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newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:09 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

For a long time all I could watch were Disney movies...

See it seems to me that you two are pretty close already if he knows all your stuff and hasn't even flinched....

I was dating this one guy and he wanted to see um love and mercy about Brian Wilson....I thought great I can see how he reacts to mental illness without telling him about mine...needless to say it was not a good outcome, best not to know people's honest opinions sometimes....

Well i really believe he likes me a lot. Dont think he wants to completely be friends tho or wait for months for me. But im just not fully ready. I told him i REALLY need a friend right now more than anything.

He hasnt flinched. I told him 2 weeks in cuz he liked me. He said his ex dealt with bipolar.

Erti · Sep 10, 2017, 07:09 PM

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Sometimes psychotic · Sep 10, 2017, 07:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

online dating for men and women are completely different games. Women get bombarded by suitors while men have to play the game of carefully paying attention to a profile and making each introduction sincere, hoping for a response from a woman, knowing it will be hit or miss regardless. In my experience, out of the hundred or so messages I've sent, I've only received a dozen or so women that hit me up first. I have a feeling male essages to female messages are highly outweighed. No criticism to women. They get the pick of the litter, good for them! And boy I've experienced some picky women! This is the reason I don't even try anymore, because I'm not at my best and because of that I wont find what I'm looking for. IE, they wont want damaged goods.

There are two things here one you are absolutely right about the online dynamics but there is also something more subtle with mental illness....I think there is more fear associated with men who have mental illness than women. I think it's really hard to counteract that type of ignorance because it plays into attraction or lack there of. Still I'm sorry you've given up on it for now....

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 10, 2017, 07:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

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I don't know if it's the orange jumpsuit or the downtrodden look but I always think I could see these guys a mile a way, but I doubt it's that obvious in real life...

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:18 PM

But hes also never seen me in an episode....and thats a whole different story. An episode and being off meds for me is not the same as having transient symptoms while on my meds. Off meds/episode i cant tell if im in an episode.

Ive only ever let this online community, well and of course my immediate family see me in an episode.

ACTUALLY...for the longest time....i didnt tell you all this...but i thought for the long time he was trying to kill me.

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 10, 2017, 07:20 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

But hes also never seen me in an episode....and thats a whole different story. An episode and being off meds for me is not the same as having transient symptoms while on my meds. Off meds/episode i cant tell if im in an episode.

Ive only ever let this online community, well and of course my immediate family see me in an episode.

ACTUALLY...for the longest time....i didnt tell you all this...but i thought for the long time he was trying to kill me.

May be a good reason to stay on meds for a while?

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

May be a good reason to stay on meds for a while?

Yea but thats kinda hard because right now im not really wanting to be on meds. For several reasons, a few i mean. Like...my energy level right now is crap on them. Mostly that. Because before i was going off them cuz i was lonely but im not really that lonely anymore.

Sep 10, 2017, 07:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

online dating for men and women are completely different games. Women get bombarded by suitors while men have to play the game of carefully paying attention to a profile and making each introduction sincere, hoping for a response from a woman, knowing it will be hit or miss regardless. In my experience, out of the hundred or so messages I've sent, I've only received a dozen or so women that hit me up first. I have a feeling male essages to female messages are highly outweighed. No criticism to women. They get the pick of the litter, good for them! And boy I've experienced some picky women! This is the reason I don't even try anymore, because I'm not at my best and because of that I wont find what I'm looking for. IE, they wont want damaged goods.

i deleted my account on okcupid,
it just got too overwhelming, i posted ONE picture and suddenly got non-stop messages from guys, and a good portion of them were basically asking if i wanted to have sex with them... even on the first date

i actually almost met up with one of them

Possible trigger:

and he was expecting a BJ on the first date

but in the end, it wasnt worth risking my safety so i didnt meet him

but i did meet someone really, really awesome from okcupid and we are still in contact

Erti · Sep 10, 2017, 07:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I don't know if it's the orange jumpsuit or the downtrodden look but I always think I could see these guys a mile a way, but I doubt it's that obvious in real life...

there's a lot more sex offenders than you think probably in your area. I moved back into my moms house and even we have a sexual predator... But given that mug shot makes him look like a sex predator.

