Roll Call 91!

No one has found either pair of my pants. And I'm.supposed to put these in the hamper of hell to be lost and laundered. I'm disgusted by everything that goes wrong here. I know I was lonely in my apartment but I've almost always lived alone and appreciated the quiet time, such.as it was.

I'm sorry they lost your pants. That's just more frustration put on an already strained situation. I really do hope you get out soon.

Smoking is 18. Drinking is 21.

The only thing that makes me happy is my phone. I want to get a new phone but i already have an iphone 7 plus.

I need a new phone just can't justify the cost.

What kind of phone do you have now? For me id just go on an installment plan. Of course im obsessed with phones tho

There's a special sale price on Motorola 4splus i think is the number. Like 180 or less. It's what I have and Moto sells it for $349 I guess. Maybe a Google search will find the seller who has it for under $200

I still have an iPhone 4 lol.


That's a good price

Maybe i just want to spend money and throw it away but i just idk....i just need retail therapy.

Im bored with iphones. Anyone with me?

Yes, but it's already last year's model. A new one should be coming out, if it hasn't already. It's.like a mid level model of their current phones. Not a flagship but it's carrier unlocked. That's always important.

To me a phone is just a phone, as long as it can do everything I need good enough....

Yea. Im super into phones and technology. Computers, phones, virtual reality, smart watches, wifi lighting, etc the list goes on.

Im thinking about the samsung s8+

Well, I found out today what the nursing staff really think of me here. Firstly, they don't actually understand my experiences AT ALL, and just lump it all into a box labelled 'crazy'. Even the pareidolia faces, which is a 100% normal thing everyone's brain can do!!! I actually showed my nurse the faces yesterday and she can see them too, so I'm clearly not F'ing hallucinating, but they just dismiss it as 'crazy' without even understanding it. The ones I spoke to about it haven't even heard of the term pareidolia!!!

And I found out that they have mistaken my shyness for me feeling intellectually superior to everyone here. The F'ing hilarious thing is (that's really not that funny tbh) that the last time my IQ was measured it was AVERAGE! And that was on a GOOD day FOUR YEARS AGO, so god knows how bad it would be on a bad day now!!! So my average intelligence apparently makes me feel superior to all of the other averagely intelligent staff and patients here??! FFS!

I just feel so misunderstood, and I just want to go home so badly How can they supposedly help me when they don't even F'ing 'get' me??!

*Willow*

I'm glad to hear that things are good and that the meds are helping without too many pesky side effects.

I bought that book you found on a Google search ages ago when I asked about emotional fragmentation. I'm hoping that it will be interesting and informative, so thank you again for suggesting it to me

*Willow*

I'm sorry you had a bad day. I can understand it because of being here. Not everyone here is taking psych meds. But Everytime I've tried to help anyone in a wheelchair, they call my name loudly and say let go of the wheel chair. Like I'm psychotic and can't be trusted to.push a wheelchair.

The good news is that I will get out of here sooner than later. And they asked about my apartment in the middle of the night , after they had had me meet people from the next assisted care option, so maybe they're thinking of just sending me home. Medicaid is going to get much harder to cover people like me, and that means I get to go home, I hope. Whatever they're doing, if I lose funding it would be "don't let the door hit you on the way out" lol.

Thank you Angelique. I hope that you do get to go home soon. I hope I do too.

*Willow*

I'm sorry willow that sounds terrible.....

Oh willow I'm so sorry.

That's exactly true. Funding stops and suddenly you're cured. Let's hope funding ends soon.

Lol. They have to spend a lot of time doing paperwork for people like me who are "high level" which I guess means having enough marbles, mentally and physically. I'm not in a wheelchair or catatonic or whatever. And it's supposed to be permanent funding. When they're dealing with people in wheelchairs compared to someone like me, the physical disability needs more coverage.

If I do go home, I'll need a new.coffee maker and maybe a TV. Not sure but mine might have died.

And then I think about all the things I hate about the place - the postal carrier who won't deliver my packages which leaves me very limited in how I can.shop. worrying about any postal issue. I'm really feeling terrible right now. I wonder if they get physical with residents who don't shower when expected to. They have not brought me any pants.

I went to best buy an bought my first Android phone. Samsung s8+