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Aug 25, 2015, 10:12 PM

Diphenhydramine (Benadryl - allergy med) did something like that to me. I would try and sleep and the smoke alarm light would move where I'd get a jolt and feel like I'm about to die and I would check my heart because if I didn't, it would stop. I would check my heart every 30s to a minute so it doesn't stop. Also recreationally, the body zaps were so bad.

It was at the time where I stopped the Prozac and on holidays skiing.

I would be extremely anxious and my heart would beat super fast and into the hot tub which did well for the anxiety. Then when its too hot, I would walk on the ice in a cloud of steam in -20C for a while.

Are you eating well? Cuz for me, I need nutrients especially electrolites or I go nuts. But on Prozac, nothing happens.

The_little_didgee · Aug 25, 2015, 10:56 PM

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Originally Posted by costello

I thought about you the other day, didgee. I shared this meme on facebook with the note that I liked the words but thought the photo was ugly. Then I wondered if you might like the picture.

The photo is okay. It would be a lot nicer if it wasn't edited. The mushroom is called Amanita muscaria. Its natural colors are actually quite nice and have inspired a lot of art and are even in all the Super Mario Brothers games.

I like the quote. Can you share some more inspirational quotes?

Today I thought about some anger I used to have, and how it hurt another person who means a lot to me. I must be healing.

Aug 25, 2015, 11:04 PM

My mom and step dad broke up because he's still sending money to his ex wife. She is sad but strong holding in tears and wants what's best for her kids.

She was so happy. He caused extreme emotional and physical damage to my whole family all these years. And then just... Left after getting Canadian citizenship..

I don't know what to do but cry. My dad and I predicted this. He doesn't care but now what is she going to do once I move out before my sister does and she'll be alone. I can't explain this feeling. Every single penny she makes is for her kids.

I don't care about jail If anything happens to her.

I need to let it go. It's over. He did what he did. At least she was happy with him for years.

It's over.

costello · Aug 26, 2015, 07:07 AM

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Originally Posted by The_little_didgee

The photo is okay. It would be a lot nicer if it wasn't edited. The mushroom is called Amanita muscaria. Its natural colors are actually quite nice and have inspired a lot of art and are even in all the Super Mario Brothers games.

I like the quote. Can you share some more inspirational quotes?

Today I thought about some anger I used to have, and how it hurt another person who means a lot to me. I must be healing.

I'd love to share more inspirational quotes. Of course, what I find inspiring others may not.

I need to remember to copy these questions out and run through them every evening. They're good questions, I think.

Thanks for the name of the mushroom. I'll look it up when I get back from the day trip I'm driving my mom to.

Loial · Aug 26, 2015, 08:20 AM

Morning everyone!

I'm now on my 5th day of being medication-free & I'm happy to say I've not noticed any increase in symptoms or side effects from stopping other than perhaps waking up early in the morning. Risperidone has a pretty short half-life so I'm quite sure if I'm not experiencing any bad effects now then I won't be expecting any to suddenly pop up.

I'm already managing to stay up later, which I'm pleased about. I hated getting tired & going to bed at 8:30pm every night. I'm just waiting to see if I'll maybe get some more motivation back now I'm off it... last time I came off APs it took about 2 weeks for my motivation to come back fully. It's not like I had a drastic decrease in my motivation on Risperidone but I think it did have a slight effect.

All in all, it seems like going medication-free is working out well for me for now. Let's just hope this psychosis is transient & I won't get any sort of relapse.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 26, 2015, 08:27 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Morning everyone!

I'm now on my 5th day of being medication-free & I'm happy to say I've not noticed any increase in symptoms or side effects from stopping other than perhaps waking up early in the morning. Risperidone has a pretty short half-life so I'm quite sure if I'm not experiencing any bad effects now then I won't be expecting any to suddenly pop up.

I'm already managing to stay up later, which I'm pleased about. I hated getting tired & going to bed at 8:30pm every night. I'm just waiting to see if I'll maybe get some more motivation back now I'm off it... last time I came off APs it took about 2 weeks for my motivation to come back fully. It's not like I had a drastic decrease in my motivation on Risperidone but I think it did have a slight effect.

All in all, it seems like going medication-free is working out well for me for now. Let's just hope this psychosis is transient & I won't get any sort of relapse.

That's great

Blue_Bird · Aug 26, 2015, 08:31 AM

Awesome loial!

Just got home from getting blood work done, the lady asked what happened on my forearm because of the scar that she could tell it was recent, I just said it was an accident and left it at that

Door2015 · Aug 26, 2015, 08:34 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Morning everyone!

I'm now on my 5th day of being medication-free & I'm happy to say I've not noticed any increase in symptoms or side effects from stopping other than perhaps waking up early in the morning. Risperidone has a pretty short half-life so I'm quite sure if I'm not experiencing any bad effects now then I won't be expecting any to suddenly pop up.

