Roll Call 91!

This has been the longest day ever

I am a proper ****** friend
I don't make any effort to hang out with my one friend I do have

But when we hang out I have a load of fun,
I try to make up for not reaching out to her much by saying "yes" every time she asks me to hang out

I suck as a friend but never turn down a visit . I just suck at the other stuff. Initiating texts, returning texts, stuff like that.

See I'm so good at returning texts. Just not calls. It baffles me how my one friend says she sucks at that. If you get a notification, you reply, right? Notifications make a noise so it's hard to miss.

Sometimes I get into too much of a funk.

Ooooh! I see.

Same.

Today sucked. tomorrow's gonna suck too.

I havent had much anxiety the past few months. Or really since april. January through march i was in a bad depression.

I have been depressed the past week. I think its starting back up again...

I sure hope not.

Back at home with my mom, sister and cat. Met my moms new boyfriend too.

The hospital gave me the Concerta back because they didn't check that the bottle was in the bag of vitamins and stuff. I took 2 so 108mg then on the car ride home I thought long and hard about what I should do with my focus and came to the conclusion that I should give the bottles of Concerta to my mom and so I did when we got home because I'm trying to make things right again. She was very proud of me because it wasn't easy at all being a stimulant addict. We had a glass of wine to celebrate.

Hopefully my psychiatrist will understand what I did and be proud of me too because I see him tomorrow.

I believe I beat the core of my addiction during this time for doing that. Not many people would be able to do that they would just keep the bottle of their drug of choice and abuse it.

I got home and the Concerta made me clean the counters of my room etc and fit in with all the stuff in my room.

I really have this figured out but Concerta seems to be the missing piece of the puzzle in my brain so hopefully my psychiatrist will prescribe it back tomorrow instead of Wellbutrin.

I really think I'd be able to be an addictions counsellor idk. The Invega and Zyprexa and Concerta really curve my thinking to rational thoughts like nothing else.

I feel normal. I feel sane. I feel content because I'm smart and went through my own journey which makes me who I am today.

I was hanging out with friends today oh and I had a shower and shaved my legs tomorrow is my pdoc appointment

My sleeping is starting to be disturbed. Don't know if it's just meds wearing off or my mind not able to rest.

Good morning. Having a nice day. Waiting to hear back from my advisor about school in the Fall. Crossing my fingers.

I couldn't sleep last night. I think its because I'm off seroquel now. I even took benadryl but it didn't help. Thats not too often though. Most days I sleep fine. I was just kind of nervous/excited about today which probably kept me from sleeping.

What's everyone up to?

Anybody here? Nobody is ever here when I have time to get on :/

Hey Blue_Bird!

I'm here. I'm just drinking some beer and watching the tennis again.

I think our bodies often get used to sedating medication for sleep, so not so unusual to have trouble adjusting after stopping it. How long ago did you stop using it?

I hope stuff works out for school. I just sent my offer back for the next course!

Hey Loial

It's been about a week off seroquel

I might go home and take a nap, I'm tired now.

Got a thing off Lindtt Milk Chocolate truffles to have once in awhile for chocolate cravings.

Good morning.

I didn't sleep well last night. Nightmares are back again, first time since I took that med for restless legs. My legs were a bit restless too before I fell asleep, not too bad but still it showed that this med (trihexyphenidyl) wasn't really helping. Either that or it's because I have a flu atm. Been having a headache for hours too.

Hope everyone has a good day.

I hope you feel better soon

Lindor chocolates are great! I've not had any since last Christmas.

Morning...

I'm hoping to post a bit more and stay on top of everything here more now I've got holidays... I felt a bit overwhelmed at times doing college work but nice to have a break now.

Good morning. Feeling good today. It's beautiful out. I really should get in some outside time.
Nothing planned for the day except waiting for a call from my boss. I'm getting more tasks which I'm pretty excited about. More work equals more pay lol.
What's everyone else up to?

You sound well . I'm proud of you for giving the concerta to your mom. That shows commitment.

I really feel like i need to breakdown and cry.