Roll Call 112

I think you’re fine.

If you order this morning it's likely to arrive by Friday or Saturday. I hate that feeling when I'm running out of juice and there's only crappy stuff left. :/

Morning

Having coffee and talking to my dad. Also vaping and looking up engagement rings for fun.

Good morning. I have to hurry and shower. Just as I thought, no one came to wake me.

I have an hour to brush my teeth and dress. As I suspected no one came to wake me. It's not good in this room now. I think I'm going to request a room change. I hate it here.

I searched the bf’s background. Nothing came up? Like it said his past was clean. But i know its not.

Good morning. Getting ready to work. Blah.
Having a good day so far. Well see how long that lasts lol.
Good luck at the ophthalmologist Angelique.

Morning... Listening to some Jpop. Stalking my boyfriend's ex girlfriend. That guy's poor soul.

My boyfriends ex used the shyt outta him. And eventually cheated on him with someone else for money.

No need to apologize! I like talking to you, and you've never offended me either.

morning and happy late new year!!!!!!!!!!! it's been a minute since i logged on, got busy with things, hope everyone's had a decent holidays. positive voices lately so that's weird and new. something's taking on am's voice and saying nice things to me. we spoke in the shower about my potential. it kept butting him out of the conversation and overtaking him. i like this version, gonna be real pissed if it's a trick. it was angry that i did my yoga and meditation instead of coding all night but nothing bad happened. it was more like a disappointed parent, not a tyrant. things are busy in the real world i guess if they had to hire me a kindly babysitter instead of the usual watcher.

Erti I would delete that before someone quotes it and it on here forever........

tee hee... didn't he look so cute in that dress? xD

This is what he said about the situation and what i was concerned about him just playing it off (the job thing for winter).

Mine pretty much had many wtf girlfriends... one happen to of been a drug addict prostitute...

What the bf said changes things. (April date).

Since hes getting a new car in April (and possibly a raise), we would prob be moving in about summertime. Somewhere in those summertime months (june-august) (still a guess but a good one at that).

With that said, and from he said (him wanting to take it to the next level), i need to start discussing my concerns about a life with him. Like i said before, yea i could technically do this while we are settled into a place, but that makes no sense. I dont want to wait and be leased into an apt with a man for a year (especially since hes wanting to go forward) and not have worked out kinks with our future.

Im concerned about a few things. His extended family and their beliefs about black people, his record (how would if affect moving in, marriage, kids, loans, etc), and his job (how would he take care of kids and maybe me).

I just want a lasting relationship and i dont want those 3 things to get in the way. Not trying to have a divorce. My dad said if i married someone and it ended in divorce itll be a lot harder to get back disability since marriage terminates it (under the conditions im under).

Yes

But with all the bottles in the front it looked like total party and I’ve heard employers will do image searches for people to find party images like that.

Have you considered what you’ll do for work once your income is gone?

ah, true. Thanks xD

When u only floss the morning of ur dentist appt

No i have no idea. And the bf doesnt make a lot of money. I mean i kinda thought about taking up freelance writing work. Or something in writing. But not journalism. Like maybe ghosting a book, or writing articles for websites or something. Writing is Something i enjoy. And its something i could do from home. I already considered this as a way of extra income for the apt.

But idk how that pays into the federal system; freelance work. I dont have any skills since i havent worked since i was 17. Im desperately trying to finish school but theres only so many things i can do in online school. And the older i get (past year or 2) Philosophy seems more and more impractical.

I might have to start going to school in person for a more variety in options in degrees. Which means im limited to 1 school. Theres only one school in this county and its a community college. Dallas county has its own comm. college and also some universities but then id have to move over there. But then i really cant because i feel like i need to be close to my dad for his health reasons like his alcoholism. (My choice due to the 2 times i came home and found him almost dead from drinking). Plus id lose my mental health services that have been set up for 6 years now, with the county clinic, and id be charged for them. Everything medical, social, and financial institutions are set up for me in this county. Id be technically starting from scratch. New everything.

Im scared about all this. Idk where to start and i feel almost alone in this because the bf is living day to day he told me. While im planning for the future everyday. Even started saving up cash last month...

Brush ur teef y'all

same same SAME

Good afternoon/morning everyone. How are things going?

Hugs to 12AM, Newtus, and Angelique. I hope your appointment goes well, Angelique. I hope you are okay 12AM, as always if you need to talk more I am here. I hope things work out with your plans Newtus. I often find it useful to set up a tiered goal system. The long term goals are listed down, and then I segment them into the small pieces that happen day to day to make the mid-range goals happen the ultimately lead to my long term goals being accomplished.

I'm okay today. I've slept a lot over the last 2 days....but I am okay. I bought Life is Strange the other day to play on my PC. Should be fun. I meet with the social worker and the person that is in charge of the workshop programs offered by the city on Friday. Things are moving forward.

I hope your day stays good. We blew it again. The ride didn't show up. So I'm.very worried they'll fire me as a patient. I'm so depressed.

We finally had a smoke break for the first time since Saturday. My vape never tasted so good! But now it needs a refill. It got kind of flooded without being used for such a long time too.

So... I come back from my vape and pick up my phone, and it was not locked. It flew open to my diary, for a week ago Tuesday, where I just happened to criticize another nurse. I'm so embarrassed. Dear God. What else did they see?