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I can't believe he said that. I'm sorry he was so rude

Im so angry for you.

Thank you. I feel so alone here. We didn't get a chance to hug much or anything. I go months and years without anyone's touch.

There was a carnival here today but I didn't know. I'd have liked to see it. I'll have to pay more attention to the calendar. I'm so depressed right now. I'm just stuck in this awful place. I can't even retreat to food because supper here is always really light. Time is so weird here. Anytime I'm locked up, everything feels impossible.

I feel so bad for you angelique

No one should ever go without a hug unless they dont like being touched

Thank you newtus. I wish I could go and check my apartment myself.

I'm sorry, Angelique. It breaks my heart that you are locked up there.

Thank you, valley.

It breaks my heart too. I cant even imagine

I'm sorry you're going through this Angelique.

That's really rude of him Angelique, I'm sorry you're going through this

So my sleep seems to be a little better since I started using blue light filters on all my devices. Add in that we have full night now after four months of twilight hours, it's probably helping as well. Not looking forward to the winter months...

Who has two thumbs and has the next three days off? This guy!!!

What are the winters like? Is it dark all the time?

Very dark, and very cold. During December it's 4-5 hours of daylight tops. I use a sun lamp a lot. Temps anywhere from 15 to -20 F.

My old psychiatrist was a pill pusher. I told him exactly when I would have my two panic attacks a day (9am and another at 530pm) and sure enough he wanted me to take one when I wake up, at 4, and before bed. I was so lethargic it couldn't have been legal for me to drive. All I needed was something when I woke up and around 5, not another one at bed and not a med with a half life of 35 hours.

Newtus, Gabapentin does work better if its in your blood. Maybe you just need to adjust your dosage. Maybe take it twice a day when you most feel it. Or if you take multiple pills per dosage then scale back one pill. It all depends on how well you can handle your anxiety while you test this out until you find out what works best for you.

How is your anxiety right now?

Wow, that sounds depressing. I like winter but not like that extreme

****, ill date him then. Move over!

Truth. If I had no attraction to a woman at all I wouldn't date her. It would be wrong of me to string her along with no hope for a future. I only date a person if I see a potential mate.

Yeah, it really is. I was not ready for last winter. At least I know what to expect this time. And I'll be getting a trip to the States in for the holidays, which will give me a break from the extremes.

Midnight Mania!

Oh memories from Italy! I spent 3 weeks there, one in Rome and two in Florence. My neighborhood friend moved to Italy and I was invited. I went to school with him there, we played soccer on his league there, I went to games, I went to every museum. His mother was an art history major so I learned a lot. I wish people from my work would visit Italy. They work to live, they don't live to work. Everything is set up differently there. Plus they're so damn cool dressed in black smoking cigs. It was weird when this guy bought an adult magazine and started to look at it with the rest of the guys... he was wearing spandex. hahahahahahaha There were so many good museums there in Florence...

I wouldn't want a house. I'd rather live under that cool *** tree.

My anxiety is bad right now with everything im going through. Maybe have an anxiety attack once a day

Ick that sounds terrible, I already have depression every winter I couldn't imagine going thru that extreme of a winter.

I do see a potential mate tho.

I just think maybe im not over my ex. Which may be why im comparing him to my ex.