Roll call 81

I blocked my egg donor's daughter from my facebook, but it still bugs me that egg donor would even put her daughter up to bugging me like that.

What does she seriously hope to accomplish by insulting my REAL mom?

My family has way too much drama I wish I never had anything to do with my family. My parents are amazing, I wish they didn't have family. I wish it could just be me and my parents as the only family we have. And my bunny of course.

"In the early post-acute period, warn the person of a high risk of relapse if antipsychotic medication is discontinued in the first 1–2 years after the acute episode".

It's been 1.5 years since I had a really bad episode but they said when I'm 25 (In 5 years), I could try and stop it.

I'll leave it as it is for now then..

So 6&1/2 years after an acute episode? I wonder if I'll be able to try without meds. It's been almost 3 years for me.

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You also have to stop slowly because some antipsychotics are "Schizo-memetic" or something so withdrawal will cause schizophrenia like symptoms even in people that never had psychosis.

Just been out for a good few drinks with friends. Feeling good!

My experience has been with certain unwell people that they get jealous of my life. In hospital they were really jealous I was engaged and had a job and friends. Really made me feel like my problems were insignificant, like it was some kind of competition. I'm just not a very negative person and appreciate what I have, some people can't see that.

My psychiatrist also lost his cool with me and called me a psychopath, then immediately took it back.

That's something to ponder.

I always thought the unspoken competition in hospitals here was who is the most ill

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Yeah that's kind of the vibe I got. They were making sly comments in a joking manner but it there were undertones that I didn't like.

I guess these people are so wound up on their own little planet.

Actually when I first went to a psych hospital I was constantly being ask why I was in the hospital with a job and going to school at the time and having no kids.

I always notice the unspoken competition on who's most ill. I've been ask why I was there and I'm honest with it. The time I was in the hospital a week ago no one talked about much of anything that had to deal with. People mention suicide attempts but that was because they were asked why they're in there.

I noticed the competition thing in hospitals every time I've been in one. Except I didn't leave it unspoken, I called people out on it when I started stabilizing on my meds and could actually hold a conversation. Ah, my attitude never dies.

A lot of people I talked with ended up in the hospital because they were arrested..

oops... forgot to eat lmao. I need food...

... am I hearing dubstep in the background?

I'm at work feeling like I'm dying. 2.5 hours left omg

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why did he call u a psychopath

my T said once that the kind of childhood i had is what breeds sociopaths

i just lold at him

Well for me I think I'm more emphatic because of my past and I don't want it to happen to any other kid.

i dont want it to happen to anyone either. sometimes i see kids with older men and think theyre in trouble. like at my job. i know its a projection and irrational.

i dont find myself to be empathetic. im not a very empathetic person. its hard for me. not that i dont care about people... i do. its just really limited. i think itsa defense mechanism ive obtained

I can understand... Sometimes others need a break from it. It's amassing how therapist handled it.

I've been feeling a bad lack of emotion lately but I'm highly empathetic although just over time I realize how terrible some people are and I start to go numb.

Just getting high to feel something but doesn't work

I've been sleeping so much on this new xanax, don't like it. But I suppose it could be worse. No side effects from Lithium I've noticed, so that's good. I know it can give people tremors and I have issues with that type of stuff even without Lithium.

Hope everybody's day is okay, I'm probably about to head to bed.

i have to go to my moms today bc the dentist i went to who fixed my chipped tooth works in that town. and hes going to do it for free since it fell off. i dont really want to go there. i dont really want to do anything. i didnt get a lot of sleep. my roommate is back and im already annoyed with her. i came home last night after work and there was food in the drain of the sink. we have a sugar ant problem and there were some on the counter. i had eliminated them while she was gone with ant poison and also cleaning up after everytime i cooked and ate. shes back for a few hours and there are already ants.

i wish i could find a neutral way to tell her all these things she does that bother me. i am pretty certain she would respond fine to me asking her to not do that anymore. i just dont want to say it while i am mad abt it and come across rude. there are multiple other things she does and has done that irritate me. i think some of it is natural since we live together. maybe some of it is just me being a big ol B

Hey guys what's up? At my day treatment program. Only taking 5 or 6 groups a week now since I start college full time in September.

Going to church this weekend. Nervous, haven't been in awhile. Have a dentist appointment next week, nervous about that too.

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Anybody watch sports? I'm getting into watching baseball. A Rod's playing his last game for MLB this Friday.

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Hi Blue_Bird!!!! Nope, i have never liked any team sports in my life. I don't know why, it just has always left me cold.

I rescheduled both of the appointments i had tomorrow but I forgot to leave a message for my pdoc. Damn! I need something to chill me the heck out for going down the stairs and I forgot to tell him!!!!!!! I'm so upset!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Guys, I've got an interview!

Could you call him back? Tell him you can't take the stairs without something?

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