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I always have a whey protein shake at night with a lot of organic fiber in it so its heavy. Weird thing is, I've done this for 8 years and id I don't have my protein shakes at night now then I have crippling anxiety in the morning. WOMP WOMP!

I forgot to pick up my refill on my Lithium today so I am going to run out on Sunday. I will get half my AM dose Sunday and miss Sunday night and all of Monday due to the holiday. I think I should be fine though.

Why can't you get your meds tomorrow? tomorrow is Saturday where you live right?

My pharmacy's hours are really terrible Monday - Friday 7am to 3:30pm. I use the one at my work so I can pay roll deduct.

Oh right forgot you worked at a hospital....

Thank you, newtus. They are working on trying to get me into a state program for financial aid but who knows how long it will take. :/

Thank you, Findingreason.

Thanks Blue_Bird. I wish I could just watch TV here at least but it never is a good time with two roommates here. I can't even veg in this place.

What is your schedule like daily angelique?

What do you do all day?

Wow, I can't imagine that. I get so affected by short winter days. 4 to 5 hours of daylight would kill me. Kudos to you for being able to cope with that!

I get up at some point between 7:30 to 1pm, mostly skip breakfast, go out to vape, go to the dining room for exercises and coffee, wait around for lunch, go outside to vape again. Go to the gym for 15 or 20 minutes, sit around, go outside to vape, wait for supper, go out to vape again, then my roommates turn the lights out and I sit up playing on my phone until I feel ready to sleep. Showering usually is after the morning coffee and exercise hour.

What kind of flavor smoothies do you like?

I forgot to take my gabapentin all day today because im not used to taking it during the day. So only two tonight

Probably a good plan.....

When are you seeing him again?

Not sure. Prob tomorrow. But i just now told him id like to be a couple. Hes super excited. Im excited as well. Im sure i made a good choice!

I think that's great news you won't need your loneliness book anymore

LOLOLOLZ omg how embarrassing!!!

But yea prob wont. But prob might.

Started feeling anxious about a bunch of random stuff I shouldn't, so I just took an Ativan.

I just keep it simple with just adding water to my syntha 6 protein powder. However, when i use to make smoothes i would add almonds, banana, apple, and oatmeal, with a sprinkle of fiber.

Oh I see I didn't realize it was a stand alone system....does it come in flavors like vanilla?

Sorry...anxiety sucks....have you ever tried an ssri for it? My pdoc was offering me one she said it was first line but I was worried because it's an AD which can induce mania in the absence of mood stabilizer.....she said the Abilify is a stabilizer but I don't think I take a high enough dose for that.

I was on Lexapro way back in the day and it caused SSRI induced mania, given I'm on Lithium now. So it could be an option although I don't think my pdoc would consider it because of my history. The Ativan works well though, and I don't take it super often because I know I would get addicted to it.

Protein powders usually come in vanilla, chocolate, strawberry and then some times funky flavors like peanut butter chocolate or cookies and cream, but i typically just have chocolate. They ran out of it yesterday though so i bought a large container of vanilla instead. It helps because I'm a vegetarian and i need a high protein diet.

Yeah I don't think benzos are an option for me as my family has a history of addiction to alcohol and it has a similar effect supposedly.....

I'm trying to avoid taking anything else....as long as the discomfort is transient I can usually tolerate it but part of me wonders if it would be easier with a new med.