Roll Call 91!

Did you have a med change or is it willpower driven? IDK I find it hard to lose even a few pounds....just wondering if you have advice?

I have a couple of things to do today but its back to the long weekend.

Most of us would love a long weekend......

It's been a year of eating mostly healthier than I was beforehand. I am only 23 days into stopping binging and purging so that will make a huge difference too. Just getting out more and eating better. Plus I switched from depakote to trileptal which supposedly helps, it will continue to take a lot of work and willpower but I think I can do it

Well i mean i dont work. But what i meant was til my dad is off again. I only ever hang out with my dad. Its depressing. 26 years old and no REAL friends. How did life come to this? Its been 3 years since ive been extremely sick. I wonder why its taking so long to make friends. The first year i didnt care for any. Was focusing on myself. the second year i started to gain one. That was my ex. This year ive gained old friends from high school. Have more texting buddies. But thats it. Each year is better but its such a painfully slow process.

Maybe i SHOULD look into volunteering or online dating or something. 2 years ago or so i was volunteering at petsmart cleaning cat litter boxes. It wasnt a bad gig but i was doing it alone. Each person that came in to do it was alone on their shift so it was like a one person deal. Made no friends so i quit. Thats why i dont really wanna go back to doing volunteering.

So I met all my friends online and the bf-----it's a slow process to meet people who will stick around I must have met ten people or more before I met my best friend. As far as guys I think I met like 5-6 then gave up for a few years then tried again----I was much more successful in the second round. Timing is everything. As far as volunteering I wouldn't go back to the cat litter its pointless if you're working alone----find something else.

Yea im looking now. Thank you.

can you look into local soup kitchens or homeless assistance places?

when i had to do community service i worked in a soup kitchen. it was actually fun and i liked helping people. and there are people there that you work with and around

Felt like I was losing my mind. But I'm ok now =]

Sun is shining. Gonna go out and have a smoke maybe do something but idk what yet.

Maybe look up the rules to the road because my dad just texted me and he's going to buy a new vehicle and I want to drive it.

i keep thinking this is titled

Roll Call 911

Good morning everyone. Having a frustrating day with work. I'm completely overwhelmed and now my boss wants me on another project and my computer crashed while I was on the phone with him. Now my computer is updating so it's going to be forever before I can call him back. I look stupid on top of being frustrated. Maybe I'm not ready for more work. It should be an easy process but for some reason it's kicking my ***.
On the brighter side my kids are great. That makes things easier.
I'm also out of ambien and I'm not sure I can pick it up today .

Sorry you're having a hard day, I'm glad you can seek comfort in your kids. I hope the computer sorts itself out!

Had a good day. Saw my psychologist this morning and had a good chat. We talked about how to keep the things I experience from turning bad and how to recognise signs that it's turning. We always have a laugh, she gets my sense of humour now. She's good to talk to.
Going to see the new planet of the apes tonight. Can't wait!

Are you on windows 10----it seems to update at the worst times.....

Antipsychotics make me like stimulants

*Drinks energy drink*

|Low dopamine|-|high dopamine|

The paradox!

Wellbutrin D:

Tomorrow I'm gonna start running. My goal is 6km without stopping.

I don't think it's self-sabotage at all! The benefits of the meds have to outweigh their costs or I really don't see the point in taking them. Maybe taking PRNs or very short courses when you need to is what's right for you, and I think that's good. Everyone has to find what works for them

It's great you're up and about, and I'm glad that your bf gets it now. I prefer to have less sleep than too much sleep too. I don't think that doing what's right for you is putting down meds. Everybody needs to find their own balance re meds.

I'm glad you had a good chat and are working on early warning signs - that's a really good thing.

Hope you enjoy the film! I want to see it too, but I have to catch up my Mum on the first 2 before we can go. Luckily I recorded them on TV recently for her. Today I went to see the new Spider-Man film, which I thought was good and pretty funny

All the best

*Willow*

Valley - sorry that work is frustrating today Hope tomorrow is better.

*Willow*

I wrote to the rehab pdoc a week ago and he *still* hasn't bothered to come and see me to talk about it!! The upset is slowly being replaced by anger the longer it gets. How can they justify treating people so badly?! And how can they consider themselves good at their jobs when they can get people so wrong. Every day they hurt me a little bit more with their wrong assumptions about me.

*Willow*

Sorry willow

Yes I am. It is always when I need it lol

That is awful . I'm sorry.

So I'm sitting in a completely empty parking lot. This car pulls in and parks right beside me. It's not even like it's a good spot. We are at the park. All the spots are good. People-I don't get them

People always do that to me

I had this one friend you could not walk behind her to get by without her stepping right into you, it's like she had sensors that worked the opposite way of everyone else.