Roll Call 62

i had too much caffiene today. i had 3 and it made me feel tired and anxious at the same time.
and i have a headache slightly.

im thinking about conspiracies. they make me paranoid. my cousin whos 30-something said something about aliens on FB. but im more paranoid of the government and the people already here on earth! theyre terrifying.

Looking forward to next week, going to group

I feel awful. If only my body could get comfortable and not hurt. If only I knew what to do about moving.

i really like photography. taking pictures of people. because i like to show the emotions and forever solidify them in print or even digital. i really like taking pictures of people. like i really like that picture of the woman and her two kids in the great depression. whoever did that. i really like that. plus ken burns.

My teeth are starting to hurt more. I'm scared of everything.

have you got any brufen? I always take that when my teeth hurt and it works wonders.

What's brufen?

I googled it. Yes, I have ibuprofen. I have been taking it anyway for arthritis.

Does it not help your teeth?

sorry if i talk too much. i just like to daydream a lot and think about a lot of stuff.

It does, but my teeth are in touch shape and I've been taking ibuprofen daily for years now.

i got my work schedule wrong..i showed up at work 2 hours early. i wish i had a different job but i am too scared to apply to other ones

What would you like to do?

ok well.. they are having a huge hiring event at the Biltmore Estate. they pay really well. i would like to work there and live in asheville. i asked my sister if she would be interested in getting a place with me but she said no bc of my cat (allergies). i dont really know if thats the real reason or not honestly. we lived together in boone for almost 2 yrs but that was 6 yrs ago. im an hour away from asheville

Omg that place is fabulous I still remember your tulip pics.....you should totally do it!

Also allergies suck, they really do...

yeah, its a big tourist attraction. my T told me he has a client that works there as a dishwasher and makes 10$/hr. i am way too scared to go there and apply let alone figure out a way to move closer. i WANT to do it but im afraid.

also, i lived in boone with my sister for almost 2 yrs and had a cat the whole time and she was fine

Asheville is beautiful, especially in the fall

youve been? i like it. i grew up an hour east of there. some parts of it are annoying though

I've been through it and around that part of NC while traveling to Ft. Benning Georgia

$10/hr is the minimum wage in chicago now but im wondering if the increased pay in Asheville is similarly due to higher cost of living?

When is the hiring event? You could always talk it over with your T...he always has good advice.

Maybe it would help to see this as a point of divergence In Your life, ie think about your future with applying vs without and figure out where you would rather be.

i have talked about it with my T. he basically told me something about the "next level" of my life. he is trying to push me to figure my **** out and i know its because of what i told him a couple weeks ago. sometimes i get so overwhelmed when i sit and think about my lifes direction. honestly i never really ever thought about that. for a long time its just been getting through each day. i think im in a place to look further than that but it scares me when i do it.

the hiring event is for the next few weeks

also...the minimum wage here is $.7.25. i make $7.44 right now. asheville is more expensive to live in.

Well my advice is one step at a time....go to the hiring event and give it a shot....you may or may not get hired.....even if you do get hired you don't have to take it but at least you'd have the option....

Do it just for the experience you'll gain confidence each time you apply somewhere....

i feel ignored.
i guess you guys wished i went away or something.

What makes you say that? I left a chick on your wall.....

Me too. But I'm not ignoring you, newtus.