Findingreason · Sep 10, 2017, 07:27 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Yea but thats kinda hard because right now im not really wanting to be on meds. For several reasons, a few i mean. Like...my energy level right now is crap on them. Mostly that. Because before i was going off them cuz i was lonely but im not really that lonely anymore.

I'm feeling similar about not wanting to be on meds...well primarily the APs. I've only been taking 5 mg of Zyprexa instead of 10, and noticing that I'm less sleepy and hopefully this monstrous appetite goes down. Thought about going off the meds entirely at some point. I feel pretty confident about handling my hallucinations...

Findingreason · Sep 10, 2017, 07:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

there's a lot more sex offenders than you think probably in your area. I moved back into my moms house and even we have a sexual predator... But given that mug shot makes him look like a sex predator.

I always learn who the sex offenders are in areas...better to be safe than sorry. Freaky when I was working at a store in Columbus, I saw one of those predators in the store. They're everywhere...

Sometimes psychotic · Sep 10, 2017, 07:31 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

there's a lot more sex offenders than you think probably in your area. I moved back into my moms house and even we have a sexual predator... But given that mug shot makes him look like a sex predator.

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

I always learn who the sex offenders are in areas...better to be safe than sorry. Freaky when I was working at a store in Columbus, I saw one of those predators in the store. They're everywhere...

Is there a listing? ...I live right by an elementary school so I doubt there are any near me, known ones that is.

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

I'm feeling similar about not wanting to be on meds...well primarily the APs. I've only been taking 5 mg of Zyprexa instead of 10, and noticing that I'm less sleepy and hopefully this monstrous appetite goes down. Thought about going off the meds entirely at some point. I feel pretty confident about handling my hallucinations...

I couldnt handle mine. Especially not my delusions. Still dont want the meds tho kinda. Yea they help keep me safe and sane but everything about them is terrible

Findingreason · Sep 10, 2017, 07:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Is there a listing? ...I live right by an elementary school so I doubt there are any near me, known ones that is.

Yeah, I believe the info is made public, I never had trouble looking up the info.

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:32 PM

I feel like i answer my own questions when i talk about my meds. Obviously im smart but have not too much common sense i guess

ofthevalley · Sep 10, 2017, 07:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Is there a listing? ...I live right by an elementary school so I doubt there are any near me, known ones that is.

Yup. You can look up the sex offenders in your area. Here it's listed on the the state page.

Findingreason · Sep 10, 2017, 07:35 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I couldnt handle mine. Especially not my delusions. Still dont want the meds tho kinda. Yea they help keep me safe and sane but everything about them is terrible

The delusions are what worry me...they can catch me completely off guard.

Possible trigger:

But even the voices telling me to kill myself and that they were after me...I was able to make peace oddly enough with the voices.

I hate the side effects of these flucking meds.

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:38 PM

I was so busy today i forgot to take my gabapentin so ill have to take all 3 tonight. Or maybe just 2.

I dont want my haldol.

Maybe i should test this guy anyway and see how he reacts to one of my episodes. Or if i have one being off one day.

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 07:39 PM

Anyone else afraid if their nipples are hard and they push down on it, itll go in?

ofthevalley · Sep 10, 2017, 07:41 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I was so busy today i forgot to take my gabapentin so ill have to take all 3 tonight. Or maybe just 2.

I dont want my haldol.

Maybe i should test this guy anyway and see how he reacts to one of my episodes. Or if i have one being off one day.

A test isn't worth an episode.

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 08:11 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

A test isn't worth an episode.

Prob not. Maybe i just still feel lonely deep down. I could have a lot of people in my life and ill STILL feel lonely

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 08:14 PM

...Im sorry but i just dont want my haldol...

cogladaid · Sep 10, 2017, 08:17 PM

I feel really good right now. Everything is awesome my mind is moving so fast everything is aweosme|~~

newtus · Sep 10, 2017, 08:20 PM

At least someone is feeling good. I feel depressed

Sep 10, 2017, 08:39 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I was so busy today i forgot to take my gabapentin so ill have to take all 3 tonight. Or maybe just 2.

I dont want my haldol.

Maybe i should test this guy anyway and see how he reacts to one of my episodes. Or if i have one being off one day.

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