I'm already managing to stay up later, which I'm pleased about. I hated getting tired & going to bed at 8:30pm every night. I'm just waiting to see if I'll maybe get some more motivation back now I'm off it... last time I came off APs it took about 2 weeks for my motivation to come back fully. It's not like I had a drastic decrease in my motivation on Risperidone but I think it did have a slight effect.

All in all, it seems like going medication-free is working out well for me for now. Let's just hope this psychosis is transient & I won't get any sort of relapse.

That's fantastic Loial. I'm happy that it's been working out for you! Oh, and good morning

Door2015 · Aug 26, 2015, 08:44 AM

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Originally Posted by Hyperagitate

My mom and step dad broke up because he's still sending money to his ex wife. She is sad but strong holding in tears and wants what's best for her kids.

She was so happy. He caused extreme emotional and physical damage to my whole family all these years. And then just... Left after getting Canadian citizenship..

I don't know what to do but cry. My dad and I predicted this. He doesn't care but now what is she going to do once I move out before my sister does and she'll be alone. I can't explain this feeling. Every single penny she makes is for her kids.

I don't care about jail If anything happens to her.

I need to let it go. It's over. He did what he did. At least she was happy with him for years.

It's over.

Tweaky, I'm sorry that your step dad has caused your mom, you, and your sister so much pain. I know you would do anything for your mom, so the best thing you can do is just be there for her. You're strong too, just like she is.

Blue_Bird · Aug 26, 2015, 09:37 AM

At the state fair in their vegetable showing they had several of the hottest peppers, the carolina reaper, trinidad scorpio, and bhut jolkia (sp?) ghost peppers. It was really cool

falcon09 · Aug 26, 2015, 10:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Morning everyone!

I'm now on my 5th day of being medication-free & I'm happy to say I've not noticed any increase in symptoms or side effects from stopping other than perhaps waking up early in the morning. Risperidone has a pretty short half-life so I'm quite sure if I'm not experiencing any bad effects now then I won't be expecting any to suddenly pop up.

I'm already managing to stay up later, which I'm pleased about. I hated getting tired & going to bed at 8:30pm every night. I'm just waiting to see if I'll maybe get some more motivation back now I'm off it... last time I came off APs it took about 2 weeks for my motivation to come back fully. It's not like I had a drastic decrease in my motivation on Risperidone but I think it did have a slight effect.

All in all, it seems like going medication-free is working out well for me for now. Let's just hope this psychosis is transient & I won't get any sort of relapse.

I'll warn you, I stopped medication once and it took a few months before I relapsed, and I know someone who went nearly a year.

Keep strong

Loial · Aug 26, 2015, 01:07 PM

Just had some macaroni cheese for dinner.

What's everyone up to today? I'm just re-watching the X-Files... forgotten how much I enjoyed it.

Loial · Aug 26, 2015, 01:11 PM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

I'll warn you, I stopped medication once and it took a few months before I relapsed, and I know someone who went nearly a year.

Keep strong

Thanks, my psychiatrist did tell me to watch out for that but since were not sure whether my psychosis is transient or not it's hard to know what will happen.

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 26, 2015, 01:15 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Thanks, my psychiatrist did tell me to watch out for that but since were not sure whether my psychosis is transient or not it's hard to know what will happen.

Somehow I was under the impression that you were still having symptoms...is it mostly voices? If so are you just going to be OK with a certain amount of symptoms?

Angelique67 · Aug 26, 2015, 01:19 PM

Good luck, Loial! I couldn't do it, myself.

Blue_Bird · Aug 26, 2015, 01:24 PM

Watching old Friday the 13th movies

junkDNA · Aug 26, 2015, 01:49 PM

home from my moms. had a hard night there. some weird stuff happened. which caused me to feel suicidal. havent felt that way in a while. it was different though... i didnt feel like i wanted to kill myself right then. but i was making plans like setting a date to do it. and i felt really calm about it. i woke up this morning and was a little scared about that. T said we can talk about overwhelm and how to manage it.

today my plan is to complete my homework. i have a lot of hours at work again. i go back tomorrow 9 -4 manning self checkout. they are low on front end employees and are in the process of interviewing cashiers/baggers. so that is why i am getting a lot of hours. also the teens went back to school so they dont have a lot of ppl to work the day shift. i am supposed to not work over 20 hours in a week, but i have 26 this week. the paycheck is nice, but it takes a toll on me.

Loial · Aug 26, 2015, 01:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Somehow I was under the impression that you were still having symptoms...is it mostly voices? If so are you just going to be OK with a certain amount of symptoms?

Yes I still hear voices but that is it pretty much... they don't bother me very much anymore since they are very quiet. I feel it's something I can live with.

