Roll Call 62

Does the cogentin stop working if you take it too often...I guess I wonder why deal wih it at all?

i dont know but how long will this last? im starting to rethink going to university and my life.

feeling depressed...but may be because i havent ate today. so i am making salmon and couscous. i think my PMS is back. i felt really angry at work today. its hard to hide it. i cant let customers see me feeling angry.

Benzo's don't work for akethasia . I'm not sure if you can build up a tolerance. I've only done 1mg off and on for the longest time and it's worked. Every time I get it there is a chance I might have to take it. Risperdone caused it, Lithium caused it, Effexor causes it. There are so many variables.

just feel like sleeping for a few weeks

Not sure...was at least two weeks for me then I went back up on my meds, you could try an intermediate dose like 12.5? That's what I did.

I'm confused cogentin isn't a benzo it's more like benydryl...

How are your med packs? I find my AP really takes the edge off pms....

i gotta pack them tonight... ive been checking them before i take each dose so they have been right. maybe i will take a 25mg seroquel prn. i just feel really low and like..feel like nothing matters anyway

Can you have chocolate on your diet? That also really helps

i suppose ill try that tonight.

yea i can have chocolate but i dont have any here. the only sweet stuff i have here is fruit which is good enough i think. i might have an orange after i eat. im not even hungry im just eating bc maybe it will help my low mood. ill prob just eat and go to bed. try to fall asleep during my nightly existential crisis

the nightly existential crisis. i have those too. seriously i do. i understand it

I had quite the adventure today. Woke up at 6:30 with excruciating abdominal pain. Vomited ten times in three hours even though I had hardly anything in my stomach (sorry) and so decided to let my husband take me to the ER like he wanted.

Turns out I am passing kidney stones. They gave me Dilaudid in the ER, which made me feel GOOD and took away the pain. I have Norco for outpatient pain control and an anti-nausea drug as well. I should finish passing them this week, according to the CT Scan.

The pain is quite severe with these stones. I'd heard that, but until now have never experienced it. Good Lord, be with me.

Cogentin makes my mouth and hands dry and then there's urinary retention. I don't think I'm allowed to take that much with the side effects like that.

Ever since I was inpatient, I almost choked about 10 times. I learned not to panic, to not swallow even slightly and get myself some water.

It's bad akathesia but risperidone was so bad that I was afraid to be alive much longer. I couldn't make eye contact and was paranoid and it felt so weird. That and the risperdone making me anxious is what made me fear and refuse antipsychotics until the paranoia got bad and took it every day for a week where he gave me Abilify and most of the symptoms went away within 3 weeks.

If I didn't take the cogentin today, I love this med but I have to be honest. A nurse told me that akathesia could be life threatening or it was the other EPS symptoms like muscle tightness.

I didn't know that.

I'd probably be on a ton of Klonopin and Ativan PRN if I didn't say no. They did nothing for my agitation with 2mg a day of Klonopin in the hospital. I remember nothing. Like I even took pictures on my phone that I don't remember taking. It's already proven to cause brain damage and I believe that with my experience of benzos.

I would use them recreationally. With only .5mg. Locking the bottle away would be a good idea. 3mg to relax, knocking myself out and ten another 42mg by accident in amnesia like my god.. How the hell.. The 90 klonopins was a complete disaster in how I have control of my meds.

I just wanted to get better at that time and get out of being inpatient but I can't drink at the moment and when I can, it would be only a beer. Maybe two. I already know that I can't smoke marijuana which is sad because I was always saying that it would help with symptoms. Maybe it wasn't good weed Idk

I feel a lot better now that I've taken my cogentin and Concerta.

Brain chemistry with this for me is obvious. There's nothing I could do. I only smoke on Concerta and I sleep on caffeine pills. They don't do anything.

I slept today for 7 hours. Now I'm better.

Not even any insight..

I know I could just think about the future. It's easy .. I smell smoke in my house brb nvm but lethal doses on a crash and there's no insight. Very severe psychotic thoughts and motivation at 0%. It's like the world was over. Worse than any physical pain I've had. Methylphenidate has one of the most severe crashes of any stimulant as far as I know of. There's thousands of stimulants out there but they're research chemicals and illegal.

I made a joke and asked SP to send me research chemical, "Methylnapthidate" or something. Apparently it's a carcinogenic stimulant idk it thats possible but ya..

Benzos are primarily used by stimulant addicts because it's a relaxing crash where they aren't psychotic from stress etc

This time of year always gets me down. And when it's October and November it's even worse. Then there's months of cold and darkness to try to get through until it starts to lift again. I hate this time of year.

I slept until 9:30 hoping I'd sleep until 2 and now I'm all messed up.

hi guys, i'm popping in before i hit the hay. Angelique, do you live far north? i know in Alaska, my cousins would have winter months that were really dark. People tended to become depressed due to the lack of sunlight and they had to come up with different ways to get doses of "natural" light. You just reminded me of that weird fact. I think its similar for my cousins in Sweden.

I live in the North East but not super far north, just the east coast. It's just generic fall and winter that really get me down. I've heard of the special lamps, not sure I have room for one though.

How are you doing, Door?

I'm doing ok. I have some work snafu's. I accidentally french fried a few fingers today. They're alright and all, just a bit red and stiff. At least this time I didn't immediately stick my hand into a bag of ice cubes. I'm learning lots of first aid tips. When it happened I started jumping up and down, and my co-worker asked if I was ok, cause he didn't see what happened. And i just said, Yep! and then went and filled my glove with water and flexed my hand a bunch.

On the lighter side, I got a raise, which I am thankful for. The chef told me as I walked in this morning. I'm starting to face my fear of lettuce wraps, and hopefully someday they will be as undaunting as a kale caesar.

Sorry, all my stories of late relate to menu items and on the job injuries. I hope that I'm not as incompetent as I sound.

I'd love to travel to the Northeast. I basically love traveling anywhere. But I imagine that it's really pretty up there.

Ouch! I hope your hand is OK! That's all right about what you talk about, it's interesting!

Good morning! Going to group today

Good morning everyone! I hope you all have a good day.

I woke up at 5:00 this morning, hahaha. It was okay though, I went to bed crazy early last night(I just went up on my new anti psychotic so I was pretty tired yesterday). I am doing well, I like being awake during the early hours of the morning... The world is still quiet, I can go outside and just be in nature. I find that to be very relaxing.