Apparently hallucinations and delusions don't occur in this PD. If they were the person would get a schizophrenia diagnosis.

I don't consider schizotypal to be a PD at all.

There are people diagnosed with this who have no psychotic symptoms. Confusing.

I hope you will then. I really want to drastically change my living space and I need a place with laundry and other "luxuries" I used to take for granted in better apartments.

It sounds like you are having psychotic symptoms again....is there somone you do trust so you can get it sorted?

I asked for a prn Olanzapine which is their plan. I'm not taking more medicin that would get me agitated. It's been two years for ****s sake I don't belong here I need to leave. They are putting ideas in my head through professional manipulation tactics

Or they are just assholes. Ya that's a sane * reason to give your safety to nazis basically. They want drama and to see me auffee

Another damn relapse yay

It will get worse but I'll still pass a sanity test and not ..I'm so confused I don't trust anyone

I can't get these OCD thoughts out of my head I can't the OCD paranoia is killing me idk what to do. My mom admitted me and I'm fine all I did was iverdose because the nazi nurses don't know whit.

**** you psychiatrist If you're reading this you sick son of a sadistic *****

Every person that I trusted a bit to reassure me what is real left me eventually. I am on my own now I have to go through the maze. Randomly because I can't organize something I for know information I can't get and when I get it I'm supposed to

The only reason I'm alive is for my mom and sister. My dad and brother could handle it but they need to die first

This is hilarious, found this going through my medical records.

I'm confused. It says you are discharged on the top, but the plan appears to contradict that. If you were discharged there would be no need for a 1:1. Please explain.

I've been accused of being verbally abusive too. When I don't agree with their judgements or impressions I tell them. I don't let people intimidate me. I don't take medical opinions as the absolute truth.