Roll Call 62

Just listening to this on repeat! By a local band called Corner Boy, they're something else. You guys should check it out if your looking for something up beat to cheer ya up!

Howdy y'all! How the hell are ya?

Awesome thanks, how about you?

Heh, that's good. I've been pretty good myself. Just been busy with life. I've been pretty happy.

That's great, did things ever work out with you and that guy?

Nah. I told him I had schizophrenia and he got all weird about it.

Oh that sucks...my t told me I should tell the one I'm dating now....I'm not so sure he won't bail also....

How long have you two been dating?

Month and a half or so...it seems too soon to me....

Yeah. Though I don't think there's a wrong time to mention it. You should do it when it feels right to you.

Idk I waited 6 months to tell my best friend but t thinks there's greater INtimancy with this so I need to tell him sooner or it will seem like I was keeping secrets.

Makes sense. If he bails than its his loss. When I was with Julian, it took him time to understand about my mental illness.

I napped and now I feel like its a different day. The drugstore called and I have to call them back tomorrow.

im at my moms house.
i needed reconciliation.
my dad said i should if i want to.

Don't feel bad, she's your mom, you're probably going to still love her even if she's sometimes a jerk....

i guess the loneliness hit hard for me and i wasnt able to not call her. but yea like you said still love her. even though she treats me like total crap.

For what it's worth I think you did the right thing, you sounded pretty bad last night, I haven't seen you like that in a while....the depression I mean.....

i work 9 to 4 tomorrow and i am eating grapes right now

I can't shake these ****ing deep depression. It hit me like I walked into a brick wall days ago. Usually these moods only last a few hours but this one will not let up. That's why I haven't been posting or doing anything but sleeping. :/

I can't afford my viibyrd. Does anyone take any antidepressants that they find very effective that isn't an AP?

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Hey, good to see you around & I'm glad to hear you are doing well!

The fact of the matter is he needs to find out eventually. The longer you leave it then as you said the more it seems like you have hidden it & he may not trust you after. Also if I'm right you are not dx with schizophrenia so you don't have to use that word which has a lot of stigma associated with it... he might be more understanding & accepting of general psychosis. There's only one way to find out though, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be... I'm sure it'll also be a load of your mind to get it out in the open.

You could always test the water & ask what he thinks about mental health problems before opening up.

Why would you tell someone so soon , it does not make sense. You are perfectly entitled to have secrets. I know trust in a T is important but I think he is wrong here. You work , you have your own money & independence , its not like this guy is getting a raw deal ...

Yes well my t thinks that because he had a book on bipolar on his shelf I should weave that in but honestly it feels a little intrusive to me.

I think is she is concerned it will be even harder to tell him later and also a more difficult loss if he bails. The point I guess which is optimal is where I know him well enough that he can trust me but not so well it seems I've kept secrets. It's hard enough to remember to take my meds when he's around at night. It would be much easier if I could just take them at the normal time every night.

I don't think it is so soon but it's subjective really.

I do think however it's important to let the person get to know you for who you really are so that it is less likely a dx will define who they see you as. After that then it would seem like an ideal time to bring it up. And it is something that should be brought up early in a relationship because it is a major health concern. They have a right to know if you have a problem that can profound effects on you as by being in a relationship it can have implications for them too. (just speaking in general terms here)

It's fine to keep secrets about insignificant things but I believe openness & honesty are the cornerstones of a relationship. Keeping something as big as a serious mental health problem from them for any significant amount of time in my mind is almost like lying to them. It's a part of who you are.

Well that's promising then, it shows he is more likely to be open-minded about mental illness if he has a book on bipolar. I can understand why you might see it as a little intrusive to bring that up though.

I don't think you need to make your regimen known. It will unnecessarily introduce a dependent dynamic into your relationship. You should be able to manage this independently of any approval seeking. This is something you do for yourself , to keep you healthy and enables you to do all the other good stuff , that you share with each other.

Anyway , just thought , I'd say that 1 month and a half is too soon , just an opinion.