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Jasper in the Rocky Mountains.

You know where it is ^^

Yes I used to work/live there in 2003-2005

Then came back there in 2006 to lived there for about 6weeks. I didn't get a chance to work though.

Went for a vacation there in 2009 & 2011!

Haven't back since it's gorgeous there!!! Especially nice in both seasons of winter or spummer(haha 1 week of spring then like rest is summer). But I enjoyed the winter the most because I could actually have a white Christmas every year. They got snow I think thanksgiving Someone said so that mountain is going to have an excellent snow pack.

Bf just left. He stayed an extra hour.

Took my meds

Anyone up?

I am up
I don't known how long I will stay up,
I am feeling pretty sad and I kind of want this day to hurry up and end

Also, there was snow on the ground here this morning as well. But it all melted by mid-morning.

Funny I haven’t seen it snow so early in quite a few years. Last year didn’t even get our first snow until mid-November.

Yes watching cubs......

Im on my period so nothing happened today. But we played around...

Edit: Nah maybe it's meant for Facebook. I don't see everyone having my sense of humour. I fail to make people laugh in that way.

Now I'm curious. xD

It's 1am and I'm outside drinking tea and smoking cigs.

The stars and northern lights are beautiful.

Depression insomnia meets the wonders of life.

Sleep.. sleep..

Edit: This time of year was a very spiritual thing I do. I remember it was -10 degrees but I didn't care and just layed down on the grass and looked at the northern lights and stars at night.

Right now it's -2 degrees.

That saucer pan alignment of stars if you know what I'm talking about.. The "Big dipper". When I was like 12 I remember my dad, my sister and I got lost on one of the Canary Islands in the town with palm trees and that and we walked towards that star alignment to find our way back at night.

That's beautiful Tweaky.

at one point of my life I wanted to be an astronomer. I always thought the stars are beautiful and I wanted to learn more about different planets.

I was always interested in astronomy too so my uncle gave me a link to a website that links to telescopes around the world but he was really really into astronomy and I kind of got caught up in life at that time.

I want to remix songs. I believe any amount of lyrics can make a wide number of songs. I'd like to say infinite to give you the idea in magic.

Soz my serotonins go uppppp then ..

Then they go down.

I told my mom to make an appointment with my pdoc. Idk if I should cancel it. I mean I want to stop smoking because it makes me sui when I stop smoking but w/e.

Anhedonia is what it is. I'll just leave it tbh and try to enjoy what ever I can enjoy. I don't feel much emotion as I am capable of but idk.

I feel motivated. Sad. Happy.

But most of all content in acceptance.

I've been awake for almost 24 hours. I don't feel like I want to sleep.

It's still getting in the 80s here. Sucks

I live in ohio... we get the best of both worlds. Lately temperatures High in the 70s and lows in the 50/60's. Although it doesn't look like it's fall but not quite like summer either.

Right now it's 46F or 8C it's freezing outside it's wet cold because it has been raining!

I think I am in psychosis I can't tell reality from non reality all electronics have voices comings out of them and their all turned off except my cellphone and clock it's very disturbing! They are talking to my other voices all I know it was like this last night and I need to be more careful about taking my night meds it seems I didn't take my antipsychotic for two days because I found them in my sheets yesterday at least two days of them, but I don't know if their consecutive or non consecutive!

Again waking up early I was out at 10:30pm -5am I been awake 19mins.

Morning

Having coffee

Its 61 here and it rained overnight

I showered. Im so clean and freshy

I got down to 167.8 pounds. I checked this morning. Gonna try to eat super healthy today and not a lot. 6 small meals.

Man if i could just get down to 120 or 130. Id be so happy.

My sister band played in the Ohio State University football stadium yesterday. I think they had students from all around Ohio play there. It was awesome.

Playing with Spotify.....it's pretty nice....