Roll Call 53

This hipster dog made me laugh although it took me a minute to figure out

I don't feel welcomed here.

Ignored, ganged up on.. I'm done.

If you try to justify this, I already know. So it will hurt. If you want to do that then fine. Continue to kick me while I'm down.

It just isn't right for you to be taking illegal drugs in the hospital. That's what got you in there to start with was overdosing.

How would your mother feel if she knew you were doing that?

Hyperagitate, I know it seems like a good idea now, but you won't benefit from the treatment or make progress if you keep doing drugs in there. And the staff will eventually not trust you anymore. No one's ganging up on you, they're just trying to help you make the right decisions.

hmm.... good morning

I was manipulated during a certain stage in my recovery and got taken advantage of by these people.

I didn't expect anyone to understand because I don't understand.

No ****s given for my last post and no one mentioned that I wasn't welcome so I'm just going to leave and help myself.

i think you are welcome here. but i also think doing drugs is not a good idea ...

Tweaky everyone is welcome here---people are trying to help you because they care. If they didn't care they would just let you go on doing whatever you wanted even if they saw it was destructive.

i dont mean to make you feel not welcome here im just surprised that a hospital is allowing the use of drugs especially the use of crack to be used in hospital settings.

with that aside youre welcome here but with all honesty the use of drugs isnt gonna be helpful to you to be completely honest. it isnt going to be helpful to your illness and your wellbeing.

Thanks everyone.

I just wanted to see what the big deal of crack was.

I've made really good friends in this hospital and they help me as well. My mind getting a hell of a lot worse in terms of organization of my thoughts.

I'm like my dad.. We laugh it off and don't see a problem.

Doing crack in a mental hospital is so screwed up that it makes it kinda funny like how my dad got kicked off a plane while boarding because he was too drunk. Twice.

You're always welcome here, Hyperagitate, your posts are the ones that I look forward to most of the time, if only because I care about you and want to see you get out of that hospital.

I often "forget"(also known as "losing insight") into having schizophrenia. I lose insight often and I will be genuinely clueless as to why the hell I'm taking a bunch of meds for an illness I don't believe I have...

I was wondering the same...

I'm not ignoring you in case you haven't noticed I make a real effort to reply to your posts. I give a damn about you.

My mind can just go into a decline like that, and it can be really sudden. Before I know it(and I won't, I never do), I am talking in word salad and ****. Sucks.

Opiates
It started off with my roommate (coke dealer) being too high to care about doing lines of opiates on his bedside table in front of me so I asked for some after he injected my other roommate. All done during the 15 minute check up.
Cocaine
They brought a load of narcotics in a Mc Donald's bag and came in as visitors, then made the exchange and put it in their pockets. The people got pulled over and went to jail while I was given the coke.
Crack cocaine
The taxi guys are into it and they drove the guy to a ghetto area and came back with it in 20 minutes per 200 dollars I gave. I don't remember how he did it. He gave me small rocks and said he got ripped off when he came back which is like screw it I'll buy some crack and I didn't want to even buy anymore which is the saddest part. I just wasn't feeling well.

Sigh

Enough of drug talk though. Thinking about crack. Shame on you all!!

its 80 degrees here. was just 50 yesterday.

im not having any bad symptoms but having a lot of fatigue and tiredness. negative symptoms from haldol since ive started it. it really sucks. i hate it. i want to stop it already. my negative symptoms are affecting me badly badly badly.

I can't seem to stop sleeping today

When I was on haldol, I either was asleep for 21 hours per day (with 3 pots of coffee), or I was extremely erratic, bodily speaking.

Starting to get manic about changes in uni about graduating and stuff. Everyone is making a big deal over it and overwhelming me. Been pretty off the charts and not myself lately.

I've been taking naps everyday I feel more tired on the am dose of haldol than I did on an am dose of zyprexa. It sucks but overall I think it's helping so I keep taking it.

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We are getting 80 on Sunday---it's always straight from winter to summer with a spring that just bounces between the two.

I'm so chilled out today. But it might be the peppermint tea that's soothing me.

Negative symptoms just suck, I'm sorry.