Roll Call 91!

This is a secret community?? I thought we were famous!

I am taking my wife to see her mother. (Not exactly my favourite) I also need to go grocery shopping, and i would rather get it done today. That way tomorrow i will get to do nothing.

I used to be passionate and believe I could make a difference too. I chosed Foreign Affairs major in college believing I could make a difference for the poor people in my country. Then I worked at a partner office of WWF and Unicef here believing that I was contributing to make a better place for all. Then I had my first psychotic break and all my passion went away. But this illness got me realized that most of time making a difference means doing a small but meaningful thing, every single day. You've been helping people here with your knowledge and insight. You already made a difference here SP

Btw your typo got me laughed "a lack of believe in abilify"

Haha that's hilarious I'm totally leaving it......I think it's because my autocorrect knows I change ability to Abilify all the time......thank you 12am....I used to post all the time because I thought I was making a difference here but somehow I lost that belief too......I wonder if it's part of the illness to lose passion since you and DT describe it as well. Anyway I'm going to work on rekindling my fire 🔥

I noticed that typo too, it made me giggle.

I think the lack of passion comes from the illness. It seems to be a common complaint.

How is she feeling?
I understand the mother in law deal.

It is hard when you don't have passion. I lost mine too.

I post here trying to make a difference helping people. I think it can definitely be a meaningful way to make a small difference each day. But I can also understand losing that belief too - I regularly do, or I struggle to think of something meaningful to say, and so I don't bother to post much/at all.

Me too!

*Willow*

Hope you survive the MIL and the food shop. I hate food shopping with a passion! Hope you get to have a relaxing day tomorrow

*Willow*

@ of the valley - she is physically pretty good, but very depressed. Her first eye surgery is Mon i really hope that will help. I also hope she will return to work part time this month, and that will help her depression some. She's napping now, we're going in a little while.

@willow, i hate the food shopping! But i suppose i should go do it now and get it done. We're out of TP so kinda neex to get on it!

They make plus size pocky already. Its like half a foot long and an inch around or so.

I went to five below and best buy with my mom. I think i need to keep my distance with her again. She was just getting on my nerves and when i couldnt find something she kept saying i need to ask for help. I wish shed just leave me alone sometimes about different stuff. It makes me depressed.

Ive been up since 1:30am. Only got a couple hour nap.

Im like obsessed with phones guys. Like you dont even understand. Its kinda ruining my life. Not even phones but technology. Ive been neglecting school for 3 weeks for it. Its a huge problem. I couldnt do POA (phone obsession anonymous) or the like. I just made that up. I always get obsessive with everything. I think its my ocd. I jump from one thing to another but one thing that has always been consistent is technology and phones and computers.

I went to best buy and like almost every employee knows me there because i go there like once or twice a week. Sometimes im afraid they think im stealing and reselling their stuff because i go there so often. But i have a lot in common with the employees. So many of them are going to school for something technology wise. Like me now. Im going for a degree in pc support.

Anyway. Im intrigued by every phone and how they all have their own quirks and different versions of operating systems. Plus i get bored easily. With everything.

Ugh im lame yall.

Sigh all the good ideas are taken....

I think it's fine to enjoy tech.....good luck with the pc support role, it's something I considered too......

Wellbutrin is making me clench my jaw. That's a good sign it's kinda working.

Good luck on your degree in PC support.

Thanks guys. I just started it last month. Already neglecting it. Geezuz H. christ. Lame.

On the flipside tho, i figured if i couldnt do a 4 year degree in philosophy might as well do a 2 year in what i want, you know?

Idk what I want to be anymore

I want to study radiation on lifeforms with biology chemistry and physics

Sometimes, I forgot to add that I've always valued your posts/hugs. You've definitely helped me out many times and I always look forward to seeing your posts. Your posts about the scientific theories of sz were amazingly helpful to supplement/target my bio essay research a while back, for example. So I hope that you can see that you do help people by posting here

*Willow*

I'm sorry that your wife is struggling with depression. That must be difficult for you both. I hope that her surgery and return to work help her feel better soon

Yep, you'd better get to the shops or you'll have to use leaves!! Lol

*Willow*

I cant wait for fall. Everything cool happens in fall. Winter vibes, cooler temps, all the holidays where you eat a ton of stuff, Apple keynote, etc.

Fall is my fav season.

Summer is my favorite time of year. It's the only time it's warm enough to go out without a jacket. I hate the cold.

I almost forgot to buy TP! But i remembered in time, thank goodness.
My wife is still not ready to go! I hate driving home from the country in the dark. I refuse to go tomorrow. I really need one at least sort of off, and things like grocery shopping and visiting the mil count as work. I already spend my whole life at work and dialysis and on the phone wrangling with medical appointments.
I am getting grumpy.

Girls be liking me in this hospital. One asked if I was a model I was like no..

Then they ask why I'm so quiet. Then eventually I start talking.

Going to start packing my things now cuz I'm leaving hospital tomorrow

Hopefully for the last time