Roll Call 112

Hopefully the weather will stay seasonal. This negative degree weather is terrible. I feel bad for my dogs having to go out there.

Not sure how to get myself out of this hole alone. The few people in my life i really rely on. The bf and my parents. Im still alone most of the time anyway.

Moving in with the bf, thinking about it, i dont think itll change my loneliness and boredom. I would still be alone most of the time if not more. I told the bf i have it pretty good here at my dads and that maybe i just shouldnt leave. He said i should because im almost 30 still living with my dad.

My husband is gluten free too. We found some pizza crust he liked but we have a hard time finding decent food. Our grocery store doesn’t have much and there aren’t any specialty stores around us.

I see nothing wrong with staying with your dad if you are happy there. Age has nothing to do with it. I wanted to live with my mom the whole time I lived in my other house.

Im not completely happy here. Only because he works so much. I figured he’d be retired by now and we’d be doing more. But hes not. But then the bf works the same types of hours and same amount of days my dad works too. 8 hours a day or more for 5 days a week. Obviously itd be different with the bf tho. And id have to tend to the house bit more than i do now.

Indianapolis Indiana

I think the first episode of the X-files is repeating today at 5:00 ET. In case anyone missed it. Hopefully I'll be able to tune in.

It would definitely be different having your own place and a bf to take care of. Especially if you lived closer to a city. More to do.

My sister was supposed to be up for parole this week. She waived her right to the hearing. I guess she’s more comfortable in jail than she would be living in the streets in this weather.

I finally watched it. It was classic X-Files. Reminiscent of the earlier seasons.

They’ve not announced when it’ll be airing in the UK yet. It should be soon though. I can’t wait!

Yes, I loved that! And Reyes with the CSM? How are they going to explain that?! I hope they also work Doggett into it.

Is it wrong to want to make friends with people who arent severely mentally ill?

My pss wants me to hang out with people from group/clinic and be friends with them. But i really dont want to. I realize my life is not completely together but these people are either homeless or cant think for themselves. Not really wanting to hang out with anyone who doesnt have a car after dealing with my ex (who i met in group). This one girl is homeless, doesnt ever want to take her meds. Most of them are like that. Only one person has their life together a lot but they dont live around here. But same goes for my friend out of state.

I feel super judgmental cuz i am mentally ill, technically. Maybe my ex made me feel that way but if so many of them are willing to lose everything by stopping meds thats a red flag for a friendship.

I don’t feel great today. I have a headache and vicious dry mouth. It’s making me drink a bunch of water which is upsetting my stomach.

There is nothing wrong with making friends with people that aren’t mentally ill. That doesn’t mean the mentally ill cant be great friends. I consider all of you to be my friends and we are all mentally ill. I think it’s good to have friends that understand. Everyone in my real life are “normal” and I don’t talk to them about my illness. I think they would be afraid of me if I told them.

Yea i understand. I feel the same. Its good to have someone that understands.

Watching black mirror now. So awesome!

That's terrible. Do you have any pepcid? Try some tea, the caffeine will be good for the headache.

Wow...ugh just wow.

That episode was so so so good

I have so many questions

What is that show about?

It was called Hang the DJ. It was a relationship episode. Kinda about modern dating. Kinda like tinder. Im kinda lost. But it was so romantic.

All i ever relate to now is relationship stuff.

Have you ever been evaluated for a PD?? I just wondered if that might explain your experiences, like the up down up down, drinking, SH and disordered eating etc. IIRC, you're only seeing a GP for psych meds right now, is that right? Could you arrange to see a T? I think maybe that could help you, if you could get a good one.

I hope you don't mind me saying this. I'm not supposed to be on roll call, but here I am, and this post stood out to me.

*Willow*

What do you mean you’re not supposed to be on roll call?

Ive had too much caffeine

Im crazy wired