Safe Place

thanks for that JustMe.
not trying to be bigheaded but yea i feel i can do great things.

i wish i had a second person around besides my dad...

If I am ill why hasn't the medication worked. I had an extra dose on tues and it's just getting worse. The evil is seeping into my apartment. Maybe I'm not ill and it's time for me to take my destiny into my own hands.

thats what i believe.

idk. maybe the medication takes time?

but i always thought i needed to take destiny into my own hands

It's possible that the med you're taking is at too low a dose or that meds simply aren't effective enough for you.

The medication doesn't always prevent relapses, it's just better at preventing relapses than no medication. If the meds aren't working the safest place for you is the hospital. I know none of us enjoy the hospital but it's still a good place to go when things get out of control.

I can't make it through the weekend like this and get my schoolwork done at the same time, especially because of Memorial day weekend my doctor's office won't be open until Tuesday. I took a Depakote, and will start tapering back up and tell my doctor when I call her. something had to be done and that is what works. I do not want to end up in the hospital again

I think you made the right decision.

It's like it's stopped working altogether though. I'll talk to my cpn on weds and see what she says. I doubt she will want me in hospital. She does everything to keep me out.

I think that's a sensible and wise decision your doctor will probably be glad you took it into your own hands and did the right thing. Well done

Thanks for the support guys, I hope everyone gets to feeling better soon

Is there anything you can do until then to make sure you stay away from the bridge---like tell someone irl that you need company. Do you live with someone else who could keep an eye on you?

I live with my bf and he knows. The days are endless distractions. He's off till tues. then I'm on my own.

Ok well that's good maybe things will straighten out over the weekend. Did you ever look into cbt for psychosis---I know that's available in the UK and it might help you out in situations like this.

My cpn said she's going to do some stuff with me but I'm not sure if it's cbt. I've asked for it before and never got anywhere. Maybe should mention it again. What kind of stuff does it cover?

It probably varies from therapist to therapist but it covers both hallucinations and delusions as well as moods and anxiety. I feel much happier having had it. It's not as effective as meds but it's nice as a backup system----it helps you organize your thoughts better.

maybe the dose is slightly too low. but when i went up on it by 2.5mg i got real tired and started eating more

I'm not saying you need to increase but if you don't you need to understand that the thoughts about the FBI are likely to stay. It's a choice and you need to do what works best for you.

true. yet i feel strongly about it. what if they never go away tho? i mean i remember being on 100mg haldol and they didnt go away. like right now they just are there but at the back of my head. but kinda moving forward right now. maybe im stressed out right now dont know.

I napped this afternoon and was woken by the neighbors noise around 5:15. I'm a nervous wreck now. I was just thinking there's no way I'll survive another winter and the spring is going by so fast! I'm so scared. Oh my gosh I'm so scared. I don't know what to do.

Took my ear plugs out and it's still going on although not nearly as loud as earlier. I hate them.

my neighbors are loud too. it sucks. its so anxiety provoking. i feel for u angelique.

Thanks Justme. It's kind of complicated because it's not really my dog, but he has been my dog since Xmas and so I do feel some affection for him. I think my real dog (Max) is dead. They killed him I think. Dog is nice enough, I guess. It's not his fault that they are using him, but he's not the same as Max and that is hard.

Was that where you used to live? I know moving is really stressful, but if that's where your friends and everything is, it might be worth it if you will be happier in the long term? You only moved where you are now because of the voices, right?

I'm glad your bf will be with you and that he knows about what's going on. Try to stay with him, and not make any important decisions just yet. I hope they can help keep you out of the hospital, but if they can't, they believe you are sick and so will hopefully be kind to you.



I didn't realise you were transgender Medicalfox. One of my friends thinks he might be too, but it seems very complicated to me. I second Sometimes' suggestion to get another T to deal with the other stuff, if your insurance will pay for it? I'm sorry that your classes didn't go as well as you wanted, but I hope that you still get to graduate on time.



I hope that helps things and you can get hold of your pdoc soon. It is a bank holiday weekend here too.

I'm sorry that you're so scared. Do you have headphones that you could listen to relaxing music through? That might help with the noise and the anxiety?

*Willow*

Willow, thank you for your suggestions. I forget to listen to music when I'm in that state. It's a good idea though. How are you doing?

Grrrr. People. I just don't understand them. One sent out an email that was supposed to contain an attachment with directions. I requested the attachment, and was then told to use Google Maps. Geez. Why send out the damn directions?