Roll Call 61

Happy Birthday, newtus!!!!

That's so pretty those flower s and the balloon.

thank you everyone for the birthday wishes. that was sweet of you all.

i have 57 friends on FB and only got 15 people wishing me happy birthday so thank you all!

its time to hunker down for school. ive been having a lot of anxiety lately. i had a panic attack while skyping Door2015 the other day. i was so embarrassed. i took my meds immediately. i think im on the verge of crying from stress. ive been under a lot of stress the past month. from waiting for my financial aid to come in and worrying that it wasnt - to worrying about the potential vacation we were SUPPOSED to take my dad and i and booking flights and never did cuz i cost too much money. then my therapist said i was psychotic and i do have some psychosis going on.

im kinda at a tipping point.

the clinic says i have to go get bloodwork done within the next two months because i havent done it since 2013 in their records. so thats stressful.

i feel a mix of burnt out from life and stressed and anxious. its a horrible combination. i wish i was vivacious and energetic but i just feel like im 60 years old in terms of energy. i blame my meds so much. but i just started taking 15mg of haldol so idk.

Last day of work tomorrow. I loved working there. I thought that I couldn't deal with old people but everyone was so nice. I'll miss it. Changed my views on life a bit.

"Managed not to steal their pain meds" - Tweaky

Then back to school and do my best I guess. I get upset thinking about how I could have changed my life if I knew about schizophrenia but all I got from my first psychiatrist was "You'll have anhedonia for the rest of your life".

Going to British Columbia (Western Canada) with my mom and sister for a week to meet relatives and stuff.

My dad is driving his new Harley to B.C and the states apparently. He said he couldn't visit here because he's been travelling back from Argentina and just got here yesterday saying that he will visit later.

I wanted to tell my mom to stop telling my sister that he's not going to visit his kids after saying he would so many times. I don't know what happened to my dad. I don't blame my sister for not wanting to see him but she needs her dad. I stopped replying to him for now.

I'm trying to sleep, and I feel tired but I just can't get myself to fall asleep.
Too many voices, too many thoughts.
Funny how these only happen on the night before work!

Can someone quickly check if forums.schizophrenia.com is down

The forums appear to be down but not the whole site....

Yeah wonder what's going on , its down 8 hours now , no mention of the problem anywhere on the main site

Considering most people have a psychotic disorder on it and are prone to bouts of paranoia , youd think that they could say something on the main site.. Anyway thanks

How you getting on anyway , you still working in the lab? I would love that job , working away on your own merit , hopefully not many people bothering you. Ideal

Good...yeah in the lab still. As far as sz.com it's night here I doubt anyone even knows it's down.....

Down since about 11:30 pm our time , so it would be peak time for a lot in the USA. Anyway , shan't keep you up longer , get some sleep

Yeah but not peak work hours...most jobs end at 5 pm....

Yeah internet traffic , I guess , I'm trying to say. Its a pretty big site , they have mods to cover, usually most hours. You'd think they could just putup a banner on the main site or something...

I've never used schizophrenia.com
Is it helpful? Is it like here?

I guess visit some time.

i used to be on schizophrenia.com. lots of cliques and trolls there

morning

about to have my coffee
had a good birthday celebrated it all week. since last friday.

back to my old routine of staying home alone and waiting til school starts

I probably visit schizophrenia.com and here about equal, both places are cool.

Enjoying some delicious margaritas!

I can't wait until it cools off in the fall, it's too damn hot

I'm new to this forum, but (usually) solidly here now.

Welcome to the forum MtNannie

Still sick, but m showing signs of improvement

Welcome