Roll Call 72

thanks.

sorry for asking about medical stuff. i just i cant really afford to goto a medical doctor cause hell just charge me 50 dollars. and i have a lot of issues. like with my chest. i have chest pain. then ive been taking magnesium for well you know constipation and it worked 1 day but its just back. i have other problems too that im too embarrassed to put on here.

i think my chest pain could be from weight gain too. i didnt think of acid reflux

Hope you feel better soon newtus

thank you kori!

Pretty sure I was hearing stuff again last night. Had a weird dream where I was really ill and lots of strange things happened.
Feel very disjointed and disconnected today. I feel like I need a friend who has sz in real life, that I can talk to about this and we can relate to each other and I won't feel so alone

feeling oretty discombobulated right now
can't tell if i am still dreaming or not, i woke up a little while ago because i had a dream that i was apparently seeing people that no one else could see and the people around me weren' t actual people, they were dolls that i was trying to convince them to turn themselves off to make clean up easier
the dolls turned on me and said they weren't dolls and they weren't going to listen to me
i cant tell if im still dreaming or not...

I don't think I'm still dreaming
I think I am definitely awake now

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Can't roll a cigarette, hands are messed up and I can't stop grinding my teeth. My whole body feels twisted. Ughhh.

thinking of canceling my therapy appt today. i just dont like this new therapist. i feel like therapy is a waste of time now.

Nuuuuu my wisdom tooth hurts

Pain meds gimmi..

I gave up trying to roll cigs. I think grinding my teeth is a permanent stimulant side effect. Starting to build muscle on my jaw.

Good morning. Tapatalk is broken for me. Kinda sucks.
Enjoyed the super bowl and slept well. Got about 10 hours of sleep. Drinking coffee by the gallon lol.
Kids have another snow day. It's freezing here today.

ill just goto my therapist. maybe ill just see her less or something.

the worst part is this new therapist doesnt have an office at this branch of this clinic so i cant even call her at all for help when i dont see her. my whole therapy has been ruined. i had a good therapist i could call when i needed her. even though i have to go through the receptionists. now i dont have anyone to call on the days i need them.

more info:

they dont have any other therapists for me to see. they have OTHER therapists there but the rest take medicaid. theres only a few there and this new one is the only one that takes medicare. this is what i hate about this clinic. im stuck...

Anyone heard of sacrosine for negative symptoms?

morning. my appetite is horrible today, it took me almost 4 hours to eat a bagel.

I think SP has mentioned it before, maybe. Sure she'll chime in if so...

Afternoon all,

Another step further to being free from nicotine today, cut down from 8 sprays to 6. So far it's been straight forward. Amazing how once you get off cigarettes, you realise nicotine is of no value you to it, can see plainly the fact it's just a drug addiction.

I have been wondering if cutting back has been the cause of my early awakenings recently but I'm not sure. Not got any other withdrawal type signs. Plus I did have some poor nights sleep before I started cutting back too, so not sure...

Guess we'll see the more I start cutting back...

Anyway, hope everyone is well...

eating cereal hurts, but tastes so good

i found out my therapist is quitting. thats the second therapist that quit at this clinic. so now i have no choice but to see this new one. :/

sucks...

When I started cutting back my sleep got disrupted for awhile... I'd wake up at 3:00 in the morning and I'd be up for the day.

Good afternoon all.

I hope everyone is doing okay.

i asked "why cant i see my old therapist anymore"

she said "your old therapist put in her 2 weeks notice. im sure shes sad about leaving. youre stuck with me now though. sorry"

my teacher re-opened my exam.. i got a 100 on it... yay cardiology!!!

Sorry Newtus, that sucks. I hope you can build a working relationship.

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i hope so too. although im starting to feel as if therapy is a waste of time. maybe because im starting over with a new therapist. this is the first time ive been to therapy in weeks and i didnt miss it. even had thoughts about canceling it.