Driven out of apartment by neighbors

I just woke up. My recorder might not be picking them up.

They're going wild with it. I've been up for almost two hours and it's been non stop. I can't take this.

Maybe they assume if I haven't told police by now, I never will? I need them to stop or go far away so I can figure out where to move. I can't do anything under torture. I'm very upset.

They started talking downstairs and I believe they're planning some new escalation. I feel sick to my stomach.

If I call the police they would probably make me go to the hospital. Plus my place is so cluttered they might have it condemned! I don't know what to do and I feel sick to my stomach.

For pete's sake Angelique you've lost the plot. This is another version of your stalker delusion/paranoia. Im very sorry you feel terrified by this but if you gained control of yourself you would be much better off. i think you said your pdoc increased your meds. Just chill out and give them time to take effect. What you are describing is practcally impossible, e.g. drilling pin prick holes to alter acoustics. You've got to learn to ignore these impulses, your life will improve dramatically.

Neil, these "people" are really doing this. I'm ready to concede that the cameras are just my fear talking but they are definitely doing this. They stopped about an hour ago because the janitor came into the building. My pdoc said this kind of thing happens a lot. I'm probably over thinking calling the police, but I don't want anymore surprises in my life.

I'm taking the higher dose of Abilify and feeling very sedated by it. Not good for trying to get anything done.

I know we couldnt persuade you to disbelieve your stalker until the meds took effect so i wont try, but for your own sake you need to chill out and stop screaming etc. I believe they are making noises, most people do adn some are loud. but you cant let it destroy you. If you have to move you have to move, but i hope you find some inner peace in the mean time.

Thank you for the inner peace hopes. Regardless of what you believe, this is actually happening. It isn't just "some noises". It's been war since January 2.

I'm not sure why you, and possibly some others, are invested in trying to discount the situation as being nothing more than delusions. It would be very nice if it were.

If nothing of this nature has ever happened to you, that's fortunate, and I'm happy for you.

Whatever IS going on, you've lost your cool and lost the plot. you can admit that at times, and in other ways you cant. Thats why so many of us believe some degree of delusion and paranoia is involved here. And you've done this all before.

I've been at war with noisy neighbours. Ive been the noisy neighbour driving other people nuts when i was a rowdy teenager. i can imagine what's going on but it's driving you crazy and you are losing. you need to change tack and try something else because your reactions are destroying yourself. You have my complete sympathy.

You're about as validating as the Spanish Inquisition.

The people who actually know me IRL, and who have also met/understand the neighbors, believe this is going on.

I can't imagine anything more destructive than to have an illness, and due to that illness, to be disbelieved when something horrible is going on which only the one person can confirm. That's already happened here several times before. If I were in certain other forums instead of this one, there would have been no question... And, had there been, disbelievers would have been flamed to the extent anyone can be flamed on pc.

Take deep breaths, in and out.

I don't know if this is a delusion, paranoia, or if it's real. All you can do is try to deal and not let it consume you.

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I understand your feelings, I just always found that deep breaths allow me to relax for a second. I'm not saying it isn't real, all I know is that it's very real to you which means that letting it consume you is what the neighbors want, or what your own mind wants.

Finding it interesting that in the case of two disbelievers, each mentioned my screaming as a terrible thing to do. Not sure whether to laugh or cry about that. God forbid I should scream, since this is all imaginary anyway - according to THEM!

In fact, I haven't screamed since several days. But this situation does get the better of me, being real.

And no, you do not know how I feel. Not even in the ballpark.

Well I think the problem with screaming is that you're likely to make to situation worse. If you have people who want to torture you with their loud music etc then they are getting exactly what they want when you are upset. On the flip side screaming if there is no noise is going to result in the police coming to check on you one day. So its a lose lose situation.

Also if you're driven to the point of screaming then you need to do something to change the situation asap. How about noise cancelling headphones to get you by until you can move?

How many people have to say it?

If you want validation see a therapist and get it there, this is a public forum. If there was nothing going on your doctor wouldn't have increased your meds. Everyone here is thinking the same thing, maybe just not saying it.

It's actually a private forum, owned by DocJohn. And he, with appointed moderators, determine the rules for posting. I've often thought a lot of things in the forums didn't belong there, but using Tapatalk I cannot easily report posts which are unsupportive. In fact, chickenfoot, he flat out says that posters may not try to argue with delusional people on the forums. So, if you're right about me being delusional, you are breaking the rules. Again.

Noise cancelling headphones only dim noise a little. Far from cancelling. I've tried Bose's.

thi s made me laugh very mcuh,

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"No angelique I have not. I express joy al the damn time!

The increase in Abilify was my own request. I hoped that it might make me care less about the constant triggering. The pdoc was happy to raise it. He actually believes the situation is 100% objectively real. He said a lot of bad things happen in the rougher parts of town for far less reasons. I told him my online acquaintances didn't believe me. He shook his head and assured me this is extremely common.

My IRL relative and friend also believe it is happening. My friend has met the people in question, and has no doubts. Essentially, they are all that matter.

I'm not sure whether to request the thread be locked, or continue to update. For others who may be in a similar situation, and have no one either online or IRL to validate their experience, it might be a helpful thread.

I have been tortured by the Govt every single day for almost 2 years now. Every Single Waking Moment of Every Single Day for, what will be, 2 years on 31st March. And it's been going on sporadically for longer than that. No one IRL believes that is actually happening to me, and I doubt anybody on PC believes that either. It is immaterial. Whether it is actually happening or just in my head like everyone thinks, it still feels 100% real to me.

However, what I've realised is that I cannot change other people to make them believe me, and I cannot stop the Govt from doing whatever they want to me. I can only change me and my responses. They are trying to break me down, and sometimes, I will admit, they do get close, but every day I get up and I fight them by living my life the way I want to, in spite of their attempts to destroy me. That is my choice. They are bullies and I won't give them what they want!

I'm not going to say whether I believe what you describe is objectively occurring as you describe it or not because I am a stranger on the internet, so how could I possibly know for sure?! I'm also not going to make suggestions of things you should try because you've had many already. I am just going to leave my story here so that you know that you are not the only one in this type of situation, and that I have found another way through this type of experience.

All the best

*Willow*

That's no different to how most other forums work, but they are still public forums in the sense anyone can read them or join, post & express their opinions within the guidelines.

Therefore people have to accept that everyone & their dog can read about their problems, or chip in with their thoughts whether you agree with them or not.

I guess if you can't report a post, you could always send a PM to a moderator?