Roll Call 72

Dont , aren't you just after having an encounter with this guy. Just happened , tell him , you wanna go slow , real slow

Tbh, im not truly just having an encounter. I want a little more than an encounter. This guy is my friend. Ive known him for a year so its not like I can just say "see ya!" and never see him again. even if we have an encounter i want to be friends but i want to be a little more. i think i just have a problem with telling everyone im in a short lived relationship. its no one business.

but i think what changed his mind about me was that i put some moves on him that he liked and now he thinks hes in love with me. when it could be just lustful feelings.

Yeah , the move was minimal though , even if it was more than minimal , regardless , you don't have to change your facebook status. There's alot of eb and flow to relations , the real life scenario and how it plays out , is that people do lots of stuff , it dosen't have to mean anything , could be fun , could be just people doing their thing. I get you dont want to treat the guy poorly , but updating you facebook status is premature at least.

well we made out for like 4 hours. but idk. i just cant change my fb status. i cant. i could possibly be in a relationship but im NOT changing my status JUST YET.

Never mind I'll just trust my own judgement

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Is it because of my opinion? If so please don’t be. It’s my bad. I made that opinion before I know your reason. Now I think that if he doesn’t want to be in a real life relationship but he wants to put “relationship” on social media, do you think that he really cares about you then? If I were you I won’t put relationship status on my FB until I know for sure he loves me. But you and I are different person. Sorry if any of my comments made you feel bad, I never meant to. I sincerely apologize. I’ll shut up now

i went to the eye doctor and got new glasses. then i had an emergency session with T. i have been suicidal because of hte trauma work we are doing, and hte memories that keep coming up and not feeling like i can deal with them or see a way out. he asked what i am doing tonight , i told him going with my roommate to eat chicken wings cause we had this plan since last week. he said let me know tonight how u feel when u eat ur first chicken wing. i bet you 10,000$ youl feel better . i said ok. i did feel better when i was eating chicken wings ...he said i owe him 10k now. talking to my roomie has helped me.

Can't sleep the voices are being loud tonight

no i feel bad because i just kinda wanted to "have fun" and thats it. its not you. i actually agree with you.

Oh I am really glad. I've been paranoid lately about many things maybe this is one of them. Hope things will turn out like you wanted them to be then

i think i need 10mg of haldol tonight.

im on fire like a rubber tire.

i am feeling better but im worried ill feel bad again when i wake up

We have been working on my truma particularly the one with my former T and it's really hard

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do you guys hear gifs?
like when you see them can you hear them?

I don't think this has to do with psychosis u was just curious if anyone else heard .gifs?

this may seem weird but i ate some pizza and wine and not only can i not stop passing gas but my throat feels congested and itchy. and door and i noticed i was extremely wired. my brain feels like im bipolar or something.

could this be gluten or wine affecting me? im not sluggish at all. im like on speed feels like. plus the physical problems.

Don't you have issues with dairy? Pizza=cheese=dairy.....

Thx haha it's a bladeless fan. Bought it for 500 dollars when I was depressed what a waste of money it sucks up so much power and occasionally blows a breaker.

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Sorry for the crap picture, but here's my room

_a bit dirty

i always take the cheese off of pizza. never eat it. yea i have issues with dairy. but i fear i may have some for gluten too.

Made it to the therapist office Monday but now i am all over the place!

My mom told me to wait over the weekend until she refills 60 Concertas because I'm out. Hopefully my psychiatrist can prescribe another 30 and I'm off to my brothers university graduation in Vancouver then we all go skiing. My mom and her 3 kids skiing is something rare so she has to go.

I put 2 200mg caffeine pills in my tea. I've been sleeping constantly and it's hard to write this. Feels like I'm on high dose risperidone..

How did high dose risperdone feel to you? I'm getting there

I was prescribed 2mg and it made me so tired but I was abusing it because of severe agitation taking 8-12mg to knock me out almost every day.

I couldn't lift my head up, couldn't look at anyone in the eyes. Then this one time the akathesia was terrible. One of the worst feelings in the world. You're tired while wanting to stand up while sitting down and vice versa.

Nasty drug just aweful

Eventually I used it to increase appetite and wow it worked really good.