A18793715 · Aug 26, 2015, 02:22 PM

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junkDNA · Aug 26, 2015, 02:31 PM

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how are u doing?

falcon09 · Aug 26, 2015, 02:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Just had some macaroni cheese for dinner.

What's everyone up to today? I'm just re-watching the X-Files... forgotten how much I enjoyed it.

I love mac n cheese, I literally eat it almost every single day. Is it healthy? No, but better than when I used to barely eat at all.

A18793715 · 03:50 PM

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how are u doing?

I'm okay. Just thinking a lot. How are you doing?

[-- possible trigger --]

Possible trigger:

The other night, I went to a bar with my boyfriend. There was 3 guys by the pool tables and we sat by them since it was less crowded. After one drink, he went to get another one. Everything was fine. Then he went to get change for the pool tables so me and him could play pool. That's when the 3 guys automatically swarmed towards me and my boyfriend said it look like they were trying to walk around to get me to pay attention to one while the others were behind me. (That makes me paranoid just thinking about it.) When I drink, my cup never leaves my hand. But you couldn't set drinks on the pool tables, so I had to leave it on the table. I would take a drink in between turns but by like turn 3, I couldn't hit any balls. I was too shaky. That's basically the last thing I remember. My boyfriend said I was completely messed up that he literally had to carry me home basically. He said he turned to a bush to pick a flower for me and it wasn't even 3 seconds and he turned around and my finger was bleeding badly. He couldn't figure out what cut my finger. So I went and got a tetanus shot the next day. My arm still feels like someone punched me extremely hard. It makes my stomach turn to think what could have happened if I was alone. Last night, I basically lived it out in my dream. Now I'm terrified to leave my boyfriends side.

[-- end possible trigger --]

On a brighter note, I went to my MHMR meeting and my doctors appointment isn't until my birthday. Nov 6. The lady said in one year, I'll be living independently and they'll help with all furnishings. And to start classes at school. I have very high doubts but we'll see. The lady said they'll cover all of my medication costs. So maybe I can get back on the antidepressant that did the best for me but cost almost $100 with my dads federal insurance that's really good. So, we'll see.

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junkDNA · 03:51 PM

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Originally Posted by A18793715

I'm okay. Just thinking a lot. How are you doing?

[-- possible trigger --]

Possible trigger:

The other night, I went to a bar with my boyfriend. There was 3 guys by the pool tables and we sat by them since it was less crowded. After one drink, he went to get another one. Everything was fine. Then he went to get change for the pool tables so me and him could play pool. That's when the 3 guys automatically swarmed towards me and my boyfriend said it look like they were trying to walk around to get me to pay attention to one while the others were behind me. (That makes me paranoid just thinking about it.) When I drink, my cup never leaves my hand. But you couldn't set drinks on the pool tables, so I had to leave it on the table. I would take a drink in between turns but by like turn 3, I couldn't hit any balls. I was too shaky. That's basically the last thing I remember. My boyfriend said I was completely messed up that he literally had to carry me home basically. He said he turned to a bush to pick a flower for me and it wasn't even 3 seconds and he turned around and my finger was bleeding badly. He couldn't figure out what cut my finger. So I went and got a tetanus shot the next day. My arm still feels like someone punched me extremely hard. It makes my stomach turn to think what could have happened if I was alone. Last night, I basically lived it out in my dream. Now I'm terrified to leave my boyfriends side.

[-- end possible trigger --]

On a brighter note, I went to my MHMR meeting and my doctors appointment isn't until my birthday. Nov 6. The lady said in one year, I'll be living independently and they'll help with all furnishings. And to start classes at school. I have very high doubts but we'll see. The lady said they'll cover all of my medication costs. So maybe I can get back on the antidepressant that did the best for me but cost almost $100 with my dads federal insurance that's really good. So, we'll see.

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wow, that is really scary. i am glad your boyfriend was there. the MHMR sounds nice. those are good goals to have. i hope it all works out and you are able to find some relief.

i am doing ok today. i bought a decal of a fox wearing glasses and i put it in my bedroom. it looks cool.

A18793715 · Aug 26, 2015, 04:53 PM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

wow, that is really scary. i am glad your boyfriend was there. the MHMR sounds nice. those are good goals to have. i hope it all works out and you are able to find some relief.

i am doing ok today. i bought a decal of a fox wearing glasses and i put it in my bedroom. it looks cool.

Thank you. And oooo. If I ever have my own place, it'll be Harry Potter themed.

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Sometimes psychotic · Aug 26, 2015, 07:58 PM

How a Computer Predicts Schizophrenia and Psychosis - The Atlantic

Check this out, apparently computers can now determine with a high degree of accuracy whether you will develop psychosis just by analyzing the way you talk. Kind of creepy actually....

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