Roll call 81

Me too, so much. I think the therapist is more for them, because the therapist takes notes and makes reports on how they think we're doing. I think the pdoc is supposed to be a shorter, more RX related role, but he does his own reports. He wants me to come in every month, and has said some patients (like me) have priority. I have no idea what that means. Every time he gives me an appointment I usually reschedule for a more distant appointment date. I just end up doing that now because of my panic over the stairs.

I know my t is all about the note pad. Makes me mad lol

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Yea, and some of what they write determines our treatment. :/ I haven't been to the therapist except for two times so far.

My T doesn't take notes. I wouldn't like that...

I went to game nite. It was ok. T patted my back. I think he was trying to let.me know things are ok. For some reason I'm sad now. Maybe bc I come home to an empty house... Sometimes I feel really alone...

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Really paranoid. Searching all my information online and stuff. I feel like people are spying on me.

I just got my injection though. Maybe it's cuz I'm not taking the oral.

I took one out of panic but I'm going to continue not taking it.

I need to fix this

By going off your meds?

Hey guys how are you all? I'm at my day treatment program. Trying not to miss so many days.

Need to clean my apartment when I get home.

I'm so excited about starting college in September. Nervous but it will be a great experience.

Is it hot where you're at? Its hot as hell here in NY.

I see the nutritionist next Wednesday. Hopefully that goes well.

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Hi all,

It's not too bad here in NJ. I'm fighting the urge to hurt myself. It was going okay but now the people in my head want me to hurt myself too.

Hi, blue bird! I have to admit that I've been inside so far, except for a day my friend helped me, with two clinic appointments and a trip to triple a to get my driver's license renewed.

So I've heard it's hot outside but I'd never know it. I'm glad you are doing so well with your goals! 🙌

Dude you are not med compliant, thats why your on injection. Take your meds.

That's cool are you gonna start driving again?

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I really think you'd feel better if you always took your meds.

Well, i plan to rent a car to go see possible apartments in other towns. I still hope to have a car of my own but not sure if that will ever happen. I love when I have one. The possibility of driving around like that is exhilarating.

No one here wants you to hurt yourself. I hope you are stronger than those urges.

Thank you! I think I am stronger than them.

Resources - Center for the Human Rights of Users and Survivors of Psychiatry

I'm having a rough afternoon. I shouldn't be but I am. I've already taken both of my PRNs. I just feel like curling up and crying. I hate these days. I usually only have them when I'm changing ADs but there haven't been any changes. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the day. I'm losing it slowly. I feel so on the edge. Like just one thing could push me into the hospital. It sucks because the first part of the day was great. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore.

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And I'm free again! Going to stay out this time!

Hope you're all well!

Have you considered being med compliant for a while? It may be just the fix you need. I hope you feel better soon

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Congrats. Hope you're feeling better.

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Wow. Just hang on, ofthevalley. You are doing well. Something must have triggered you, but you're doing well. The uneasiness can be overwhelming. Just take a moment at a time, and you'll be fine.

Thank you. I needed that!

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I'm very undecided on therapy. I feel like I said too much and it's making me feel uncomfortable. I'm debating whether to refuse to see the psychologist again or to stick it out and hope it gets easier to talk about stuff.
I don't like someone knowing so much about me. But it's too late now I've said too much.

If it was your first appointment with this t, isn't it Standard Operating Procedure to tell a lot so the t can get as much of a full picture as possible of what you're dealing with? I hope the misgivings you feel will fade asap.

It was the first appt yeah, she said to me don't feel like you have to over share and I felt like I did. I don't usually tell people stuff about my past. I hope you're right though that it is standard procedure, it makes sense that she would need to get a full picture. That's made me feel a bit better, thanks angelique