Roll Call 59

junkDNA · Jul 23, 2015, 07:16 PM

texted T and said im not coming to group saturday. i told him he can tell them why. it will be kinda weird cuz i see T right after group. so i will run into them.

newtus · Jul 23, 2015, 07:35 PM

i feel like im going to have a panic attack. ive built a tolerance to this xanax. so its not even helping anymore. idk what to do.

A18793715 · Jul 23, 2015, 07:40 PM

My sister thinks I called cps on her and told me my niece and nephew will be placed in foster care and that its my fault.

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MoonSunn · Jul 23, 2015, 07:44 PM

Im feeling a lot of synchronicity these days, impossible stuff.. Liking it, actually.

Angelique67 · Jul 23, 2015, 09:45 PM

Darn it, I did something stupid and now I can't sleep. I'm going to be exhausted again in the morning.

Erti · Jul 23, 2015, 09:47 PM

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Originally Posted by A18793715

My sister thinks I called cps on her and told me my niece and nephew will be placed in foster care and that its my fault.

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Even if you did called cps it's her fault for having cps take her kids.

Angelique67 · Jul 23, 2015, 10:29 PM

I'm still hungry. I guess I'll heat up some left over french fries.

Alone_and_Afraid · Jul 23, 2015, 10:33 PM

It's my fiancé of three years, but I'm not pregnant guys.
I was having an episode earlier. I believed a baby was inside me. Still kind of do. Seeing the psych doctor tomorrow.

I honestly don't know how he handles me. I'm lucky to have him.

ensconce · Jul 23, 2015, 11:19 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

hey
how are you guys?
i didnt goto group today
i hung out with that guy that said he liked me. i dont like him back just as a friend tho. we hung out a bit too long as we just sat there. he made me pick him up and also take him to work. i wouldnt date him as i said before because all those things i said about guys and dependency vs independency but he seems like an ok friend. at least he gave me gas money. the girl with spina bifida never has and she made me take her all over the place and push her wheelchair for her everywhere. that definitely deserves gas money. but things i was home alone with him and things got weird when he said he suggested cuddling. i told him straight up if he was gonna try anything on me i was gonna take him straight home and not to work.

so my anxiety level really rose today because all that. i saw my mom earlier before that.

so i got out today. and saw someone.

im not feeling all that better but a bit. its getting better.

i got a lot of school work to do over the next few days.

Tke some deep slow breaths and try to think of something positive such as a happy memory or try distracting yourself by watching a movie or talking with someone you are comfortable with.

Stay safe.

Blue_Bird · Jul 24, 2015, 12:20 AM

Can't get back to sleep. Probably just going to stay up. Appointment with my therapist in the morning, then coming home and having pizza

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 24, 2015, 02:25 AM

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Originally Posted by Alone_and_Afraid

It's my fiancé of three years, but I'm not pregnant guys.
I was having an episode earlier. I believed a baby was inside me. Still kind of do. Seeing the psych doctor tomorrow.

I honestly don't know how he handles me. I'm lucky to have him.

I had that same delusion when I was first sick, I actually missed out on an mri because I put maybe on the are you pregnant part of the paperwork.

Angelique67 · Jul 24, 2015, 05:09 AM

I barely slept and I've been up since at least 4 but I was trying to sleep. It's chilly in here. Still 62 degrees out. I can't get comfortable. Very nervous.

Loial · Jul 24, 2015, 06:15 AM

Morning,

Feeling down this morning. Starting to think I do have mild depression but it won't be another month until I see my p-doc. It seems to me I'm less inclined to do anything in the mornings & feel fairly normal by afternoon/evening so it seems to be following a diurnal variation. I guess I have that much to be thankful for. Bring on the afternoon I say. (well technically it's just past midday but still)

Angelique67 · Jul 24, 2015, 06:25 AM

Hi, Loial, sorry to hear about your depressed mornings. At least it gets better as the day progresses. And you have a daily routine. I hope you'll feel better.

Loial · Jul 24, 2015, 06:37 AM

Thanks Angelique...

Alone_and_Afraid · Jul 24, 2015, 07:13 AM

Why do I go in and out of it?

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 24, 2015, 07:13 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Thanks Angelique...

Hey loial....saw this rpg style quit smoking program on reddit, maybe you could set up similar reward milestones?

I wrote up an RPG style achievement oriented game for my friend to help him quit smoking. The longer he sticks with it, the better the rewards. - Imgur

Door2015 · Jul 24, 2015, 08:09 AM

Good morning/afternoon! I resisted getting out of bed, even though my cats were threatening to break or eat all of my belongings. I had to run to the grocery story to get them food. Thankfully, my glasses and ceramic cups are safe, for now. I hate how I'm much more indecisive without coffee. I had to get tissues as a part of my daughter's "back to school" supplies, and I truly sat there staring at tissues for 5 minutes. I really wanted the anti-viral ones, but they didn't come in a larger size. So many choices for something that's used to wipe a nose. I opted for the ones that claim that they plant trees to help offset the environmental cost of making things to wipes ones nose. So, yah. That's my morning so far.

Loial · Jul 24, 2015, 08:22 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Hey loial....saw this rpg style quit smoking program on reddit, maybe you could set up similar reward milestones?

I wrote up an RPG style achievement oriented game for my friend to help him quit smoking. The longer he sticks with it, the better the rewards. - Imgur

Haha, not a bad idea. I was thinking of just buying something small at the 1 week, 1 month & 3 month marks. Always good to reward yourself as well as offer an incentive.

Thus far I've just been rewarding myself with a packet of cigarettes after 24 hours on the whole...

junkDNA · Jul 24, 2015, 09:05 AM

funeral todAY. its gonna be hard

Alone_and_Afraid · Jul 24, 2015, 11:52 AM

Went to the doctor. Signature explains it all.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 24, 2015, 12:10 PM

[Switching to e-cigarettes affects drug concentration]. - PubMed - NCBI

Just found this and it was asked on here before....vaping doesn't decrease the activity of antipsychotics the way that cigarettes do.

Angelique67 · Jul 24, 2015, 12:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

[Switching to e-cigarettes affects drug concentration]. - PubMed - NCBI

Just found this and it was asked on here before....vaping doesn't decrease the activity of antipsychotics the way that cigarettes do.

Yeah, it's hard to get as much nicotine with vaping as with smoking. Smoking is like freebasing it. Blech. I don't want to go back to smoking but I've been having awful cravings. Maybe my generic Abilify is more powerful since I quit. I have been having some hallucinations due to the switch from Brand to generic.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 24, 2015, 12:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

Yeah, it's hard to get as much nicotine with vaping as with smoking. Smoking is like freebasing it. Blech. I don't want to go back to smoking but I've been having awful cravings. Maybe my generic Abilify is more powerful since I quit. I have been having some hallucinations due to the switch from Brand to generic.

yeah me too the generic kind of sucks.....