Roll call 80

I clicked on clear junk files on my anti virus app. *update* so I managed to find the files that were deleted using a file Explorer app. It's saying they're still where they should be I don't get it, they don't show up in gallery.

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Excellent! Sounds like you still have them!

ETA: if you have found the files it sounds like maybe what you lost were the OS register of addresses that pointed to the files on your phone.

Maybe you should try clearing the cache partition. There's a lot of helpful articles with a Google search for cache clearing of your particular phone.

It's hard for someone to pull away from an abusive relationship. My sisters ex boyfriend (my nieces dad) use to beat her and she wouldn't come around us because of the bruises she had on her face and body. He was the one that also introduced her to drugs and she struggles with a drug problem she doesn't think she haves. Since they have a child together my niece is effected by it. She witness her daddy beat her mommy and gets nightmares from it. It took her a while to leave him because she had loved him. It will hurt you more staying with him than leaving him. It'll get worse. At least you don't have a child in the mix but it's worrisome.

We can only do so much. We can listen, hear you out, and give you advice but there's no magic way to get rid of it all. You got to take the steps and do what you gotta do to live a healthy and happy life. I'm not judging you and your family shouldn't either. We're all human. I respect you as a human being. You have good qualities too. You're not hopeless and I know you're just trying to find a way to survive it all.

Do you feel you have a drinking problem? Ever thought about talking to someone about it. I know substance abuse is hard to deal with mentally and physically. I remember you saying both your parents suffer from Alcoholism. Do you think they'll judge you if you told them about it?

i actually met with the clinic director about my alcohol issues and he didnt see it as an addiction so much but rather something i could get more support with at outside groups. i fear it is somewhat of an addiction though. it really helps to numb myself from pain.

i feel like i have a problem. of course. but clinical or even addiction. im not sure. im just at odds with this whole "addiction" thing.

my mom and dad and sister. basically my whole family, told me to just stop. which isnt easy. everytime i go to buy gas i cant help but go in to get wine. (which is my alcohol of choice).

as for this guy. idk what im gonna do. i really dont.

what scared me was when he broke up with ME. but then i was i guess pushing to get back with him and he said "i know where you live...". so i was really afraid. so far things have been ok. but i just feel extremely used in this relationship. he ate a lot of my food (i fed him because he said he was hungry) at my house. then he wants candy. wants me to take him places (he has no car). want to have whole bottles of my vape juice (which i pay 18 dollars per bottle for). i told him im sick of it. he really wont take no for an answer and is a bit controlling. he told me himself in his own words he was "possessive". which i fear a bit.

My boyfriend got mad at me and left for his grandpas alone because I couldn't think fast enough to answer his questions. He's been so impatient and that just makes it harder to think and then I start to panic, which makes it even /harder/ to think. *cries* so he just walked out of the door because I couldn't think fast enough.

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Thanks I'll look on Google

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Good luck. I know how hard it is to leave an abusive relationship. My ex went from possessive and controlling to straight up physically abusive. No one should have to live that way.

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First day of my new job went really well. Feet are so sore from standing all day and I didn't freak out and run out the door when I became overwhelmed, I persevered and sat with the discomfort until? Yep that's right, what science says, the discomfort and anxiety went away over time. It may more than likely come back and I'll feel the same but it will go away again.

Onwards and upwards people!

work was cray. im glad to be home

Good morning, hope everyone has a nice weekend!!

Cleaning house day 2, cleaning old vases, dust dust dust everywhere.. Aaachooo

In theory I should be continuing with my cleaning too...

Buuuuttt... Djokovic is 2 sets down & Murray is playing this afternoon at Wimbledon.

So, I think the cleaning will have to wait until tomorrow.

Why am I awake so early?!

I'm already bored. Lol

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What time is it there?

When I posted, it was barely 7am. I'm never awake this early.

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