Roll Call 99

Mine.

Get well soon, Loial

Mine is just something simple like this.

Newtus, I wanted you to know I support your dreams. I cast no judgment on the way you want to go. Sometimes the road we go down to pursue our dreams is a bumpy one, but if it is what we want, it can be worth the struggle. I've been to 4 schools as well and only have an Associate's degree to show, but I'm not giving up. I will one day walk and receive my Bachelor's degree.

Good afternoon/morning everyone. How is everyone doing?

I'm okay. I had a **** night's sleep last night. Running on caffeine right now. :P Wife comes home tonight, looking forward to seeing her and spending the evening with her.

Not sure if I told people here, but I will be getting hopefully into rehabilitative work soon through unemployment services here. My worker will be setting up a meeting with the social worker to get things going. At the same time I will begin looking for a psychotherapist as well to begin CBT therapy. Life is looking like it may be heading in the right direction again.

I agree with FR. I believe if we can't stop thinking about our dream then we should not stop working for it, no matter what others say. Go get it Newtus

My day was okay. First day taking 50 mg of Lamictal, no bad side effects so far. Ordered a pizza, looking forward for dinner.

It does seem like you're heading to the right direction. Good luck and keep us up dated

Awesome! Pizza sounds really good right now...hehe.

Thank you I will.

Because I was deemed on the phone as Sui by dispatch!

Can a doctor lock you up if you tell them you self harmed days earlier...?

I think it depends on the laws of the place you live in. In the states I know I almost got locked up in ward a few times against my will...in Finland it's illegal for most situations to lock a person against their will.

No.......

I bought a new sketchbook. I'm starting to collage it and put stuff in it. I covered the front because it had a stupid label I couldnt remove. So yeh I'm just gonna work on this today while it continues to rain

You usually have to homicidal or suicidal here-----now if the doc misunderstands cutting then yes you could....

I'm terrified right now. Every time I listen to music the sounds around me grow in intensity. It's like someone is haunting and harassing me. I saw faces followed by a storm cloud in the bedroom with me...

I guess the first order of business is to question this, why it's happening...

I'm not sure there is a why...my pdoc told me it tends to be stress related but I had near constant hallucinations(auditory) before the meds. There is also something where one noise can be mistaken for another---this happens a lot with fans (the air blowing kind) and music.

Morning

Didnt quite sleep well

I kinda have a problem...

The apple keynote starts at 12 here. But im supposed to meet with a pss at that time.

Should i skip the pss?

............

You could always watch it later.

Yeah...no fans or anything, just ambient noises from being in apartment building. I am taking a lower dose (5mg) of olanzapine though...to see if the side effects go down.

I could but i kinda waited til march for this.

Oh the dilemma.

I do wanna see the pss but i waited since march for this

Can't wait for tomorrow cuz then I won't be working. My psychologist will phone me tomorrow I have good things to tell him.

Ignore my paranoid ***.

They're outside watching me and I'm worried my doctor will have me committed when I see him. Maybe I should lie to him? I don't know if I trust him. What if he's working with them? Tv is talking directly to me they're staring at me watching me I don't know what to do

Either because I am Sui or homicidal

-having an anxiety attack and staff can't deal with it

- my abdomen was so sore I thought there was something seriously wrong I couldn't walk properly every time I touched it I barfed and later was just found out it was a bladder infection

- the antibiotics I was given made me go looney thought I was slipping into psychosis only to realize that I was red as a lobster they tested me and no more infection and I was allergic to antibiotics and had to stop immediately

- I have major asthma attacks go to the hospital get X-ray done to find out I had pneumonia all in my left lung that's why I was hacking up fluid which at that point they chalked it up to my acid reflux so I said take an X-ray and did that's what they found out above even after taking the full course of antibiotics for a full month of February I was sick couldn't do or be anything I made two docs appointments and I had to go when no one was there so that meant either early in the morning before no one got there or late at night after they had closed so I wouldn't get sicker but it was so bad at one point I had to be ordered oxygen because the hospital wouldn't keep me! I was also on crutches at the time pre-injury someone passed down their walker so I could go down and bug staff whenever I needed to by executive directors orders if I needed this or that for my place like groceries/cleaning/'taking out the trash.

or when I slipped and fell on black ice on December when I was delivering papers. the paramedics thought I dislocated my ankle because it was the size of a grapefruit and painful to the touch!

Or because I overdosed because the voices said they would hurt my friend if I didn't go hurt a staff member that hurt me like my abusive mother would so (he looked pre-century with no face and giant axe the voice did ) I overdosed to save that both of them!

Does that satisfy your answer?

mine!