Roll call 55

i LOVE sparkling water

I'm a big diet coke drinker I like it with my Hardee's biscuit in the morning.

I failed... I'm just going to give my meds to my mom. This wouldn't have happened if she kept the Concerta in her purse as if I was some addict. I'm not. I took offence to that. I just like to make sense of things. But I understand that she's being over protective Idk it Usually it repeats itself. I don't really care much about myself right now but I'll still follow my morning schedule if that's what it takes. But with no stimulant, I'm late for school from oversleeping, sleeping in class, ect. I guess I'll have to tough it out.

I'll stop this insanity for my mom. And myself. She gets extremely upset but doesn't show me. Only my step dad and he said that she would cry sometimes with my alcohol abuse.

I believe that they will take away my stimulant medication. I don't care anymore. It's healthy to be thinking of things like this except I'm not delusional, and to know then they keys can be made by me at a DIY. I don't understand this paragraph. Few minutes ago, I thought that I was in a car in the sky. I just heard of people whispering in my head. I'll stay on my meds but I don't want to if they aren't taking my ADHD seriously.

InterVoice has been working with people that hear voices and trying to put the voices into another's head like a baby maybe?

Waiting for my blood draw. T appt went well. Actually had a decent session. Talked a lot about the voices and my memory gaps. Hopefully I'll remember too tell Pdoc about the memory problems next month when I see her.
She gave me 2 options today. Add Effexor and FTP Prozac or drop olanzapine and start Abilify I chose the Effexor for now. We're going to discuss upping the haldol or olanzapine at my next appt.

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Vyvanse 420mg. I'm quite good. I've been hyper focusing for over an hour on my phone. Time goes no where here basically. I thought it was hours. Foggy headed which is why I want the Concerta back. But maybe green lasers that shoot people from the eyes would be cool as well.

I thought justme made a pretty good point in this thread a few pages back. I felt like that too which is why I'm not on here everyday. I notice with at least my problems people just kind of want to side step past them and not acknowledge them so idk what to do anymore. I kind of given up.

I'm sorry you don't feel listened to medicalfox. There's a separate thread now for thoughts if that helps

Apparently my sister has been sneaking my antipsychotics to experiment with

****ing ridiculous, I need those to function and I can't go to a pdoc for a week.

This might be a hospital trip waiting to happen

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Wow that's messed up----hope you can get the meds you need in time.

i picked up my meds at the pharmacy.
i hate bad drivers.

She also stole my Klonopin

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Oh no. That's not good for either of you.

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Hey I got a new badge for being a 2 year member, yay!

yayyyy i gotta see it online

Congrats! I get mine next month

did mine already say 3 year or did it change?

Going to a wildlife park tomorrow. Animals are good for the soul. Animal therapy.

I'm meant to be going to a meal for lacrosse people tomorrow night but I really don't feel up to it. But I'm guna force myself to go. I don't feel right around people atm so I'll probably be quiet and anxious. I don't understand I was fine about a month ago.

I think it's said 3 for a while now.

@Falcon,

My sister is 12 and wouldn't do that but at 8-9, she would steal money from my room and I would take money from my older brothers room cuz he had a job. I would also take money from my parents. Now I'm out of a job, I steal my sisters money to buy cigarettes. (That was low lol). My mom took my bank card away and I was smoking a pack a day.

Isn't this just family love and take I'll pay you back later.

I faked being a sponsorship messenger when I was like 6 by going door to door and getting like 5 dollars per house. My mom had to give it all back or she kept it. I'm sure she did. I made like 80 dollars lol.

It's justified so no matter how much people want to bring someone down, it won't work. It's the times I remember that a dollar or Euro (In Ireland) was worth like 20 times more today.

Your sister isn't intentionally thinking about your mental health I don't think. It's pure curiosity and focus which Is a good thing. My sister always gave a hug after my hospitalizations. I used to feel bad with all the suicidal thinking, suspiciousness and paranoia as to what people around me were planning to cause me psychological Harm.

Keep her away from crack though... I don't think she's that curious..

Good that the pharmacists or cops or who ever took the bottle worth over 100mg is gone because I'd probably still be abusing it. I was afraid that my sister would take risperidone not knowing what it is because there was so much in the bottle.

Antipsychotics are so nasty. It's like a feeling where you notice that you are going to die but you don't care because you went into another dimenpsion to find the cure for schizophrenia, and then the unknown math formula that doesn't work in our dimension. I once spent 6 hours typing about this before. The meaning of life and beyond with the mathematical formula in the purple dimension. What is the meaning of life? you can only know in the other dimension. I finally got I'd say every piece. All that I know is that we are outside of the dimension so we are being monitored for a while from other dimensions.

The truth will make you suicidal without a doubt so be careful and don't use anything in this dimension. Life is pointless but I chose to act like there's nothing wrong, think about other things like what makes me happy. We can either accept this delusional based idea, or die every time that think about anything because it Knowing something here is most likely overused garbage. Being spied on by other dimensions.

The reason as close as possible - I know too much about that dimension. I have seen art and things that are not possible to exist in this dimension. It's a reason to leave but a warning.

OMFG I HATE MOSQUITOES

I moved away because of the death theats I had in Ireland and It might be happening again idk. Bow down to me. I am a peasant.

I don't think that they are buying it

Now for plan B..

I'm a prince of Uganda.. Ringing.. Omg "hello??" "Hi there". "So are you like the prince of Uganda?". "Yes. I am. What are your bank details, bank card and security numbers please?"

Anyways;

WILLLLLSOOOONNN COME BACK HERE WILSOOON!!!!

so i should get 4+ next month

I think you meant falcon tweaky not me

im reading this book called:
The Book Of Woe: The DSM and the Unmaking Of Psychiatry by Gary Greenberg

nothing to say cept...that i have nothing to say. just dead

you ok junkdna?
you have a good day?