Roll Call 62

Yep it is-----I think this new one is especially impressive, the brexpiprazole is just otsuka's attempt at abilify part II since that went generic.

Hi guys!

Good to see Rollcall nice and busy today!

Not up to much, just having a few vodka and red bulls with the fiancee, watching music on Youtube.

My parents are going away for two weeks on Sunday, off to Disneyland and Universal studio in Florida then a cruise around mexico and haiti and jamaica. I'm well jealous, they deserve it though, they haven't been away in years. It's going to really suck being here on my own though, I've actually never stayed in this house on my own in the 18 years I've lived here. I live in the country so I get really freaked out here on my own. I'm hoping the anxiety and paranoia stays away.

I'm going to have my dog in my room so I can look at him when I hear noises and voices I can look at him and see if he hears anything, then I'll know if it's real or not. I'm really freaking out about being here on my own

ANYWAY!!! What's everyone up to tonight?

Had my sun glasses on and was wondering why the cigarette wouldn't lite. I burned through the filter and smoked the wrong end and laughed

Yeah true.

Let's just hope I never have cause to use them though!

That's the story of my life man! :P

been watching beyond scared straight on netflix

How are your symptoms since you've been off?

im restless. im like a caged dog in this house. its only 5pm. it feels like it should be 7pm. i wish it was. or 9pm so i could goto sleep. im tempted to take an ambien and just sleep the day away.

Did you check out those podcasts?

I feel the same way except for the Ambien. I already took a nap today. I don't have a car so I have no way to get around anyway. I'm so sick of my life.

I used to be like that in hospital, just waiting for 10pm meds all day so I could go to sleep. Horrible so it was. When I was on chlorpromazine I would sleep so much in hospital, like three or four hour naps a day, it was great to pass them time until they let me go.

Do you get scared in the house on your own newtus?

yes! i do get scared. i double check the rooms many times a day! im afraid someone is hidingg in the house waiting to kill me. its like this every single day. it has been for years.

i know how it is to be sick of your life. i hate my life really. its no way to live for a young person. especially like me.

not yet. i have to go back and see what they are called again. i actually feel lonely. ive been doing school all day. so im not technically bored just its really lonely. i want someone to talk to.

can you skype? does anyone wanna skype?

yeah I'm the exact same when I'm here on my own. I hear all these mad noises and my paranoia goes to the extreme! Not looking forward to the next two weeks.

I would but I'm too ugly. I'd talk on the phone though.

why do you think youre ugly?

im so paranoid in my home. its like this everyday. i keep looking over my shoulder to check whos there and i keep checking all the rooms.

I just don't look good. I'd rather not describe myself.

sorry i didnt mean to get too personal. i was just wondering. i feel like i dont look good either because of my eyebrows. i have none because i pulled them out from Trichotillomania. i pulled them out from stress and anxiety.

I don't have mine either. What was left of them disappeared from hypothyroid issues I guess.

i also pull out my eyelashes.

My lashes on my left eye are coming out because my eye runs constantly and hard rocks form on my lashes. Really gross. I'm sorry you pull yours out.

What do you think it is? Do you think it's a paranoia thing? I mean, it can't be for me, I'm fine when there's people here but when I'm alone I have anxiety attacks that people are going to come and murder me, and aliens and all that stuff. It's completely irrational but I can't help it. It's not that I can't be alone, when I used to be alone in the city in my house it was fine because I had neighbours and people on the street but here in the country I just fall apart.