Roll Call 110

Ive been ordering clothes online in smaller sizes since july in hopes i lose weight. None fit. And i havent lost but 10-15 pounds since march. Its no fun having all these clothes pile up on my chair and i cant wear a single one.

I think part of me needs to accept im gonna be a little bit bigger for the rest of my life. Especially if i plan on having kids.

This is how big i am as of today.

Maybe I’ll ask my doc about that one. Valproic avid was hell for me and my doc isn’t excited about lithium so maybe this’ll be a good one idk.

It’s a good one if the don’t get the rash.....which is very rare....

Do you guys think im big?

My bf won’t even visit anymore if I’m sick.

Mine prob wont either. Which is why i hope im not sick. Plus it would be an extremely extremely long week if i was. Plus i need to goto my moms house to get my Christmas presents. Im trying to take medicine to nip it.

My son isn't feeling well either. Lots of bugs floating around out there. Hoping he feels better in the morning.
Feel better newtus

Thank you. If im actually sick (and i think i am) ill be sick for a week.

I feel like im gonna throw up.

I literally thought I had basically no money only a few hundred dollars but I looked at my payroll from work today and I have like 2500 so I can buy people Christmas presents =]

Is it wrong to be tired of my friend? The one with BPD i always talk about.

She just never contacts me unless its on her own time. I feel bad because she got me Christmas presents. But its just not fair to me or the friendship. Its very one sided. At first it was cool and all but a year later and its not appealing or cool at all. She has a TON of drama in her life too. Having sex with multiple men in a short period of time, moving in with her boyfriend of two months, very physically sick and ill, thinks everyone hates her, etc. She has new drama every two days.

Im the type of person that runs away from people like that. Not to say she hasnt listened to me or been there for me at times (as much as she can while being in another state), but its mostly been about her. If she cant reach me she automatically thinks im mad at her or hate her.

As with anyone i deal with like this (not just her) im starting to pull back a lot.

Any advice?

It's not wrong to be tired of her crap. It's draining to listen to someone else's drama all the time. That would make me pull back as well.

Thanks valley.

I have tried to help her using coping skills ive learned for myself. Such as staying on meds, keeping positive, surrounding yourself with positive people, cutting out negative people, etc. But she doesnt listen. She doesnt even try to implement this stuff. She just jumps from one drama to the next and comes and complains to me about her life.

She has moments of positive things to say. But its so rare.

She considers me her best friend. And i kinda consider her mine too. But i find myself having to have another best friend as well. To offset her drama she puts on me.

Hahaha, my humor is dry, I thought you would laugh!

Won't say anything about Star Wars, I keep my mouth shut

My bff for 15 years who became a stranger to me now were like this. The friendship was one sided. It was always about her. So one time I vented to her about my depression hoping for a simple hug, but instead she said "you never try to get better". The friendship ended for good though deep down inside I am still hoping the best for her.

So cute, SP!

That’s cute!

Hi there Newtus! I was just telling my daughter tonight to get some Succrets with zinc and vitamin C. And Mucinnex is great for getting rid of that phlegm.
Good idea to check with the pharmacy to see if it's ok to take with your medes.
Hope Your well soon. All the best now and in the New Year!

I've been taking Emergen-C since the beginning of my USA journey and I swear by the stuff. It keeps me well. Zicam is also good too. I hope you feel better soon.

Good evening everyone. How are things going?

I'm okay. Leaving at 2:15 AM for Cleveland Hopkins Airport. Calling for 1 1/2 hour delays. Snow is 6 inches or more near the lake. System should clear out by 6am, in time for my flight. Then spending the day with the partner and doing things. Gonna be a busy and tiring day. It's hard to believe this trip is just about over.

Morning!

I’m good. Up early.. start off my new regime of getting up earlier. Just about to get a shower and then I have to pack for going away. Only a few hours before we leave for my parents house.

It sounds like your trip has been good! Sucks it’s nearing its end but at least you’ll have lots of good memories of it for a while.

I am sorry to hear about your cockatiel.

Look I'm sporting in the airport 8)

Morning

Had coffee. Up with my dad now. Hes helping me set up the fishtank he bought me for Christmas!