Roll Call 49

I generally like things that are blue flavored. Or purple.

I ordered the game "Animal Crossing: A New Leaf" It looks fun

i got that game last month. its good. i havent played it in a week. but i keep meaning to.

What system is that for?

It's for the Nintendo 3DS

Ah, good. It's about time for a new AC.

this is the girl i was telling you guys about on new Bachelor season. people thinks she has a mental disorder or schizophrenia.

this girls name is Ashley Salter. she was speaking disorganized the whole time. like she was psychotic.

I'm known to bite hand that feeds me, so don't, rattle my cage..

Seems that I'm so comfortable, uncomfortable and sad, and everyone gets so damn mad..

And you look for inspiration
In the dark where the sickness lives.

Soz for triple posting but they were getting concerned about me getting paranoid and not taking my meds.

It was hard to fight past the delusions. Paranoia of the staff talking about me leads to death. I have a firm believe that this stuff is true because there's so much evidence.

Now they wanted me to take the zyprexa.. I took it because I gave up on my agitation and went in and out of consciousness and couldn't sleep because of the twitching.

Sigh

Hru doing door? ^^

paranoia runs deep.
into your life it will creep.

something is happening in here

i feel like drowning myself in pills...

Hey, I'm doing ok. I've been a bit quiet because sometimes so many things are bouncing around in my head that it's easier to not say anything, rather than to pick something to say.

I also have a tendency to be at work when everyone is on.

No I was about to say you're very strong and I just wanted to tell you that but it was cheesy but yeah don't with the pills and alcohol. Use it for recreation and social events where you're psychosis isn't so bad than it usually is.

I never tried Xanax.. I wonder if it feels the same as the others.. Euphoria comes from the elimination of anxiety I think because when I woke up after being up for three days having panic, .5mg Klonopin made me feel so hypomanic an happy.

i just took more xanax than usual and 1 ambien. i should take another ambien.

i dont get this support group. they just want to frame me.

Be careful, please.

Well cuz it's the same thing I do

i just dont understand why everyone irl wants me to frame me

I can understand how crappy it must be to feel that way. I hope that it's just a misunderstandng of some sort.

Someone came over to me with paper and asked those basic questions like are you suicidal, hearing voices etc. I said no because then they'll take away my privileges to go outside the unit. My step dad told me to tell them no and now I get it because agitation changes my thinking really bad.

Do people often walk up randomly and ask those questions?

No they just have really good procedures like if I don't take my supper meds or eat anything all day because of the abilify decreasing my appetite then they somehow knew I was suicidal so they send someone over that has more empathy to keep me human.

im glad then that they are on top of things. It's good to know they have people that are looking out for you.