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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:17 AM
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I am but i might go back to sleep soon
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:48 AM
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Oh okay
I don't want to keep you up if you want to go back to sleep
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:53 AM
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Oh okay

I don't want to keep you up if you want to go back to sleep


Its ok. I prob will fall back asleep. But i always wake up around this time during the night.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 05:12 AM
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I didn't sleep yet,
But I did nod off a little earlier

The sun is already starting to come up
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 06:15 AM
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I haven't slept all night. I got a tooth ache and I keep bothering it and when I sleep I think I'm grinding it. Im going to see my new dentist tomorrow. See how it works out.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 07:12 AM
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Good morning. Woke up at 7. I don't know why. Oh well I slept good. Having a good day so far. Hoping my daughter feels better. Her allergies were off the charts yesterday.
Nothing planned today. Just hanging out. My son is going to work with my uncle so it'll just be me and my daughter.
What do you have planned?
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 07:21 AM
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I haven't slept all night. I got a tooth ache and I keep bothering it and when I sleep I think I'm grinding it. Im going to see my new dentist tomorrow. See how it works out.

Hope you get some relief.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 08:39 AM
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I'm leaving for ten days for a camping trip without phone signal or internet. Trying to get a divorce in place and don't know if I will succeed. Inching close to suicidal. Really really bad today. Just thought if I wrote it here it would help somehow. Hope you are all having a decent day.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 09:14 AM
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I'm leaving for ten days for a camping trip without phone signal or internet. Trying to get a divorce in place and don't know if I will succeed. Inching close to suicidal. Really really bad today. Just thought if I wrote it here it would help somehow. Hope you are all having a decent day.

will you be with other people to keep you safe? Maybe you should call your Pdoc. Maybe you need a med adjustment.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 10:20 AM
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Morning.

I have a therapist appt today. Dont wanna go because last time I was there they only saw me for 15 min. And it made me very angry.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 11:36 AM
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I canceled my therapy appt. Gonna go see my mom for her birthday today.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 11:56 AM
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Good afternoon. @Angelique, it's not that I don't like trazadone it's just in the past it's never worked well for me, I'm just gonna stick with the meds I'm on and use propanolol if I really need help sleeping after getting off the seroquel next month. I'm also getting pretty good at this meditation/relaxation stuff which helps

It's day 10. Doing well still, going grocery shopping Sunday. All healthy stuff. Finished reading the 12 steps and 12 traditions book of OA, might buy myself a copy so I can always refer to it if I find OA helps me. I don't have the money for one but I am going to save up. Yeah, I don't have $13 and have to save up for it. I'm that poor lol I am proud of myself for making it 10 days so far. I know this time is the time I'll really do it. I am active in my recovery. Hopefully by this time in 2018 it will be around a year without bingeing and purging! I can do it. I have to be super mindful about what and when I eat. Idk if that will ever get easier or if it will be something I will always have to be careful with.

How is everyone? I'm switching to online classes next semester. I realized it would be better than trying to work around all my appointments, jury duty in december, catechism classes in the fall, etc. I won't have to miss class to do any of that. I know online classes are hard, I've done them before and have passed them so it's not that I'm expecting it will be easier or something it will just be more convenient right now for my schedule and anxiety I've had about school lately.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 01:51 PM
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Im so freaking sick of the running commentary on my life. And now I get to spend 10 days with people who will say my voices are demons and try to pray them away. Ugh
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 01:56 PM
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I had a good morning. I picked squash, banana peppers, jalapeños, and tomatoes from my garden for my mom and gave it to her for her birthday. We met halfway. And i gave her a prayer candle and cross shaped candle holder for the prayer candle. She is catholic.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 02:20 PM
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I got my eliquid in the mail. Here it is:

Roll Call 91!
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 02:23 PM
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 02:51 PM
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I just dont like that people seem to get mad at me when Idont take my meds

I would take them if they ****ing worked right

I Aam also sooo ****ing pissed right now
My "friend" who pretty much decided last year that she wanted to copy me, stole my dream and now acts like she knows moer about it than I do even though I was the one who introduced her to it and also despite the fact that I've been doing this since I was 14 and she has only started acting last year

Its annoying
She acts like its so glamourous to be an actress and that you get to party all the time and its not like that at all, its a real craft that I take very VERY seriously and she's acting like its a joke, all the while acting like she knwos more about it than I do

I try to be nice to her but she keeps "bragging" about all the "auditions" and such that she does, (even though she never actually books a job) and all the things she is doing like parties she goes to and people she meets

She pretty much copied it all from me and refuses to give me ny credit for giving her the start and she always seems to be in competition with me even though we look completely different and both have different acting styles

I have other friends who are into music and acting as well but they dont act like this
Its so annyoing
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 02:56 PM
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Wow kori. Im so sorry.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 03:20 PM
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Everytime i hear something and someone says they didnt hear anything i get freaked out. I really hate when people mess with me too. Ive had too many hallucinations in my lifetime to be messed with.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 03:35 PM
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I'm off to the races tomorrow with my friends. Got my hair bow ready!
I feel a bit better today. Looking forward to tomorrow.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 03:37 PM
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:16 PM
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Pink lips sounds like the best


I havent tried it yet but im vaping the peanut butter and jesus right now. Tastes like like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich!
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:18 PM
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will you be with other people to keep you safe? Maybe you should call your Pdoc. Maybe you need a med adjustment.


I don't have a pdoc since mine died I got out of the rotation and went to my family dr but I called today to see if I can get back in and they made me an appointment with a counselor for the end of July. Which is great cause last time I had a problem I tried to get in and it took them months to even call me.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:32 PM
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I'm leaving for ten days for a camping trip without phone signal or internet. Trying to get a divorce in place and don't know if I will succeed. Inching close to suicidal. Really really bad today. Just thought if I wrote it here it would help somehow. Hope you are all having a decent day.
I'm sorry things are so horrible right now. It will get easier as time goes by.
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Old Jun 30, 2017, 04:33 PM
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I'm sorry things are so horrible right now. It will get easier as time goes by.


Thanks Angelique.
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